It’s what I Do!

Things went a bit pear-shaped last week. Tons of stress, too little sleep, too many hours worked, too little planning. It showed on the scale too. I need to repeat to myself daily the following::
1) NOT planning doesn’t help me. Yes it’s great to sleep an additional 15 minutes in the morning, but if, at [...]

B/am - espresso
sandwich with 2 slices whole wheat bread, 2 slices WW chicken, dijonnaise
fruit (approx. 400g) w/140g Fage 0% yoghurt
L/midday- sm. spinach salad (approx 175g), spinach, mushrooms, red onion
30g salad dressing
1 HB egg, 2 egg whites
1 brown pistolet
veggies - courgette, celery sticks, carrots
D/evening - plan is fish, rice and broc
water -
limit to two grande triple [...]

 
March 24
B - espresso (x2)
1 litre of water
cereal (Cruesli) with skim milk (I don’t know how much this is, but I’m putting it in a coffee mug, not a bowl)
Ron made me a small cappo (skim milk)
L- spinach salad
approx. 150g spinach
2 extremely large mushrooms
1 small red onion
1 HB egg
30g (weighed uncooked) lean bacon bits
1 TBSP [...]

March 22
Cereal w/ skim milk
1 NF latte
1 banana
lunch
2 slices whole wheat bread, 2 slices WW chicken, FF dijonnaise, approx 15 g Mexican Philly light, approx 50g LF cheese.
1 apple
Dinner - chicken stirfry, 1 TBSP sate saus, later a small bowl of rice with about a tsp butter and salt.
Total 2 litres of water
3 billion shots [...]

March 19th
B/french press Peru (had only one cup, it went cold)
french press Costa Rica (drank 1/2 cup, took the rest with me)
Sandwich with 40g hummous, few slices of courgette
1 apple
L-midday/made a pasta and egg salad, took 1/2 for lunch
total (2 meals) 1 HB egg, 4 HB egg whites, 1/2 cup multigrain macaroni, 1 tomato, 1/2 [...]

http://www.3fatchicks.com/diet-recipes/apple-and-spinach-salad/
Want to try this, though not sure about using orange juice (bugs my stomach)

Final - March 18th
B/am - french press of Peru
Fruit smoothie (250ml karnemelk, strawberries, 1 mandarin, 1 kiwi, bramen, red berries - total 300g fruit, 10 g walnuts)
sandwich - 2 slices whole wheat bread, 30 g Phily light (mexican), slices of courgette
1 triple skinny grande latte
1 apple
L/midday - tuna salad (same as yesterday)
4 Wasa crackers
1 Diet [...]

espresso
Fruit Smoothie - karnemelk, raspberries, frozen banana
cappo w/skim milk
sandwich - 2 slices whole wheat bread, 2 slices WW chicken, FF dijonnaise
1 apple
1 actimel (probiotic drink)
vitelinea yoghurt - blueberry
tuna salad - tuna, yo-fresh, dijonnaise, green olives, red onion, courgette
4 Wasa Crackers
carrots
celery
apple
mandarins
planned dinner - brown or basmati rice, stir fry veggies, chicken or turkey
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Final For March 17th
March [...]

not counting, just writing…Short-term Goal: To not be the size of a small barn by October 14th, 2008.
Medium-term Goal: Be under 80KG (175 lbs or under)
Long-term Goal: Reach goal weight again 70KG (154 lbs), have exercise, eating right, moderation in everything incorporated together as my lifestyle.1 NF Milk latte
2 small kaiser rolls (these fit in [...]

So I have exactly 7 months now.
We decided to get married on Oct 14th.
And I’ve done pretty much nothing to improve the state of my body.
And I just do not know how to get to “that place” again. To have the motivation, the energy, the commitment to doing it.
*sigh*