Trying to get the feeling again…

I go and weigh in today. In about 30 minutes. Don’t know why I need someone to weigh me, but I do.  My friend won’t go to WW because she says she doesn’t like the disappointed way they look at you when you don’t lose weight.  I call that incentive.  But with my whole immediate family on WW we pretty much keep each other in check.  My bf just called to ask how well I did.  Everyone is very positive with each other.  It is great.

I did watch I Am Legand last night.  It was pretty good and my favorite thing of all, not too long.  I hate long drawn out movies.  1 hour and 45 minutes is the best I can do.  I have watched longer movies but prefer not to. 

Did the treadmill last night.  Went up to a 10 incline.  I try to mix it up everyday so my body doesn’t know what we are doing that day.  I don’t want it to get bored with the same routine.  I love having the treadmill.  I love more that I am using it.

Time to get ready to leave.  It was a rough week because I was out of town for three days.  So hopefully I lost weight.  I just have to learn how to make everything work and become a lifestyle and not a temporary diet for me to fail on again. 

I just finished reading The Innocent Man and it made my heart hurt.  In Oklahoma, two innocent men were in prison, one on Death Row, for 11 years for a crime they did not commit.  Worse than that, if the police and procecution had done their jobs correctly, this would not have happened.  I was on a murder trial that lasted 4 months.  I  worked closely with the police department when I worked at the academy and respect these men and women immensley.  I personally could not do their job.  However, like every place, there are lazy people who are capable of lying and do no matter the price to someone else. 

I love to read and was compelled after reading it to do follow up research on the men who spent time in prison. Now I know these are not the only men who have spent time in prison for a crime they did not commit and I also know that there are plenty in prison who deserve to be there.  But it does make me sad to think of precious time being taken away from someone because as we all know, life is precious and from the moment we are born, the clock starts clicking away. 

Sorry for being so depressing - on another note - I did the treadmill for 85 minutes.  5 minutes were spent on warm up and 5 minutes were spent on cool down.  I felt good afterwards and think I should do this a couple of times a week.  My secret goal is to be able to do the Avon 3 day walk for breast cancer.  My friend Cindy died 6 years ago much too young of breast cancer and I miss her every single day - sometimes more.  Once she called me in my sleep.  I had a dream I was talking to her on the phone and we had this wonderful conversation.  She promised to call me again.  I hope she does. 

Tomorrow is another day and weigh in day is Wednesday.  I hope I lost weight this week.  It was hard being out of town for a couple of days but I did the best that I could.  My goal is to be 145 by Christmas.  Wouldn’t that be nice? 

There is this website called Futureme.org.  You go to it and write yourself a letter and send it to you in the future.  I have done it the past couple of New Years day for the next year.  Last year, I was at 235.  I wanted to be thin by this year but alas, I am at 220.  It is a relief that it is not 235.  I also reflected about things I would like to accomplish in 2007.  It is interesting seeing how things turned out. 

 This year I wrote two emails to myself.  The first email I set to receive on my birthday in October.  The second email I will receive next January. 

 It is a lot of fun.  You forget about it and one day, you have an email from yourself. 

Time to treadmill.  I hate it but it must be done!

Tomrrow at 8 a.m. I will be on the train headed to S. CA.  The same crappy weather that is hitting N CA is also hitting there.  Oh well.  I went to hook up my Ipod to my new snazzy video player my honey gave me for Christmas and THEY ARE NOT COMPATABLE.  So much for watching a movie in spoiled luxery. I will be using my Ipod screen.  We have to send the dvd/ipod player unit back.  I did load First Wives Club and year one of Saturday Night Live on my Ipod so I will be entertained.  I am also taking a book.  I hope you all have a great weekend - and if I am not seeing things, my face looks a little thinner.  Maybe it’s the shadows or wishful thinking….

I lost 1.6 pounds yesterday.  I have lost 15 pounds since I started this blog and the majority of it since I started WW.  My BF and son-in-law both lost 6 pounds.  I don’t care as long as I can keep the scale going down each week. 

 We did not go see I Am Legand.  BF isn’ t feeling well so it will have to wait.    I am leaving for my sisters house tomorrow morning.  She is bummed that I am only staying until Sunday.  I am not looking forward to going.  But hopefully I can get that loving feeling back when I am there. 

 Have a great day.  I am going to go to lunch with a couple of gals I worked with this summer.  Hopefully when we work together next summer I look better.  I realize it is going to take until at least my birthday to get to where I want to be on the scale.  That’s only nine months away.  I want to lose 80 more pounds. 

I did it!  I am sweating to death but I did it.  2 activity points for me today and I can say YES when my honey asks me if I did it.  He is really good about doing it.  Now off to my well deserved shower! 

