This week went well.  I lost 4.5 pounds.  YEAH!  My master teacher asked me how I did it.  I told her I was hungry.   I did not eat any flex points.  I want to lose weight more than I want to eat.   I would like to lose 2 lbs this week.  I did max out my points today - but again, did not touch my flex points.  I also got my butt out of bed to do the treadmill.   Sometimes I try to talk myself out of it and tell myself I will do it in the evening.  But once I am awake, I feel guilty and slip my sweatshirt on and get my shoes on to head out to the cold living room.  On Wendesday - weigh in day - it is worth it to see the numbers decline.    Sometimes, at home though, I get depressed.  20 pounds down and I am still fat.  I hate being fat.  My clothes don’t fit right.  They are bagging - but I am still fat.  I can’t wait until my weight loss is noticable to more than just me and I can’t wait to not be fat.