Trying to get the feeling again…

This morning I slept in.  I got up and went to my friends house to hook up her computer and show her how it works.  I ama techie and you can tell by what I received for Christmas - Ipod, Itunes Cards, Electronic Book, BOSE headphones, DVD player for my Ipod - I love my gadgets. 

Anyway, I wasn’t too hungry when I woke up but I ate string cheese to get my motor running.    Then I left.  I went to the store to do some filler shopping - right now I am addicted to home baked tortilla chips and salsa.  Very little points and YUM!  I also bought some Special K protein water.  I am hoping it helps when I am feeling hungry. 

After my shopping trip I was hungry.  I went to Panda Express becasue they were close.  When I go into a fast food place, I almost panic because I don’t want to make the wrong choise and burn all of my points on one stupid meal.  BF will be home later and I don’t know what we will be doing.  I did decide on a Panda Bowl with steamed rice and brocolli beef.  I didn’t do too bad and did not eat all of the steamed rice.  I ate most of it but not all of it.  My goal is to always leave something behind.  Being a big overeater this is an acheivement for me.  Mom always said clean your plate and would let me get up until I did.  What did mom know?

Speaking of mom, she had gastric bypass and thinks she is so wise so she can make comments about my weight.  LOL!  I don’t believe in gastric bypass.  Sorry, I know 2 people who died from having it.   One gal was 26 years old.  Anyway, I have to do this and work through the steps on my own. I overeat because I stress  eat.  I have to learn to deal with it.  I have to learn how to eat.  I am not on a diet.   I have to learn what to eat when I go out.  I am not 10 years old anymore and going out is not a treat.  I can go out everyday if I want.  So if I want to do that I just have to learn how to do it.  I am not giving up anything except bad habits and being fat.