Trying to get the feeling again…

I am off to do the treadmill.  Is that correct?  Do we DO the treadmill?  Hummm

 Anyway, I have been avoiding it but now that I have told you all about it, I have to do it.  Thanks for holding me accountable! 

I forgot to tell you - my sister Donna sent me a Christmas gift.  Now,  I don’t know if I have told you in the past that she is El Cheap-O!  I am all for it’s the thought that counts, if there is thought that put into it.  But don’t be buying yourself fake boobies, lyposuction, and tummy tucks while you are wearing your $200 jeans and carrying around your $500 purse and then get cheap on everyone.  Put some thought into it and mean it!  One year she called me because her mom was mad at her for buying her a notepad at the Dollar Store.  Donna thought her mom should love it because of the thought.  Her mom let her live in her house for 20 years 5 minutes from the beach in Redondo Beach, CA for $800/momth.  Her mom still goes to Costco and buys her groceries.  Yes, Donna is married and works.  But she has a hard time thinking of others. 

Anyway, I get her package and I dread opening it.  But I do and inside are shampoo samples for Kevin.  Her husband gets them for free.  She sends him two of  these tiny bottles every year.  I get a Sisters Are Wonderful daily desk calendar and a pair of santa socks.  So, I think to myself, “this is nice, I can put the little calendar on my desk”.  I unwrap it and look more closely at it and it is from 2006.  I promptly threw it away.  She is unbelievable.   I really want to say something to her but won’t.   I just sent her a card.  I can’t send her anymore gifts.  I am tired of spending $30 - $50 on her and getting nothing thoughtful.  It is not the amount - send me two pairs of socks that would be great.  I love socks.  But an expired calendar.  She has taken the cake and eaten it!  For my birthday she send me a bar of soap.  Almost nice thought but I don’t use bar soap.  So, she hates spending money on others  - okay but it doesn’t take a lot to be thoughtful.  

Since I started WW, the week seems to go so slowly.  I know time flew by when I was eating everything in sight!

This morning I slept in.  I got up and went to my friends house to hook up her computer and show her how it works.  I ama techie and you can tell by what I received for Christmas - Ipod, Itunes Cards, Electronic Book, BOSE headphones, DVD player for my Ipod - I love my gadgets. 

Anyway, I wasn’t too hungry when I woke up but I ate string cheese to get my motor running.    Then I left.  I went to the store to do some filler shopping - right now I am addicted to home baked tortilla chips and salsa.  Very little points and YUM!  I also bought some Special K protein water.  I am hoping it helps when I am feeling hungry. 

After my shopping trip I was hungry.  I went to Panda Express becasue they were close.  When I go into a fast food place, I almost panic because I don’t want to make the wrong choise and burn all of my points on one stupid meal.  BF will be home later and I don’t know what we will be doing.  I did decide on a Panda Bowl with steamed rice and brocolli beef.  I didn’t do too bad and did not eat all of the steamed rice.  I ate most of it but not all of it.  My goal is to always leave something behind.  Being a big overeater this is an acheivement for me.  Mom always said clean your plate and would let me get up until I did.  What did mom know?

Speaking of mom, she had gastric bypass and thinks she is so wise so she can make comments about my weight.  LOL!  I don’t believe in gastric bypass.  Sorry, I know 2 people who died from having it.   One gal was 26 years old.  Anyway, I have to do this and work through the steps on my own. I overeat because I stress  eat.  I have to learn to deal with it.  I have to learn how to eat.  I am not on a diet.   I have to learn what to eat when I go out.  I am not 10 years old anymore and going out is not a treat.  I can go out everyday if I want.  So if I want to do that I just have to learn how to do it.  I am not giving up anything except bad habits and being fat. 

I posted a picture of me on Christmas.  You can get to it by clicking December 2007 on the top of my page.  To be honest, it was intimidating posting this picuture.  I HATE having my picture taken.  I feel like I need a disclaimer saying, “I have not always been fat”.  I have spent the last 5 years avoiding the camera.  I let this picture be shot because my little brother is the one taking it and I LOVE  my little brother.   So, here I am - vunerable and exposing myself to the world. 

Today I lost 1.6 pounds for a total loss of 11.2!  Not bad for the holiday season.   I am so happy to see the scale going

d-o-w-n.  I can’t wait to get out of the 200’s! 

Merry Christmas my dear friends.  Thank you for all of your love and support.  It means a lot to get on here and see all the support and kind words that go around.  I appreciate the feedback and the ability to vent when I need to.  I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas!  God Bless you all.

With love Bobbie

I got up this morning and went back on the treadmill.  I still don’t like it but I am so happy when I am finished.  That is the best feeling.  My cat tries to get on it with me.  Very amusing!

 It’s been hard to be good eating this week.  Lots of parties.  Almost one every night this week!  But I have not been pigging out.  Just a little bite and that’s it.  I have been drinking Bloody Marys.  They are 2 points.  I eat the veggies that come with them too.  If I have a drink and then I continue on with water or diet soda, no one says a word.  That is my line of defense.  I am not letting the general population know I am doing WW.   Like I said before, it has to become a lifestyle and not a temporary fix.  I can eat anything I want - just not all at once like I am used to. 

I got off my butt and did the treadmill for 40 minutes.   Finally!  Yippee! 

After the weigh in - Oh, here are the number - BF lost 5 lbs, my son-in-law lost 10 lbs,  and my daughter lost 4 lbs.   I say a good week indeed as we lost a total of 28 pounds this week. 

 We went to Applebee’s after the weigh in.  I had the skewerd shrimp for 5 points.  Not bad at all.  I would have never ordered that a month ago.  My bf had his dinner picked out before we went.  He went online and checked it out.  He is now in the living room on the treadmill.   WOW!  It is very motivating with him doing this.  He gets online and charts his meals and exercise.  I haven’t exercised yet.  It is what I need to start doing this week.  I have a few parties to go to so I need to get my ass moving.  I have so be avoiding it for so long.  I have a nice treadmill in the living room.  It was highly rated in Consumer Reports.  I have over 4,000 songs on my Ipod so again, I have no reason not to do it.  I am being a whiny lazy ass.  I don’t want to exercise.  But I don’t want to be fat either.  DAMN!!!