I just want to look good naked . . .

To be honest, it could actually be 828461982719828 if you count that I didn’t eat a second funnel cake at Disneyland, but it only lasted about 15 minutes before I caved…so, I’m sticking with 828461982719827.   

I’m not sure if I’m even allowed to have a weblog here.  I’m not a chick.  But I think I’m as fat as 3 chicks so….

Anyway, I’m a dude who is trying to lose weight.  I didn’t want this on my usual weblog because who wants to read my sob story there?  No one.   So…I’ll just vent a bit.

I hate dieting and exercising and I love food.  But…I want to look good naked.  Bad combo.  I don’t believe that anything buy myself can make me lose wieght.  Man, that didn’t come out right.  What I mean is…I don’t think fad diets will do it.  Pills, herbs etc.  They’re not my answer.  Food in moderation and exercise regularly are the only way that makes sense to me.  I just can’t keep with it.  I’ve tried everything I know to motivate myself to do it.  Rewards..once I took a bet with my wife to see who could lose the most weight in a summer.  I lost 19 lbs!  Our reward was $500 for anything we wanted…but when it came down to it, she didn’t want me to spend the money.  Pissed off, I quit exercising.  Lack of marital intimacy has been a motivating factor more than once.  ”If I looked better, maybe she’d be more interested in me.”  No.  No and No.  From what I can tell, there is no correlation between my physical looks, and our private times.  I could be wrong, but understanding this is way beyond me right now, so I’m ignoring this.

This time, I’m just so flipping sick of feeling fat, hating pants, and looking so pudgy.  

My goal is to lose 45 lbs.   I started at 240 (this time), and I want to weight 195.  Right now, I’m sitting at 232.  Feeling good about those 8, but thinking it’s probably more like 5.  I remember in college (I’m 32) feeling that if I EVER got to 220, I’d DO something about it.  Well, I hit 240 a while back, and it really pissed me off. 

Anyway..  I’m eating less, but trying not to skip meals.  Slim fast does it for breakfast, and keeps me from snacking most of the time.  I find that I’m HUNGRY at dinner, so I’m trying to have a few more snacks between lunch and dinner.  Apples, etc.  

I work out about 45 mins a day.  Mountain biking 1x/week.  Elliptical and pushups most other days.  Weights once in a while.  We’ll see if I can stick with it.  

One thing…  I enjoy tanning.  it’s relaxing and feels good to me…and helps me feel good naked.  My reward this time is..when I get to 210, I’ll start going tanning once or twice a week…  just for me.  A little secret.  I’ll lie to anyone that confronts me about it.  

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