There I said it!  I hate it hate it hate it!  It’s so depressing sometimes.  Most of the times.  Blah!!!!  I hate that I let myself get this far gone.  I hate looking fat, being fat.  I hate the fat stomach thing that hangs down.  I hate losing weight and still being fat.  Yes, I AM complaining, bitching, whining, bellyaching, whatever you want to call it.  I am just trying to do what I can NOT become overwhelmed.  And I feel like this AFTER yoga.  Imagined how I felt BEFORE yoga. 

 What triggered this?  I had to watch my video of me teaching.  I HATE looking at me. 

 Done - now I am going to take a shower.  And drink some water.  Oh joy!