Although we were invited to 4 parties last night, BF and I attended none.  I was slightly disappointed but again not because he as a bad cold and because he has to work today.  He got up at 5 a.m.  Sure, I woke up but promptly rolled over and went back to sleep until 10:30.  It’s cold outside and there is nothing like a warm bed. 

Since we didn’t go out I decided to make a special meal for us.  After standing in line at the post office for 45 minutes I went to the grocery store to stand in line at the sea food counter for 10 minutes.  I got us steak kabobs, crab legs, and shrimp for shrimp cocktails.  I went home and asked BF what he wanted for dinner and he replied “Taco Bell”.  He has figured out that a bean burritto has 7 points and a taco has 4 points.  To me, the bean burritto is a waste of points.  So after I laughed at him, I told him what I planned on making.  He agreed that all of that sounded better than TB.  Dinner was wonderful and not many points.  I made a salad and some rice for our side dish.  The only thing missing was bread.  I thought about splurging for about 30 seconds and decided against it.  So, no bread.  But later we did have root beer floats made with diet rootbeer, no points, and 1/2 cup Dreyers/Edy’s icecream for 2 points.  We did not go over our points and we felt full and yummy! 

My daughter, soninlaw, and granddaughter came over and we played Electronic Clue.  Josh won.  It was Colonel Mustard with a hammer in the garden.    The kids had gone to Outback for dinner.  Sarah has figured out she can have the shrimp appetizer (no bread) and side salad with ranch on the side and stay within points.  Josh said they have a really good fat free tomato something dressing.  But to be honest, I didn’t feel like going out and paying the high prices so we didn’t go with them. 

 The kids left and we went to bed.  We watched the ball drop and then we kissed good night.  I thought of Anngirl and hoped she was having a fabulous time.   Another year gone.   It seems like yesterday I had my toga 1999 party.  So many changes since then….  So many losses…

Tomorrow is weigh in day.  I can’t wait.  After that we are going to see I Am Legand.  Not my choice but I will go because I am a team player and I will find a way to torture him afterwards.  LOL! 

 I guess I have avoided the treadmill and cleaning up the house for long enough.  It is 1 p.m.  Time to get my groove on.   I had a Slim Fast for breakfast.  Still not hungry.  Maybe I will be after I do the treadmill or as my granddaughter says “the treadding mill”. 

Happy New Year dear friends.  This is the last day of the year for us.  I have been blogging here for 6 months.  The first five I lost a little weight but gained some friends.  Next year we will have an entire year to lose and hopefully not gain but since we are not The Skinnys (thanks Round for that one) we will help each other just being normal women. 

 Thank you for all you have all done for me.  My life is richer for it. 

 Hugs, Bobbie

I am off to do the treadmill.  Is that correct?  Do we DO the treadmill?  Hummm

 Anyway, I have been avoiding it but now that I have told you all about it, I have to do it.  Thanks for holding me accountable! 

I forgot to tell you - my sister Donna sent me a Christmas gift.  Now,  I don’t know if I have told you in the past that she is El Cheap-O!  I am all for it’s the thought that counts, if there is thought that put into it.  But don’t be buying yourself fake boobies, lyposuction, and tummy tucks while you are wearing your $200 jeans and carrying around your $500 purse and then get cheap on everyone.  Put some thought into it and mean it!  One year she called me because her mom was mad at her for buying her a notepad at the Dollar Store.  Donna thought her mom should love it because of the thought.  Her mom let her live in her house for 20 years 5 minutes from the beach in Redondo Beach, CA for $800/momth.  Her mom still goes to Costco and buys her groceries.  Yes, Donna is married and works.  But she has a hard time thinking of others. 

Anyway, I get her package and I dread opening it.  But I do and inside are shampoo samples for Kevin.  Her husband gets them for free.  She sends him two of  these tiny bottles every year.  I get a Sisters Are Wonderful daily desk calendar and a pair of santa socks.  So, I think to myself, “this is nice, I can put the little calendar on my desk”.  I unwrap it and look more closely at it and it is from 2006.  I promptly threw it away.  She is unbelievable.   I really want to say something to her but won’t.   I just sent her a card.  I can’t send her anymore gifts.  I am tired of spending $30 - $50 on her and getting nothing thoughtful.  It is not the amount - send me two pairs of socks that would be great.  I love socks.  But an expired calendar.  She has taken the cake and eaten it!  For my birthday she send me a bar of soap.  Almost nice thought but I don’t use bar soap.  So, she hates spending money on others  - okay but it doesn’t take a lot to be thoughtful.