Judy paid me a very nice compliment, she said I am a strong woman and I CAN take the weight off.  I want to believe this too considering  I have NEVER been this heavy in my life but, it seems the more I control other aspects of my life, the less I can control my eating.  Eating soothes me.  It comforts me.  It makes me feel good.  But I do really hate being fat.  I look bad, I feel bad, clothes look like crap on me, and I don’t even recognize myself in the mirror.  I have been letting food take care of me for too long since the divorce.  It’s time to STOP THE INSANITY!  I still have lost only 6 pounds.  Since JUNE!  So, I have to figure things out.  I was eating lunch to day in the staff room of the school I am subbing at and the skinny teacher was eating grapefruit slices in a already prepared container.  I can do that.  I actually like grapefruit.  And to be honest, I am sick of food right now. 

The classroom aide that works for me right now in the class I am subbing in said she lost 13 pounds in one month.  She is going to a “diet doctor”.  She pays this person $100 a month for a B12 shot, Phentermine, and to weigh her.  She can only eat 1300 calories a day.  DUH!  That is the secret.  It’s not the shot, or the Phentermine.  It is 1300 calories a day she is eating. 

 Thanks my friends for being here.  Always.  You are wonderful and I am so happy I found you.