Today is my last day of summer vacation. I started celebrating this day last night by staying up until after one o’clock researching ancestry to determine why my oldest daughter looks like a Native American. We figured out it might have to do with the “Black Dutch.” in Western Europe. But we’ll have to see. I then slept in this morning to 7:20. I was going to sleep until 8:00 but then realized it’s been days since I watered the lawn and even with the rain we’ve had it was going to die unless I did something this morning, so I’m watering. After getting the lawn watered I am going to the store and buying myself a new pair of walking shoes. Since the pair I have I’ve walked the tops from the bottoms and the tread is non-existent on the bottom of the shoe. I figure I’ve walked over a thousand miles in those shoes. They were great. I will miss them. I will be doing a 5K this weekend with 3 Fat Chicks. I clocked the big part yesterday. 2.2 miles in 44 minutes. Poor Jet. I think I about killed him. I will only take him on the small part, our usual mile loop. I’m excited to weigh tomorrow. I know I have lost some. I love backpacking. I can hardly wait to do it again. There’s the alarm to change the water. I better go and do it and then wake up my love.
Posted on July 31st, 2008 by writermom46
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I thought about it and what was making me sabotage myself was my fear of change. Not only fear of my body changing but things are changing at work and I am making myself crazy thinking about it. I was medicating myself trying to avoid thinking at all. So I quit eating and played out as many “worse case scenarios” in my mind and I’m thinking that did the trick because nothing I thought of was all that bad and I’m feeling really great about change right now. I was scared and now I’m better. We’ll see as time goes on. Monday and Tuesday this week I went on a backpacking trip with the young women in my church. WOW! That was fun. It was hard and I am sore but the experience is one that I want to repeat as often as I can. My plan is to buy myself equipment and find a few friends and do overnighters as much as I can. I am a slow hiker so everyone is going to have to be patient with me. This was the first backpack trip I have EVER taken and I so want to go again.
Posted on July 30th, 2008 by writermom46
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Yesterday was one of those days. I don’t know what happened at the end but the middle was THE BEST! My oldest and I went shopping yesterday afternoon and I tried on clothes from the section of the store I haven’t been able to shop from in a long time. 16’s were too big and 18’s were out of the question. I was enjoying myself. (The only downer was that I had no money to spend. I did buy a five dollar undershirt that will go under a shirt I already have that is too low in front.) Everything was going so well, until after dinner. I technically had three hundred calories left for the day when we sat down to a movie. So I had some popcorn. Something kept telling me I was hungry so I had a high calorie burrito. I wasn’t hungry after that but I had to have two quesedillas with a butt load of cheese on them. I was knowingly sabotaging myself, but I can’t figure out why. So I’ve been sitting here for the last hour thinking about it and I’m not any closer to finding out why I would. I guess I will think about it some more.
Posted on July 26th, 2008 by writermom46
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I neglected to mention I started a food journal a year ago June and I wrote on the last page yesterday. A new start for me. I need to find another notebook or make one. I’m excited to do that too.
Posted on July 25th, 2008 by writermom46
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Weigh in day. I’m so proud of me! I worked hard counting calories this week, fell off the wagon one day, and got right back on and lost 2.6 pounds. I didn’t feel like I was losing anything and I was worried the scale would reflect that. If I add regular exercise to that I will lose more and faster. I wonder if I can lose 20 pounds by my October 31st Birthday? I will figure it out.
Posted on July 25th, 2008 by writermom46
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Today is a major holiday in Utah. The 24th of July. It commemorates the arrival of the Mormon pioneers in Utah. In our little community it is bigger than the fourth of July. The fireworks are better anyway. So this means picnics and games and hanging out with family. I’m feeling better but I’m not sure I’m up to being with family. Any family. Even my girls and their dad. I ate alot yesterday afternoon. It was shades of how I eat during the school year. I keep telling my family we should just come home from school and eat dinner. It’s early but I’m hungry. I’m also frustrated and ready to wind down. I can’t tell you how much I am dreading the new school year. I feel a panic attack coming on. This summer has been great and way too short. I want it to go on forever.
Posted on July 24th, 2008 by writermom46
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I’m feeling better this morning. The antibiotics are working as is the cough medicine. I tried two new recipes for low fat/low calorie dishes last night. I don’t know if I am going to do that again. They might have been good if there had been some sugar in them or more spices. I’ll have to try again with something else. But first, I think I’ll go back to bed.
Posted on July 22nd, 2008 by writermom46
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I have a sinus headache, bronchitis, and my varicose veins are acting up. I just want to go back to bed and sleep the rest of the day. But there are too many dishes to do, a dog who is in desperate need of a walk, and weeds three feet tall in the backyard. Of course, the way I’m feeling right now those things will be put off, AGAIN, until tomorrow or the next day. The doctor gave me prescriptions for some good drugs that he said should get me feeling better in no time. The trouble is I have to get up enough energy and cash to go get them. I wish I felt comfortable somewhere.
Posted on July 21st, 2008 by writermom46
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My souvenirs from Alaska included a really cool t-shirt and a way nasty cold. It is really hard to exercise when you can barely breathe. I tried it Friday and sat around yesterday. I may take my dog for a short–slow–walk today. The good news is that I have a very productive cough (eewy gooey green stuff) so I most likely don’t have pneumonia. The other bit of good news is that I don’t feel like eating. I may lose my pound this week after all. I also brought home from Alaska a screwed up body clock. (No night=play until the body gives out). I’ve been going to bed later and later and getting up later and later. I really would rather get up early and go to bed early. So. Cold or no cold I’m getting up on time tomorrow. (I kinda have to. It’s lawn watering day and I have to have it done by ten o’clock.)
Posted on July 20th, 2008 by writermom46
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Back from Alaska and weigh in day. I can’t believe it! I guess moose and reindeer and halibut are WAY lean because I lost half a pound and I ate like there was no tomorrow. Actually, I tried to eat lots of veggies and stayed away from the heavy breakfasts and maybe that’s what did it. I’m so glad. I thought for sure that I had gained weight because I was sitting around alot and it seemed like I was always eating. Cool. Alaska was great. I will go back as soon as I can. I didn’t get to see as much as I would like and I have a list a mile long of stuff I gotta do when I go back. My relatives are the best. They like to joke and make puns and tease and are generous to a fault. I got to see cousins I haven’t seen since I was a teenager and got to meet their teenage children. It’s amazing to me how much our children are like our parents. It was neat to see them all interact.
Posted on July 18th, 2008 by writermom46
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