It’s what I Do!

So far, so good.  Seriously.  I would much rather get this weight off than go off on a binge.  I’m just not going to do it.

My points so far this week::
Monday 23
Tuesday 19.5
Wednesday 20.5
Thursday 21 (I earned 2 bonus points for walking 40 min)
Friday 21

Goal points each day:: 21

Seriously! I haven’t had a WW week like this in I don’t know HOW long. Here comes the next challenge - the WEEKEND.

I’ve just spent some time printing off some WW recipes and a shopping list. It’s also time to educate the boyfriend as well. He’s been in the States all week (which is probably why it’s been so easy!) but home tomorrow. He’s already going to get a glimpse of what his dinner life is going to be like from now on.

On Thursday, I joined a gym. It’s called HealthCity. Basically it’s a pretty luxurious all-inclusive gym that’s all over the country. I made sure to subscribe the extra couple euros a month so I could go after work in Amsterdam and on the weekends in Arnhem. Tomorrow I’m going to get new gym clothes. I AM going to lose this weight. I’ve really had enough.  Anyway, the club is really great, the possibilities are endless.  There was even a special going on - August and September free!  They wanted €99 just to sign up and I told them no-can-do.  They then waived the fee so I only had to pay €34 administration costs.  Plus I get a free “Nike Package”  which is a bag, a towel, a water bottle and something else.  Woot!

I can think of so many challenges coming up. Just even having a night out is a challenge. The girl at WW said something funny about alcohol and losing weight; if it’s so hard for you to NOT drink or to drink less while you are on WW, maybe you need AA instead. I don’t need AA. I can most certainly keep my alcohol under control. God, there are so many excuses to drink too much wine… a hard day, it’s weekend, nice meal out, out with friends… but it’s all bullshit people! I’m telling you, it’s all crap!! I wish I could declare it from the rooftops “I AM FINISHED BEING FAT AND I WILL STOP AT NOTHING TO REACH MY GOAL!!!”

To be honest, there is one thing I have done that I do try to stay away from. That is… going on the scale! But I was so curious… on Monday I weighed 96.8KG. This morning I weighed… 95.4KG. That’s right. That’s me kicking fat’s ass. I WILL have a successful weekend because I WILL have a successful weigh-in on Tuesday. Just you wait.

Now… there is something else I want to say.  Maybe it sounds horrible or judgemental but to be honest, as much as I LOVE 3FC there are just too many whiners!  Get a grip, people!  Stop bitching and moaning and saying you can’t.  Stop hoping and wishing and “maybe”ing all over the place.  There are SO many excuses going on out there it’s not even funny.  Wake up and smell the bullshit.  Don’t get me wrong, I KNOW that I am not perfect and I’ve fiddle faddled around WAY too long before actually doing something about it, but that’s just it.  I’m AWAKE now.  There is not one single fill-in-the-blank that is worth ME not reaching MY goal.  I KNOW it’s hard.  I’ve done this before.  I WAS successful.  And what did I do?  I let a situation in my life completely take me over and let it RUIN me.  ME!  I SHOULD be ashamed of myself.  3 years!  3 years I kept that weight off and I just threw it all away.  Well.  Not anymore.  Screw that.  That was already 3 years ago now!!!  It’s SO time to put that behind me and work on my own behind at the same time.

I want to help and support people, I really, really do.  My patience must be thin, though.  I guess my approach is a tough love kind of thing.  If you are in the middle of your own issues, whatever it is that is pushing you down and keeping you from being true to yourself, just have a GOOD, HARD look at yourself and get moving.  MOVE ON.  No man, job, situation, etc.  is worth being untrue to yourself.  Of all the things that life throws us, what is the ONE THING we can control???  Ourselves.  That’s right.  No one else can do it.  There’s also no special pill, shake, cleanse, fast that can fix our problems either.  We MUST educate ourselves.  Why?  Because education is POWER.  Power brings us control. 

Just, please, do it.  STOP making excuses.  STOP hoping.  DO.  Hope and wishing is NOT going to cut it.  Decide for yourself what is important here.  Is it YOU?  Or is it binging?  Or is it the fear of the unknown?  Or is it a low self-esteem?  What do you want?  Make that decision and then do it.

I realise I am on a very high horse right now, but you can go ahead and keep checking back with me and keep seeing that I AM doing this because I am worth it.  And if what I write offends you or pisses you off and you think I’m a royal bitch that’s ok with me.  If *I* can’t be the one to tell and show you it can be done then PLEASE look to the others who have done it.  PLEASE.  Print their stories and pictures out.  READ THEIR WORDS.  See that they are ultimately saying the same thing that I am saying.  Mine just isn’t in a pretty package, that’s all.