Last weekend was an experience and I don’t think I can do it again.  I have a friend, whom I will call AA.  AA and I went to Paso Robles and Grover Beach to visit friends.  We went to Paso to help a friend with an Earth Day event.  I have been sick but I wanted to be a good friend so I went anyway.  OHMYGOD!  I have been friends with AA for over 25 years and know back in my mind that she drinks like a sailor.  Now she has added pot smoking to her list of bad habits.  She is a college educated woman and has had her own insurance business for 15 years yet she parties like a 21 year old college student.  I spent the entire weekend babysitting her as she drank like a fish.  She did not help out her friend with the Earth Day event.  I ended up doing everything.  She got drunk and stoned all weekend.  It was exhausting.  Her husband has not been a good husband to her, long story but I am beginning to think that maybe he is tired of taking care of his wife.  But he drinks (has threee DUI’s - one his sister was killed) and smokes pot.  I don’t get it. 

I decided I love AA but cannot be a caretaker for her again.  It is too much.   I don’t let her drive when we are together.  I don’t know what else to do. It is sad. 

I did not student teach last monday and tuesday.  I needed to stay home and take care of ME!  Shock of the century.  I slept alot and plan on sleeping more.  I am just tired and I know it is my fault.  I have taken on too much and have not been taking care of me.  I am still wangling for a vacation although BF just told me he is thinking of NOT taking a promotion at work that will pay him $3500 a month more.  Some bullshit about them not giving him a car.  I don’t believe it.  His boss is dying to promote him.  He also told me he is thinking about switching back to swing shift because of the commute.  WHATEVER!  These choices benefit him ONLY.  Swing shift schedule means we only see each other three times a week.  But it is less work for him bc everyone goes home at 5.  Not taking the promotion means less work for him and doing the same job he has been doing for 18 years.  I get tired of being the only person in my relationships with any ambition.  Is it me or is it the men?  I have a lot of friends whose husbands or boyfriends are the same.  Hell, some of their men don’t work at all!  Maybe it’s California.  I don’t know.  I just know I feel disappointed.  Oh well, it is not the first time.  I want to be able to have weekends off together and do things like normal couples do.  Not have him work all weekend and me be alone.  Sure, he gets off of work on Saturday and home by 4:30.  He has to be back to work the next afternoon by 1:30 so it is not like we can go anywhere!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Well, I have said my piece, he knows how I feel.  I asked him to take the promotion because it would mean weekends off.  FINALLY! But it doesn’t look like it will happen.  He doesn’t have to give a definitive answer until June.  So —-  I will have to wait! 

On WW weigh in day, I lost 4.6 pounds.  It was about time.  I hit a plateau big time and I am not sure how much past it I am.  But I will continue to chug along because I know eventually I will fall off that plateau and back in the game again.