3rdOctober
Rahhh
Okay. Today went well. I did have a cheat yesterday, granted not a lot, but still a cheat.
I stopped myself today though, I stress-eat a lot. And I’m currently stressed about a midterm coming up.. I’d been studying literally all day with a group.. and when I came back into the dorm, I wanted to eat.
it was between 12-6 so I used up the rest of my milk intake and had cottage cheese. Still, later I wanted to eat a sandwich or.. whatever. Instant gratification. I’m not letting it happen anymore.. I eat out of stress.. I stopped myself because my thinking started moving towards “well I can just start up tomorrow and eat today” but that’s how I gained back a little weight to begin with so I literally had to talk to myself in my head. I had to take a minute, think about what I wanted more, and think about how I’ll feel tomorrow.
I thought about upcoming Halloween and that this isn’t forever, and that was enough. I need to get through a full week for me to really be back.
I’m taking it.. a day at a time. I am going home tomorrow.. I want to buy Crystal light mixes and diet sprite that I could have if it gets bad. I’ve gotta stay on track. I’m going to work out maybe.. Sunday. I just want to get through these two days first and see how I feel. I’m pretty swamped with midterms (already!) and studying.. but I had to literally tell myself.. that stress will always be around and if I don’t get back on now, when will I? After I gain back more of the weight? No.. I’ve gotta finish this.
If I can get through the month.. I can start transition in November.. lol and my motivation food-wise is eating chicken lol.
Anyway, I’m going to relax with movies (my anti-food haha, seriously though, I had to look around for something else to do other than eat and it was watch movies =P and I also went onto the forums for inspiration to stay on track). I know I said I was feeling strong before, but it’s when I’m feeling weak and I overcome it that I stay on track so I mean we shall see.. Halloween is a great, workable time.. even if I don’t necessarily hit goal, I would still like to be smaller by then, or close to goal at least!

tess says 7th October @ 17:32
Hi! thank you for posting this blog.yours is most complete & inspirational…i know, struggles w/ cheating is a constant battle. I started 2 wks ago and I read most of your posts from May. I feel very exhausted w/ this diet most of the time. hunger pangs, mental fogginess are my worst enemies. i cook for my family so, temptation is great. Beads are great. could you share the website to purchase beads, how do you find the pressure points behind your ear? is it all behind the ear? I went to the doctor’s office for the 1st set of beads,but have a hard time synching my schedule with their office schedule. I work til midnight. thanks