I have the best support here, I really do. Thank you all so much for the comments on my “accountability” post!
I didn’t make it to the gym. I ended up working late. I am really reluctant to post my excuses because I truly believe that when our heart and head are both in it, we really just do it. Suffice it to say, I ended up working late and schlepping my stuff to AND from the office without usage. In fact I did it again today. Idiotic, at best.
To be fair - it IS very busy at work. I work in the finance department and end of this month is year-end. On top of that I’ve switched over a bit on my team. I went from being in a fairly stable yet most certainly challenging position supporting our German market to a complete nightmare supporting our Manufacturing side of the business. It has been non-stop chaos since the 1st of the month. While I am up for the challenge (I have already done A LOT that has NOT gone unnoticed - a clear reason why they wanted me to switch; someone needed to do something and I am, in fact, the self-proclaimed Lover of Problem-Solving), this is taking a wee bit of energy out of me on a daily basis. In fact, one of my colleagues said to me today “What’s wrong with you? You look like crap.” I said “What colour am I? Red? Or White?” I had only a few moments before pretty much felt all of the blood drain out of my face and the onset of stress-based tears about to roll down my cheeks. He confirmed it, I was white as a ghost.
So, yeah, I schlepped my stuff again to the office. This time I left it in my desk drawer. Tomorrow is WW and I’m going no matter what, even if it means that the result will be, actually, exact reflecting on how the last couple of weeks has been. It’s OK. I’m in this for the long haul. WW is about teaching us how to deal with ourselves, with food, with life… even when life isn’t in a completely controlled situation.
I would very much like to go to the gym this week. One of my colleagues who is on the “manufacturing” part of the team is actually free on Weds - Fri. STUPID time to be taking time off, maybe even more stupid that it was approved. Well, he just happened to call in sick today. I made a bet (only for €1, but I bet I win) that he won’t be in tomorrow as well. Leaving me, pretty much with all the shit. Ah, yes, Velveteen can also be a pessimist!
Food-wise am really doing ok. Got up early this morning and prepared everything. Maybe I’ll still get a maintain on the scale tomorrow.
There are of course NSV’s - my 48 jeans definitely are too big, my 46’s are getting roomy. My belt needs another hole in it. I’m looking forward to smaller clothes. I’m shopping around online for dress styles I like, that I could get married in. I’m looking forward to a not-so-overweight future 
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