It’s what I Do!

OK guys, so I’m struggling a bit with my schedule. Being in Amsterdam during the week should mean I have time for myself, to go to the gym, to prepare my food etc. But it’s not happening. I finally seemed to get it together around midweek last week - even went to the gym - but it’s not enough.

Weigh-Ins
16/03 217.4lbs (98.6KG)
23/03 216.2lbs (98.0KG) - 1.2 lbs (.6KG)
30/03 217.8lbs (98.8KG) +0.8 lbs (.3KG)
06/04 213.6 lbs (96.8 KG) -4.2 lbs (2KG)
13/04 212.4 lbs (96.3KG) -1.2 lbs (.5KG)
20/04 210.4 lbs (95.4KG) -2.0 lbs (.9KG)
27/04 207.8 lbs (94.2KG) -2.6 lbs (1.2KG)
04/05 205.8 lbs (93.3KG) -2.0 lbs (.9KG)
11/05 204.4 lbs (92.7KG) -1.4 lbs (.6KG)
18/05 203.2 lbs (92.2KG) -1.2 lbs (.5KG)
25/05 201 lbs (91.2KG) -2.2 lbs (1KG)
01/06 199.2 lbs (90.4KG) -1.8 lbs (.8KG)
09/06* 200 lbs (90.7KG) +.8 lbs (.3KG)*was away so missed w/i on Sunday
15/06 197.4 lbs (89.5KG) -2.6 lbs (1.2KG)
22/06 no weigh in
29/06 198.6 lbs (90KG) +1.2 lbs (.5KG)

So, the good:
I’m still in ONEderland. I am attempting to move whenever I can (lots of walking). I am making good food choices most of the time.

The bad:
I’m not making good food choices all of the time. OK, no one is perfect but this needs to change. On Thursday evening I actually went to the store and bought some stuff to have with me at the Amsterdam apartment AND at work. I’m making excuses again… too tired, not enough time, no energy, don’t feel like it, “it’s only one chocolate”, etc.

The Ugly:
Well, there is no ugly. I know this is a learning process. I haven’t quit and I haven’t been too hard on myself. Come on, it’s not a race to the finish anyway, is it?

So -
Food scale is now at work. Need to get a new one for home but for right now I’ll wait. Just one more week at work and I have vacation for two weeks and then I’ll arrange another one.

Bought some staples - Weetabix at work (milk I can get for free basically and I bought a measuring cup for the right amount of milk), bammetjes (the low in sugar ones, 1½ points each), laughing cow light triangles, low-fat philly, chicken and tuna for salads, low-fat feta cheese, FAGE 0% yogurt. On Monday after work I’ll pick up fruit and a few bags of mixed salad for my lunches. Dinners are the hardest now - since I’m living at someone else’s house and have to cook there it still feels a bit strange. I don’t know where everything is and I don’t have all my herbs and spices. Can’t use it as an excuse though- must just work through those feelings and do it anyway.

Went to the gym last Weds, am going again this Weds. Would have liked to plan for more, but I have a big coffee tasting to do on Tuesday night, that involves PR agencies from all over Europe so Monday is shopping and Tuesday is the dinner/coffee tasting. Thursday I meet with my old boss after work and Friday back home to Arnhem.

Reflecting on all of this at least I am in the 100’s now, I’m a bit smaller than I was last summer went we went on vacation and my attitude is a bit better now. My self-confidence is coming back and I’m not so negative about myself anymore. I’ve gotten several comments now from people at work who don’t see me all the time about me looking like I’ve lost weight.

So, to me it’s still 20 lbs (ok a bit less now) but it’s already a huge difference overall. I would like to lose a bit more before October, maybe even just 10 lbs, but I’ve reached my first goal and I’m happy about that.