I just signed up for 3 months of WW online. Ah yes, WW and I have had a torrid affair over the years so maybe I am crazy for another attempt.
My introduction to WW was as a teen. I had an overweight friend whose sister and cousin were going to join along with her obese mother. I felt overweight at 136 lbs. My friend’s sister lost a good amount of weight and looked absolutely healthy and gorgeous throughout high school. The rest of us didn’t stick with it.
However, over the years I have constantly been drawn back. In between I would try other stuff . . . starvation, ultra low calories, drugs, non-dieting, SB, low carb, low fat, nasty tasting meal replacement shakes, other low carb, calorie counting and on and on and on and on. Obviously, none of these has been successful and some were downright unhealthy. In the end, I am once again choosing WW, but don’t think for one minute that the following quote didn’t come to mind . . .
“Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.”
–Albert Einstein
However, I finally concluded that even tho the program was the same, I don’t have to approach it in the same way. This time I am going to not only work on eating in a healthy manner, but work on some of my mental issues as well. I am going to work through some of the perfectionism issues and all or nothing attitudes. I am going to quit lying to myself and others about my food intake. I am going to quit binge eating and eating in secret. Instead, I am focusing on this quote that I once saw at a WW meeting . . .
“You haven’t failed until you fail to try”
WW has many benefits. I like that you can pick what types of food you choose to eat. I like both the Flex plan and the Core plan and am comfortable with the points. I like that it is normal everyday food that can be worked around my lifestyle. Mostly, I really like that your progress is over a week, not day by day, which at times would feed in to my all or nothing thinking.
We do have one WW meeting in our little town. I have decided that I would prefer to do the online thing, tho, for two reasons:
- There is a woman that attends the meeting that makes me uncomfortable. We were friends at one time, many many years ago when I was much thinner than I am now. My husband and I moved away for a number of years and we lost touch. When I came back, I was significantly larger than when I left. I attended a WW meeting and this woman was there. I greeted her and she looked at me like I was crazy. Now, granted, she may not have recognized me b/c of the weight gain, but I know that over time, she did finally recognize who I was and still chose not to acknowledge our past relationship. I know I would feel different if I had a buddy to attend with, but I don’t. Silly? Maybe, but I don’t care.
- After all the dieting nonsense I have put my family through, I would really prefer to make some good progress before mentioning anything to anybody that I am close to.