100 Days
Yesterday I hit the 100 Days Completely On Plan With No Binges and Tons of Exercise milestone. And during this 100 Days I haven’t put a SINGLE thing in my mouth that wasn’t selected for health and wasn’t planned, counted (usually several times), and documented in advance. I mean NOTHING. I’ve been as strict as strict could be.
So the irony is thick that a good part of Day 100 was spent in the grocery store struggling against the urge to buy a package of “Newman O’s” (just like Oreos except vegan, organic, and yummier).
I saw them from across the aisle and I heard their sweet siren song. I casually wandered over to the display and began reading the back of the package. Two cookies = 130 calories. And plenty of sugar and fat — they are COOKIES for cripe’s sakes. But I put them into my shopping cart anyway thinking, “I’ll have 2 on the weekend as a special treat, I can spend 130 calories for a treat on the weekends!”
Then I took them out of the cart and put them back on the shelf thinking, “Why would you introduce 130 calories of nutritionally void sugar and fat to your diet now? You shouldn’t “treat” with food! You know better! Haven’t you learned ANYTHING?”.
I rebel against my logical self and two packages go into the cart, “I deserve them! I want them! I will have them!”
Out of the cart, “You’ll overeat them. You don’t need them. It’s a bad habit to start eating junk calories now! Get a grip, sister!”
Into the cart, “Chocolate mint creme flavor, MUST have! Want, want, WANT!”
Out of the cart, “You should eat fruit instead! You haven’t eaten anything remotely like a cookie in over 100 days, don’t start NOW you idiot!”
In the cart, “I can control myself, I SWEAR! I promise not to wolf down a whole row in the car on the way home! Belieeeeeeeeve me!”
Out of the cart, “STOP THIS! THEY WILL TRIGGER A BINGE!”
Then I left the store. WITHOUT the damn cookies and WITH some strawberries, which I ate later and really enjoyed (both emotionally and physically).
It just goes to show you, even after 100 days I can still have a monumentally ridiculous struggle with myself. I stood with those cookies for AT LEAST 20 minutes. I mean seriously, that’s just unreal. And of course NOW I’m very, very glad I didn’t get them. A whole package in the house spells nothing but trouble for me. But man, there are days when it is HARD!
Score one for you! They should be called “Newman O-Nos”
Your writing is sooo funny! I’ve had cookies speak to me, too.
I have had that same “conversation” with several different items in the grocery store. Congrats on the huge milestone, 100 days is fantastic.
God life sucks that we have to deal with this but you’re strong and CAN do this and WILL do this. I’ve carried stuff throught the store only to go back on aisle one and put them back myself. I’ve also had conversations (um sometimes out loud) about if I really need those mini so delcious bars. The thing is you’re thinking about it instead of doing it w/o thought. That’s the progress!!
That being said get a damn green and blacks bar for a treat! Have your husband hide it if need be but one block only has around 30cals and really does kill the choc/treat void.
WOW!! Good for you!! 100 days! I am lucky to make it 2 HOURS!! I would like to know what you did - your motivation. Your plan. 100 DAYS!!! And congratulations on your victory in the store!! That is a huge battle and the victory is yours!!
lol good for you! Kicked some binge ass!!! I’ve done the same thing only with a pkg. of mini 2 bite brownies. And I’m not a 100 days in! Bottom line was, as I stood there hugging them to my chest, how would I feel after I ate them? And not stopping at a couple, no way. I know better. Just like every other time…shit with a capital S, that’s what, and that temporary sweet rush of gooey chocolate would turn into dark depressing despair and I just can’t handle that anymore. I’m liking myself now! I refuse to kick the legs out from under myself. In control, baby!