Changes - A fat girl’s mind trip

I SOMETIMES have a perfectionist attitude and SOMETIMES try to keep things a little too structured. Well, it hasn’t helped me lose weight these past oh so many years so I decided to do it completely different this time. I am going to take babysteps and I am going to quit beating myself up when I am not perfectly doing what I think I should be doing.

Today is day 6 of my program.

 The first 3 days, I focused on tracking and staying within my points only, not worrying too much about the quality of my food choices. By Monday, I felt ready to add exercise and some of WW healthy guidelines. So, for the rest of the week my goals are:

Count & track points
Drink water
Eat required fruits & vegs.
1/2 of grains as whole grains
Exercise

I have 5 little smiley face stickers on the calendar next to my computer and it feels really good to look over and see that I have actually met my goals for the past 5 days. Not an easy task for this fat girl!

Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Morning
1/4 cup 1% low-fat milk (0.5)
1  cup cooked oatmeal (2)
3/4 Tbsp chopped walnuts (1)
1  Tbsp dried currants (0.5)
Midday
1  Subway 6-inch Sweet Onion Chicken Teriyaki Sub (7)
2  Subway White Chocolate Macadamia Nut Cookie (10)
Evening
1/2 cup Black Beans (1)
1  6-inch flour tortilla(s) (2)
1  cup cooked zucchini (0)
1  cup cantaloupe (1)
3/4 oz Mexican four cheese shreds (1.5)
1/2 serving Southwest Crockpot Stew (1)
Anytime
Whole wheat lf banana bread (3)
1/3 oz bittersweet chocolate (1)
1  cup 1% low-fat milk (2)
1  medium marshmallow(s) (0.5)
Food POINTS values total used (35.5)
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Activity
60 min walking, brisk (5)
Activity POINTS values swapped (5)
WPA used: (1.5)

I had planned for 1 cookie from Subway, but they gave me 2. I was home alone when I ate my lunch and tried to resist the 2nd cookie, but in the end, I folded and ate it. I was playing my typical mind games trying to justify only counting it as 1 (I was thinking they looked smaller than normal and maybe b/c of that, they are now giving out 2). After having a little talk with my inner brat, I am being accountable. Yay me!

My Menu for Monday, July 28, 2008
Morning
Whole grain wheat English muffin (2)
1  large egg(s) (2)
1/2 oz cooked crisp turkey bacon (0.5)
1  slice Reduced fat 2% American cheese (2)
Midday
Gourmet on the Go/Pasta (4)
1  Yogurt w/Blueberries & nuts (3)
Evening
3  oz Pork, tenderloin, cooked (3)
1  cup mixed greens (0)
1  large potato(es), baked (3)
1  cup pineapple (1)
1  tsp grated Parmesan cheese (0)
1  tsp unsalted butter (1)
Anytime
Vegs/beans/edamame (3)
1/3 cup aerosol whipped cream (1)
2  servings home made Vanilla Pudding (6.5)
Total points used (32)
3 WPA used
Activity - None

I have a REALLY hard time sticking to a diet. I think I will start posting my daily menus, but it seems a little cumbersome to go back and do it. I took a screenshot of my weekly usage chart. I think I did very well for the first 3 days.