Changing my Life through Accu-weight Loss

Had a can of V8 today.

148 =]

Yay! My lowest!!!
I only have around.. 15 more lbs to lose now! That is nothing, I will lose it in August, I’m so happy =]

Yay. I’m at 149!
Didn’t cheat at all today, just milk.

I need to get some sleep though..

I will nap and maybe update later.
Yay, 149 =]

Yay. Today was fruits and veggies.

My weight is 150! I officially lost 30 lbs! Hmm.. it took me a week longer than two months to lose 30 lbs (15 minimum each month) buut.. that is pretty decent considering that 3 weeks out of the 8 weeks were veeery slow because of cheating. Anyway, I lose 20 the first month and it took me too long to lose 10 more, but it is fine because.. average-wise.. I’m still losing at a really good rate. Hmm.. imagine if I worked out more and didn’t cheat those few weeks.. I would be at my goal right now!

Anyway, I’m ecstatic! I consider the 140’s the last real weight I need to lose. I will be extremely happy to be in the 130’s! And, I may or may not stop and transition at 135.. b/c you ARE supposed to lose some weight on transition… and I don’t expect it to be more than 3-5 lbs, but then again once you start maintaining, you are expected to stay 5 lbs within the limit.. soo.. bye that logic I probably will just stop and maintain at 130.. maybe 133 but I don’t want to go above 135. Then again, who knows how my body will look and feel at 135. Hmm.. I also just calculated how long it would take if I lost just 3 lbs a week starting today and I would be at 134 by Aug 31.. so that tells me.. I could actually get to my goal earlier than that if I work out just a couple times this week and keep drinking water!

I’m.. overjoyed. Just now, I found out that I will be getting my braces off this Friday! I am floating on air! Long story short.. something happened where I lost my insurance last year just around the time I was supposed to get it off.. and full price to get it off and retain is still a decent amount. My orthodontist called to see why I haven’t been coming in for the past year lol and when we explained the situation.. he offered a very low price and well… I’m ecstatic! This Friday!
ANND.. I got my midterms back today and I did really well! Someone pinch me. I’m floating around. I can’t believe I’m finally getting them off!

Everything is going well! I’m so happy! I can’t stop smiling.. but next week I really won’t be able to stop!

Okay food today.. I had a V8 can that I brought to school and diet SoBe. Yay.

I need to nap. So happy! =]

Yay. 151.

I didn’t lose a lot this week but I didn’t expect to lose a lot because of the cheat last weekend that wasn’t just one day.. it was a night n a day.. plus my period. My weight said 154 throughout it but I knew it was mostly water retention.. also, I haven’t been getting enough water either so whenever I get the opportunity I try to drink a lot more. When I’m at summer classes, the most I get to drink is one bottle, sometimes 2 if I buy another, but this is nothing compared to how much water I drink between when I wake up and 5 when I’m at home.. It is just hard to drink more water during classes because.. 1. my 1 liter bottle is too heavy sometimes to carry, 2.  I don’t want to use the bathroom constantly during classes
But, I try and drink at least 2 bottles in the morning, and I will try and bring the 1 liter bottles.
Anyway, haven’t been working out this week either, but I need to start up again.
I’m pretty sure I’m done with my period so today I will drink tons of water just like yesterday, and also I will be in the city for the whole day so the walking will be a good kick start back up to using the treadmill again on Sunday.
So glad I lost even a pound.. but next week, I am aiming for 4 lbs. Got to kick up my water intake and exercise more.  Oh, I downloaded a Callenetics DVD.. so.. I might try that sometime this week, maybe tomorrow if I have time but I need to work on a movie review too and get that done tomorrow.
I’m so happy.. as small as the loss was, all I have is myself to blame for the cheats.. and even then, the week isn’t up until Monday so maybe I will go down to 150 by then.. here’s hoping.

