I am angry, pissed, fed up and damn mad.  I may blog about why later.  But the good thing is that when I am angry - I realize I turn to food to make me feel better.  With that in mind and trying to have an I don’t give a damn attitude, I reached in the freezer and made some conscience decisions.  I knew I was going to eat, there was no way around it.  So eat I did.  I ate a few crumbs - literally that’s all there was- of corn chips then threw them away.  I grabbed a Boca burger patty and popped it in the microwave.  I put lots of mustard (I don’t like mayo) and lettuce, onions, and tomoatos on a bun (it was white - I’ll need to get whole wheat but I am not going to beat myself up over that) and plopped my fake patty on top.  Yummy - and it tasted like cheating.  I ate a bunch of radishes - lots of good crunch - I may go for seconds with them.  I also sliced and ate a tomato on the side.  I am proud of myself that I could handle this situation with some pretty decent food choices.  Thank you Boca for being there.   I am still angry but I don’t feel guilty.  And I won’t hate myself in the morning.  Boy, it’s been a long time since I said that.