TJ North

Still working hard and feeling better about myself. I need, need, need to have a better self-image than I have had for the last few years. Since moving here, I have really struggled with feeling out of my element, unattractive and unfocused. All of that is starting to fade.

Exercising again is so important to changing this thought pattern. If I am the kind of person who can make her body do all these wondrous things, then, I can do anything. Also, being back on my own, sans man, sans offspring, has given me lots of room to eat healthy on my own terms. In my experience, men are fattening! For all sorts of reasons.

Hey, I know this. I know that being an active person is healthy, in all dimensions, and it makes me feel fantastic. I am almost ready to face the gym…torture because there are so many acquaintances there and I feel on display…like anyone is doing anything but obsessing about their own appearance.

Speaking of gyms, the last time I was there I was watching a ‘kettle boot camp’ class. OMG it looks so dangerous - they were throwing those heavy things from hand to hand! I would be terrified of a broken foot. I wonder if steel-toed shoes are mandatory?

PS - 6km 48:19 after work