Things went well.. been on track since yesterday. Haven’t been getting enough water though and I’ve been feeling bloaty.. I know it is all due to period though so I’m not worried. I really need to drink more water though. During the day when I’m in class, it is hard to have enough water… because 1. I bring a bottle w/ me but it isn’t enough 2. If I bring an empty 1 liter bottle n fill it up with water.. I will have to use the bathroom all day!
So.. I try to drink more when I get home but I get lazy to keep running up and down the stairs to get more.. But I must or I won’t lose much this week. I’m really not sure how much I’ll lose because of that cheat.. but the way I figure, as long as I stay on track, I will lose, so I need to just keep going no matter how small or how big the loss.
Haven’t been feeling well enough to work out.. I know I should.. just been so busy. I have midterms tomorrow.. I need to study. I think I will work out on the treadmill tomorrow b/c my period should lighten up by then. I would like to use the elliptical but it is just a hassle to bring extra gym clothes and sneakers…
Grr.. I hate period days.. I mean, the cravings are nothing like what I used to get before I started dieting.. where I would REALLY crave sweets or salt and I would just binge! My body has been so used to not eating sweets and junk food now that I rarely, if ever, get those cravings.. I noticed that if I do, it would be out of a mental thing.. I guess mentally, I’m not used to holding back if there are foods like that at home. Wow. Actually.. wow. I just realized that! It is because my parents tried to deprive us of those foods, but when we would get junk food, I would eat it all up. I guess, mentally, I’m used to always accepting those foods.. so it is a huge thing to mentally refuse those foods, especially in the environment of my home. If I am out and I see those foods, it isn’t the same…
Hmm.. I hope this is something that will help me in the future.. because I have that habit of eating whatever I have even if I don’t really want to. Well, regardless, after I get off this diet, it really is just about eating healthy.. I will probably continue the transition protocol with some other stuff thrown in.. like.. I will definitely keep eating veggies n chicken, and sometimes brown rice. Carbs are my downfall, so we shall see how I deal with it all..

ohh I wore my skinny jeans today =] - bloatiness and all, I still looked a loot slimmer today with everything I wore. Everything fit me great.. and it made me look slimmer. I just.. love my dark-wash skinny jeans =] The good thing about them is that they are stretchy so.. I can still wear em 10 lbs from now.. Though.. I AM at a size 11.. I want to get to an 8.. I wonder how much weight loss that would entail? It feels like 20 lbs lost wouldn’t be a lot in terms of size.. but then again as you get smaller the sizes drop more w/ each pound. Hmm.. I mean.. I was a 13/14 about 30 lbs from now… so It is a bit confusing. My tops were a large-XL.. n now I’m a medium - large depending on the style and the top.. I’m kinda.. inbetween.
It has been kinda tough finding stuff to wear, most of my clothes are.. well not great for the summer, and are darker colors.. also.. my style changed during the year and I’m not a fan of screen tee’s anymore unless it is longer n has a different neckline. So.. I have a lot of those that I could wear.. but I don’t want to. It is frustrating.. I’m trying to wear brighter colors but I don’t have anything really.. ugh. Usually.. during the summer, I will wear the floral tops n dressy stuff whenever I go out n the tee’s at home.. but it is too much to wear the floral tops to class.. so it is kinda annoying. That is another reason why I just want to lose the rest of this weight already.. so I can go shopping again!  Meh, whatever, I need to just work at it and find a happy medium to my clothes.
I have always loved my proportions and they are great to see right now but I can’t wait to see them 20 lbs less extraneous fat! =D

Ahhh.. so I did cheat today.. I’ll admit, but I stopped early in the day and filled up on water for the rest. It’s the damn period.. too many cravings. I know it isn’t an excuse but I know I will be on track tomorrow, so I won’t let it get me.

