16 lb down and I’m still fat (and it sucks)

January 26th, 2008

I’ve lost 16 lb and I feel like shit.  I am still fat, as glaringly highlighted by yet another disasterous dress shopping trip.  Nothing looked good on me.  Nothing.  I bought another horrible dress, this time red.

This sucks.  I am sad.  I want to eat fried chicken and m&m’s and drink milkshakes because, what the hell, I am already fat so what difference does it make.  I haven’t felt this way in the whole 10 weeks I’ve been “on program” and I don’t know where it came from but I’m in “a mood.”  DH is trying to ply me out of my mood with healthy food offers and I’m about to put a fork through his GD eye.  LEAVE ME ALONE…

IT’S MY PITY PARTY AND I’LL BINGE IF I WANT TO, BINGE IF I WANT TO, BINGE IF I WANT TO….

Posted by tiny2b Filed in clothing, pity party

2 Responses to “16 lb down and I’m still fat (and it sucks)”

  1. souloftwilight Says:
    January 26th, 2008 at 11:14 pm

    Don’t give in! You are doing so great! 16 lbs is awesome! Besides clothes are just bad. What I have found is that you have to a.) know the right style for you (what not to wear is a good resource) and b.) take everything as what it is. Something doesn’t fit don’t blame your body! Clothes are all cut differently so you just got to keep trying on and letting go. It has been a really hard lesson for me to learn and sometimes I still struggle not to get depressed clothes shopping but you can do it. If something doesn’t look fabulous just say “oh well,” and try something else on. There will be something that will just be perfect. You just have to be persistent. 16 pounds is a wonderful accomplishment do not let some silly piece of cotton make you think otherwise.

  2. round Says:
    January 27th, 2008 at 10:30 am

    16 pounds is a good start, but I know what you mean about feeling “still fat”. I started at 250 lbs years ago, and after all my efforts I was still fat, still had the belly, still had well…lots of work to do. It was better, I was smaller, but some days I just still felt FAT. But some days I felt proud of what I’d accomplished, and of being so much more fit and healthier. And I did look better, even if I’ll never be a model.

    The pity party is allowed. But is there anything other than a binge that can make you feel better? A few hours with a good book? A funny movie? A bubble bath? A glass of wine?

    If you have to binge - how about this — all you can eat, but only of popcorn (low fat) and apples. You can really fill up your tummy without terrible caloric damage in that approach…

    Hugs, I hope things look brighter tomorrow.

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