I thought about it and what was making me sabotage myself was my fear of change. Not only fear of my body changing but things are changing at work and I am making myself crazy thinking about it. I was medicating myself trying to avoid thinking at all. So I quit eating and played out as many “worse case scenarios” in my mind and I’m thinking that did the trick because nothing I thought of was all that bad and I’m feeling really great about change right now. I was scared and now I’m better. We’ll see as time goes on. Monday and Tuesday this week I went on a backpacking trip with the young women in my church. WOW! That was fun. It was hard and I am sore but the experience is one that I want to repeat as often as I can. My plan is to buy myself equipment and find a few friends and do overnighters as much as I can. I am a slow hiker so everyone is going to have to be patient with me. This was the first backpack trip I have EVER taken and I so want to go again.
Posted on July 30th, 2008 by writermom46
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