Friday I went to the mall after a long time with my friend. Hit up Macy’s and Charlotte Russe..
So there were sales and clearance everywhere… Charlotte Russe had a loot of stuff on clearance.. I didn’t want to spend too much, and they had pretty undies for sale, 5/$10 so I knew I would get those, so I decided on just getting one other item. It was hard to choose because I found this great cream jacket for $10.. it was a medium.. but it was still tight, would take another 10 lbs to fit perfectly. The problem was that the sleeves were big and I felt like it might give me broader shoulders than I already have… and it would look weird, so I decided to pass. I found this cute black skirt with a belt.. well not really a belt as more of a fabric design.. the belt is black n white plaid with a piece of black down the middle w/ a little button of plaid on it.. it is really cute. It can’t fit me yet.. but.. yeah, 15 lbs from now it will.
I went to Macy’s to return shoes I bought online.. and I found Roxy wedge heeled shoes and they are soo cute.. originaly $40.. clearance was $13.. then w/ my Macy’s card it was $12..  then I checked out the clearance section and found this really cute cream short sleeved button down top… it is cute.. $44 originally.. marked down to $7.49 which I already thought was a bargain.. then when I went to the register it rang up $4.99 n w/ the card $4.24..!! So I bought that one! Again, I can fit into that when I’m smaller. I know it is weird to buy things you can’t fit into but knowing that I won’t be at the size I’m at too long and I have enough clothes for transition.. I bought stuff that would motivate me further to lose more weight.. oh yeah the undies from Charlotte Russe are soo cute too.. =]

Yesterday.. went to PS1 Warm-up with Svetlana… that was fun.. we walked around NYC the rest of the day.. lots of walking.. went into a bunch of stores, didn’t buy anything, wanted to save. That was also really fun, plans to go to Coney Island next weekend..  that should be fun. My goal.. another.. 3-4 lbs by Saturday. I know I cheated so it will slow, BUT… I will be on track and working out and I should lose at LEAST 3.

I’m so happy! Friday’s are my days off from class, so I did wake up at 8 but then I went back to sleep as soon as I saw the time.. umm.. Kind of a mistake? I woke up around 10:20 and I felt really tired. Although.. I didn’t get enough sleep during the week so I’m not sure, I think I’m just feeling exhausted because my period is around the corner, well last month it started today, will probably start soon..
Anyway, I felt pretty bloated and a little crampy.
After using the bathroom n washing my face and stuff, I went to go change. I caught myself in the mirror.. and wow. I looked at myself from the side and the front and.. well.. I really got smaller, haha!
I know it sounds bizarre especially when I was feeling bloated, but I really took a long look at myself, and I look so much smaller.
I tried on this navy blue and white semi-dressy button-up top I bought from Charlotte Russe a while back when I was in the 160’s during the semester (it was on sale I think) and.. as soon as my arms slid through the sleeves I knew it fit me. I buttoned it up and it is actually.. a PERFECT fit, except for a tiny bit of tightness at the bust, but not enough to really pull the buttons or anything. I think I will wear it on Monday if the weather isn’t ridiculously hot. I can’t begin to describe how exciting it is!
Yes, I still have about 20 more lbs to go, but just seeing how tiny I’ve already gotten is extra motivation and.. just, great.
I also bought these size 11 wide-legged dark-wash jeans on clearance from Charlotte-russe a while back, and it couldn’t really fit, I was in the late 160’s during that time, but I bought them anyway knowing I would be able to fit into them later and well it was cheap! Yeah.. I can fit into them now! I loove it.. my other tops fit me now too.. all of them.
And, they are all size mediums. I know some places run smaller on mediums and I probably can’t fit into those, but still. Like, there is a jacket I bought from Forever 21 last year that was a size medium, and it couldn’t fit me last year and this weight, and it is still tight today, but that is still great because I will be able to wear it soon. The only thing that concerns me is that I won’t be at this weight much longer, so a lot of my clothes that I spent money on will no longer fit me. I *hope* that doesn’t happen to that jacket because it is really cute, but I think it will be a good, looser fit when I get smaller so maybe I won’t have to worry about that. I’m not THAT worried though, imagine me fitting into a small… haha.

