My Story…

A little bit about ME! 

I am in my mid thirties, married with child.  All of my life, or as long as I can remember, I have struggled with being “chubby,” “overweight,” and now “fat.”  It is the one issue that seems to consume my life.  I have been there done that on every diet, read nearly every reputable diet book or fad, and I can tell you the nutritional information in almost any food item with 90% accuracy.   As I get older, I am also getting wiser and I realize that loosing weight is really simple.  Eat Less… Move More… and Make the Right Choices.  Putting it in practice, however has been much more difficult.

I have been “thin” once in my adult life.  Prior to meeting my husband, I had lost nearly 40 pounds.  I had gone from 165lbs to 125lbs and for the first time in my life really LOVED how I looked and how I felt.  The change?  I lived by myself for the first time.  I was 100% in control of my choices.  After I met my future dh, the weight crept back on but I managed to remain under 135lbs for nearly 3 years.   Then I became pregnant with my first child.  WOW!  Being a heavy person all my life, I seized the opportunity to eat guilt free.  Ice cream, milk shakes, hamburger, fries, you name it… I ate it… and I felt NO REMORSE.  (I have serious food guilt issues.)  The morning my son was born, I weighed in at a wopping 203lbs.  I had gained 70lbs with my pregnancy.  I walked out of the hospital 20lbs lighter and the last  six years have been a yo yo ride ever since then.

 With the help of the rigorous SBD I got down to 165lbs, then I just gave up.  I escalated up to 195lbs, and I am slowly working my way back down.  Currently I am 178. 

 The Plan:

My plan is to eat right (high fiber, whole grain, natural sugars, lots and lots of veggies) and move A LOT!  I am not denying myself any one food, as I have found then I crave it even more.  I am trying to be sensible.  I ride horses three times a week, exercise at least three times a week, and walk whenever possible.  I will do this, it may take  a lifetime, but I will do it!

I would love to slip on a pair of jeans and just feel at peace with myself again. 

2 Responses to “My Story…”

  1. I love your blog and I relate so well to you! I was at my thinnest when I owned horses and it’s been nearly 10 years since I sat on the back of one! That’s so depressing to me! My goal this summer is to find a place to ride again and when finances allow, to sell our house in town, get one with 100 acres and build the barn I wanted when I was young. I wish you well and I look forward to your posts!

  2. I hope that you are able to get back in the saddle again. It is so wonderful and therapeutic! Good Luck!

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