I haven’t been on, my BF has been home.  Love him but sometimes he is around too much.  When there are things to do, like remodel the house, I don’t have time to sit around and watch tv!  GROWL!  It is such a waste of time!  Hi sister is coming in less than two weeks to visit from Boston and there are lots of things to get done.  So far, it’s been up to me to do it.  He owns over 2000 movies and buys at least 2 new ones a week.  He TIVOs hours of worthless programing - how many episodes of the Deadliest Catch can one person watch?  There is too much to do and spending two to three hours a day is not getting it done.  (slowly climbing off of soap box)

 I am 100% convinced that people are jealous when they hear you are trying to lose weight.  I made a very casual comment about not wanting tacos as 1 a.m. and he, the BF, replied, “Oh, we’re not dieting AGAIN, are we?”  I ignored the remark and said no, I don’t want to eat something that is going to give me a stomach ache.  I can tell, though, that I cannot tell him what I am doing.  It is really hard when he is home because every meal is a fatfest and dripping with calories.  I have to work really hard the 4 days he is not home because the 3 he is makes it very rough.  But I will stick to it.  It’s just hard.  I haven’t lost any weight this week.  But I am trying not to be too rough.  I had my Boca Burger with lots of veggies tonight.  At Taco Bell, I ordered a taco without the cheese and had a pintos and cheese instead of the bean burrito.  I had an unplanned meal day because of work. 

 I am super tired.  I want to be thin.  I hate being fat.  I hate looking at myself and wondering where this ugly woman came from. My face is huge.  I don’t like looking at me.  I avoid mirrors and reflections.  Time for bed. 

 Sweet dreams my friends.