Changing my Life through Accu-weight Loss

Okay.. so I haven’t been good. In fact, I think these couple weeks have been the worst.. For the past few days, I tried getting back on track and I would do so well all day and then cheat at night!
I was happy a on Saturday when I ran about 2.2 miles on it and the intensity level was much higher than usual.. so fitness-wise I was happy about that, but then I cheated..
Then I went shopping and I walked a lot, easily another mile.. unfortunately when I got home, I undid the day’s work and cheated a bit.. but still I was pleased with the fitness.

Anyway, Saturday was a major shopping day for me… went shopping for clothes especially with the new semester coming about… I hadn’t really bought anything all summer except a pair of Roxy wedges and a still-too-small top on clearnance from macy’s (the top was.. $4.24 believe it or not!!!!)

So I have 2 weeks left until college starts and I decided to go shopping, I still have 17 more pounds to lose so I went in knowing I’d pick up items that were a bit too small on me for now but would fit later (this is what I did before and it’s great because as I lost and reached a certain weight, like 150, I had nice “rewards” sitting in my closet, waiting for me to reach out and grab em!)

I’m a pretty frugal spender and I LOVE love love bargains.. my mom used to be in the clothing business so I’m very picky about how much I spend and if I believe the quality of the item is worth the price.
So I hit up Marshall’s, Century 21, and Daffy’s.

I bought a really nice variety of clothes and I’m so happy!! It was really hard narrowing down what I wanted to buy because there were soo many clothes that either fit or I could see me wearing 15 pounds from now..
I tried to stay with the medium’s, I have broad shoulders and a medium frame so I know I’d have to lose more than 15-17 pounds to get down to a small.
I also tried on this really pretty skirt, size 9 and it fit!!! Well, it COULD sit lower on my hips after I lose more weight, still it fit!! I was soo happy!

I also bought a vest, I really wanted a nice vest to throw on, and I found this killer reversible red plaid vest, great quality and it’ll last. I tried on a large (honestly, my bust is what kills me in sizes, everything fits except that area) and it fit.. though it would fit better after.. maybe 3-5 pounds. The medium, well I knew it would take more but I had a hard time debating.. then I realized vests only look good if it is fitting, not loose, so I decided to go ahead and buy it!

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^ I wrote that up yesterday..

Today I’m feeling pretty bad.. Ugh, period. I feel soo bloated and crampy grr. 
Funny thing is, that I finally kept to my diet yesterday! I kept to it yesterday and so far today with no feelings of cheating. It’s good because I really just need to get through a few days without cheating..

It’s bad because I reverted to old habits from the last time I was on this diet.. where I would cheat here or there. It’s stupid because it slows it down immensely.. (remember this diet isn’t ketoctic).
I’ve already wasted a few weeks of hard work.. so I gotta just pull through, it is only 17 more pounds..
I know i’m retaining water and also from the cheats.. so I’m avoiding the scale. Next time I weigh myself will be next Monday. My goal? Well since I’ve been cheating a lot and I’m on my period, I’d be happy with 1-2 pounds lost. Better than the stall that I’ve been putting myself through.
I’m optimistic though.. I can do this. I just gotta get back on track. I’ve been dreading updating this blog just because of the cheats!
But let me focus on the positives..

Yesterday I had an appointment with Bumble and Bumble.. I filled out the form online and they invited me to model call. Bumble and Bumble is this high-end salon in Manhattan that is renowned and teaches other salons and has their own university. I went in for model call, and what they do is evaluate your hair and if they like it, they would set up and appointment.
So my friend told me to dress up a little because they are kinda, high-class.. so I thought well I feel bloaty today (first day of period, wasn’t feeling terrible, just a little bloated) so I knew I didn’t want to wear skinny jeans.. but other jeans wouldn’t be “nice” enough. So I thought, okay well I’ll wear a skirt. Now I bought a skirt from Charlotte-Russe, size medium, and I thought it didn’t fit me but it would eventually. Funny thing is.. it is actually a high-waisted bubble skirt with a plaid waist-band and bow in the front (really really cute). So yesterday I realized I could wear this.. I liked it because it was more slimming than the other a-lined skirts, and even then, I couldn’t find a good top to wear with the other ones. For the high-waisted skirt, I just tucked in a sleeveless top and wore a light black half-jacket… Really cute and nice.
I can’t express how much of  a big deal it was for me to wear that outfit! I felt self-conscious but I forced myself to wear it and I told my other friend to dress a little nice too and she isn’t used to it so I knew I wouldn’t be the only one… Also, I had a reason to dress up and I knew it wouldn’t be a big deal to walk around like that in nyc. So, I swalled my insecurities and forced myself to go.. and I’m so glad I did.
I looked great. I felt great. I felt confident. I felt pretty and feminine and for once in a skirt.. I’m really glad I wore that outfit because I’m finally starting to dress nicer.
Oh and B&B liked my hair, they said they were doing a workshop right now for curly hair and needed someone with looser curls like mine, so they gave me an appointment next monday!
So, this would be a great reward if I go down to 145 by Monday (thought 146 would still be fine b/c I’m not setting my goals too high this week). I’m excited for next week.
It would be great to hit 140 by the time I move into the dorm but it isn’t a dealbreaker if I don’t.. I’ll still stay on my diet anyway!

I’ll update later.