I’m actually getting around to revamping my diet and exercise and I think I’m going to like what I’m doing. Monday-Wednesday-Friday I’m swimming and lifting weights with my legs. Tuesday-Thursday-Saturday I’m hiking/walking and lifting weights with my upper body. I bought some five pound weights (surprisingly heavy for my weak arms) and I’m ready to roll. Except, of course, my TOM showed up this morning. I haven’t figured out an exercise to replace swimming for a week yet. My brothers are planning a backpacking trip this spring to Havasupai (maybe I’ve mentioned it before). Sam told Paul I wanted to come and Paul’s reply was “She better get into shape.” I said “Duh.” My plan is to lose as much weight as my pack is probably going to weigh. I figure about fifty pounds. I also know I have to climb ladders up and/or down cliffs so I’m going to practice that–Climbing ladders I mean. I should be ready for it. If I get moving right now.
Posted on September 1st, 2008 by writermom46
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I have visited my blog several times in the past few weeks but I’ve been so tired and discouraged I didn’t want to write. I am at the lowest weight I’ve been in a lot of years. The last time I lost weight this is where I got stuck and then I started to gain weight. I don’t want to gain anything but I’ve had a rough couple of days and have eaten way too much. I haven’t binged. I hope I’ve got the binging under control. But definitely off plan. I wonder if It’s time to look at what I eat and in what amount and do some tweaking. I think about people who manage to maintain their weight in a healthy range and I wonder what they do naturally that I don’t do and if I will ever will be able to do it naturally. I will probably have to write down everything I eat and drink and make sure I mindfully exercise. I will have to work at this the rest of my life. I suppose there are worse things. I just feel so discouraged right now.
Posted on August 24th, 2008 by writermom46
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Frequency of my bogs is going to slow down now as I am back at work after summer vacation. I still wish I could get paid to do what I want, when I want, but I guess that’s what retirement is for. I don’t know if I will ever retire but that’s another discussion for another day. I’ve been working hard on exercise this week and I lost two pounds. I can feel it in my clothes, this summer’s weight loss I mean. I haven’t worn most of them since last spring and I felt a difference when I started wearing my work clothes. They are looser and flatter me more. I can hardly wait to have to get new clothes. Give me a month or two. I won’t bother with a new wardrobe to start school with now. I’ll wait for a size smaller.
Posted on August 9th, 2008 by writermom46
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I weighed yesterday and didn’t like what I saw but I made myself do it again today, and even though I still don’t like it, I accepted what it said. 221. After all that exercise this week I only lost .6 pounds for a total of five since the end of June. I looked up backpacking gear on the internet today and even though I am serious about doing more I am going to have to check out Wal-Mart or such for the gear. I can’t afford it otherwise. I did a 5K with 3 Fat Chicks today and did pretty well. I feel great about what I did. Jet just about pooped out on me but we both made it. I’m thinking I might try for 5K once a week. One day I will do 5K, one day I will do a 5 mile hike, two days I will work on weights/Pilates, and one day I’ll dance. During my lunch hour at school I want to do some yoga. I’m planning a backpacking trip for UEA weekend. Don’t know where yet.
Posted on August 3rd, 2008 by writermom46
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Today is my last day of summer vacation. I started celebrating this day last night by staying up until after one o’clock researching ancestry to determine why my oldest daughter looks like a Native American. We figured out it might have to do with the “Black Dutch.” in Western Europe. But we’ll have to see. I then slept in this morning to 7:20. I was going to sleep until 8:00 but then realized it’s been days since I watered the lawn and even with the rain we’ve had it was going to die unless I did something this morning, so I’m watering. After getting the lawn watered I am going to the store and buying myself a new pair of walking shoes. Since the pair I have I’ve walked the tops from the bottoms and the tread is non-existent on the bottom of the shoe. I figure I’ve walked over a thousand miles in those shoes. They were great. I will miss them. I will be doing a 5K this weekend with 3 Fat Chicks. I clocked the big part yesterday. 2.2 miles in 44 minutes. Poor Jet. I think I about killed him. I will only take him on the small part, our usual mile loop. I’m excited to weigh tomorrow. I know I have lost some. I love backpacking. I can hardly wait to do it again. There’s the alarm to change the water. I better go and do it and then wake up my love.
Posted on July 31st, 2008 by writermom46
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I thought about it and what was making me sabotage myself was my fear of change. Not only fear of my body changing but things are changing at work and I am making myself crazy thinking about it. I was medicating myself trying to avoid thinking at all. So I quit eating and played out as many “worse case scenarios” in my mind and I’m thinking that did the trick because nothing I thought of was all that bad and I’m feeling really great about change right now. I was scared and now I’m better. We’ll see as time goes on. Monday and Tuesday this week I went on a backpacking trip with the young women in my church. WOW! That was fun. It was hard and I am sore but the experience is one that I want to repeat as often as I can. My plan is to buy myself equipment and find a few friends and do overnighters as much as I can. I am a slow hiker so everyone is going to have to be patient with me. This was the first backpack trip I have EVER taken and I so want to go again.
Posted on July 30th, 2008 by writermom46
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Yesterday was one of those days. I don’t know what happened at the end but the middle was THE BEST! My oldest and I went shopping yesterday afternoon and I tried on clothes from the section of the store I haven’t been able to shop from in a long time. 16’s were too big and 18’s were out of the question. I was enjoying myself. (The only downer was that I had no money to spend. I did buy a five dollar undershirt that will go under a shirt I already have that is too low in front.) Everything was going so well, until after dinner. I technically had three hundred calories left for the day when we sat down to a movie. So I had some popcorn. Something kept telling me I was hungry so I had a high calorie burrito. I wasn’t hungry after that but I had to have two quesedillas with a butt load of cheese on them. I was knowingly sabotaging myself, but I can’t figure out why. So I’ve been sitting here for the last hour thinking about it and I’m not any closer to finding out why I would. I guess I will think about it some more.
Posted on July 26th, 2008 by writermom46
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I neglected to mention I started a food journal a year ago June and I wrote on the last page yesterday. A new start for me. I need to find another notebook or make one. I’m excited to do that too.
Posted on July 25th, 2008 by writermom46
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Weigh in day. I’m so proud of me! I worked hard counting calories this week, fell off the wagon one day, and got right back on and lost 2.6 pounds. I didn’t feel like I was losing anything and I was worried the scale would reflect that. If I add regular exercise to that I will lose more and faster. I wonder if I can lose 20 pounds by my October 31st Birthday? I will figure it out.
Posted on July 25th, 2008 by writermom46
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Today is a major holiday in Utah. The 24th of July. It commemorates the arrival of the Mormon pioneers in Utah. In our little community it is bigger than the fourth of July. The fireworks are better anyway. So this means picnics and games and hanging out with family. I’m feeling better but I’m not sure I’m up to being with family. Any family. Even my girls and their dad. I ate alot yesterday afternoon. It was shades of how I eat during the school year. I keep telling my family we should just come home from school and eat dinner. It’s early but I’m hungry. I’m also frustrated and ready to wind down. I can’t tell you how much I am dreading the new school year. I feel a panic attack coming on. This summer has been great and way too short. I want it to go on forever.
Posted on July 24th, 2008 by writermom46
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