Changing my Life through Accu-weight Loss

Today I’m going to be drinking milk…
I had a conversation with myself in the shower, b/c I was upset with the weight I’d gained back and I felt fat..
I had to tell myself that it’s better for me to get on track with the diet and lose weight, even if I don’t lose all of it by a “deadline”, I’ll still be losing, it’s better to do that then give up and gain weight.
It’s simple logic, but our emotions can damage our willpower sometimes.
Anyway, that’s something I’m going to repeat to myself throughout the day.
I have a busy day ahead of me.. I’m feeling crampy/bloated..
I’m going to just push through it. I’m going to just keep going.. I really won’t weigh myself til… sometime in November though, b/c I’m going to just keep the diet in the background, it gets easier after a week anyway, that way I won’t feel deprived or whatever. Maybe today will mark the day. I’m feeling okay though, not crazy confident about it, more like I feel content with it. I
It’s what I really need, everything else has failed, the whole now-or-never thing or giving myself a deadline, it just made me feel like a failure. At this point I’m just like, well hey, It’s stupid for me to just give up b/c I didn’t get to my goal by now yet, I still want to get to goal! It’s soo simple, but that’s all I’ve gotta tell myself.

Anyway, I’ll do two milk days again to get back on track, and my mom picked fresh tomatoes, eggplant, and chili peppers from her garden and I’m eager to make a soup or something out of it. I have coffee filters to strain the yogurt but I don’t have a strainer to line it with, so I’ll buy that on Wednesday or something and do it on Friday. Anyhow, I’m feeling OK.
I’ll update later.

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What a tiring/busy day. I’m relaxing right now.. then I’m going to study for my Calculus midterm.
My schedule for the next couple days:
Study for midterm

Tuesday:
Midterm
Class
Study for midterm
Study for quiz
Watch Invasion of the Bodysnatchers for class assignment
Wednesday:
Midterm
Class
class
Start studying for next Wednesday’s two midterms
Thursday:
Note-taking class, regular class
Friday:
Myles.

So.. my weekend will be relaxing. I just got to suck it up for these couple days.
I’m glad I got most of my calculus studying done over the weekend and last night..
I have ample time to study tonight then..
Today I had cottage cheese mixed in with Walden Farms 0 calorie Peanut Butter spread (which is disgusting, but I mixed in black pepper and splenda to give it more of what I thought it needed) and mixed with the cottage cheese it was pretty good.
I also had a bit of yogurt with Crystal light..
I prepared a mixture with yogurt to make ice cream tomorrow.. I still need to freeze more ice, but I’ll attempt it tomorrow and write down what happened later.
Anyway, I’m going to go study for my midterm.
Today went well except for occasional taste as I prepared my yogurt mixture..