My arms are so much smaller.. my thighs… hips.. my jawline is becoming so defined.. my face is getting that nice and pointy chin… my stomach.. I love how much smaller my stomach is, that was always the place I hated the most… oh my bust is smaller too.. and my collarbone haha I love that I can see it. The only thing that sucks losing is my butt haha, but I am going to take up Pilates or something again maybe during transition to get that a lil lifted and maybe bigger hah. It is a small price to pay though. I think the only reason why I’ve been feeling.. still.. BIG is because I still wasn’t able to fit into a lot of the clothes which really complimented me. Now, I feel.. average.. and.. not BIG.. but a little chubby which is really what I am now, and I’m totally fine with that because I can pull off a lot of things I couldn’t when I was “BIG”. I’m happy. =]

I didn’t bother weighing myself this morning because I knew I was bloated, but at the same time, I felt a bit smaller so I suspect I still lost fat. I am going to drink water allll day since I don’t have an excuse not to haha, and I have to dig around to see what I’m going to eat today. I’m so ecstatic. I’m going to hang out with Rocio today who hasn’t seen me in over a month, (I haven’t really been hanging out.. I’m trying to save money) so she is going to be in for a shock. She saw me previously when I got this small but last time she saw me, I was around 180. So yeah.
I’m going to go do some homework!

Another lb loss! 153
Really exhausted though.. I had to carry another bag around with my workout attire and I couldn’t get into contact with Svetlana, so I decided to go anyway. I have to say though that when I went on the elliptical, I didn’t do nearly as much as I used to… but.. I think my body is fatigued because I should be getting my period anytime now, which explains why I wanted to nap all day lol. I only did about 25 minutes, and 1.8 miles (I used to do 40 minutes and 3 miles) but I know it is because my period is near.. at the same time though, I burned 215 calories, which takes about 2. - something miles and maybe an hour.. so I don’t know, whatever, I still worked out lol.
Carrying the bag around was a drag.. cuz I also had sneakers in them.
Anyway, so I filled up a bottle with V8 juice, but when I had it during lunch it tasted weird, and I realized it was because the bottle I used had carbonated flavored water in it before! Ugh, and I didn’t rinse it out that well b/c I was rushing..! I still drank as much as I could, figuring it was a fast way to get the servings I needed. No fruit today though..
Tomorrow I’ll be home so I can eat something a bit more filling.
I stopped a few blocks ahead near the CVS because I had kind of a craving, or more like one that would bother me later, so I bought sugar-free gummy bears.. those REALLY hit the spot. I ate the whole bag though.. which is way more than I’m allowed.. well the bag is small to be fair! Whatever lol, better than if I waited and at the last minute decided to “taste” stuff my mom made.

Soo.. I did end up walking a bit more, I would say around .4 of a mile which isn’t bad if I keep doing that, plus with the transfer ticket, I don’t have to pay extra so I save 80 cents~ Yay.
Even though I’m at 153, I still feel pretty big, I know it is because I’ve been at this weight before I want to get down less than this, so it isn’t.. AS exciting as the first time, BUT, I am feeling bloated a little because my period is around the corner, so I know that by the time it is over, I should be down to 148 or at least 149.. so, that should feel a lot better.. that was actually around the time you could see my cheeks start to hollow, revealing my cheekbones more, very slight but exciting.
Okay, enough of this, I’m going to take a niiice long nap!

I’m down to 154! Yay. teehee…
very long day though.. I have to go fill up on milk b/c I didn’t bring any with me. I need new flats.. and I really.. want a new top b/c it is really hot and I want some more flowy tops that still compliment my figure, b/c so I always try to dress stylish kinda.. like rock fashion but not emo/hot topic type but just really cute/edgy.. and if I had a look for the types of dresses I like it would be the pin-up girl types, I love that look. Anyway.. it is reallyyy hot outside and I grew up in a culture that doesn’t show off their arms like that, the least we wear are short sleeves.. and as result, I have cute sleeveless tops where I wear this black mini jacket over, it is very light so it’s not bad, but still I don’t want to feel like I’m covering up.

I’m SOO ready to stop covering up so much! I am really excited that I’m at 154 b/c the 140’s are SO cloooose! I’m going to say that I should be at 149/150 by next Wednesday! And then after that.. well.. it is all up to me. If I work out the 4 times a week, I could be at my goal by mid-August, if I don’t and only do twice a week.. I’m predicting the last week of august is when I’ll hit my goal. BUT I don’t want to hit it that late because I move into the dorm on the 31st! And… I have to do some shopping, pack, and I’m working at Homehunters for that week, so I really need to persevere starting today when I have the time! Now that I think of it, I’m going to work out later tonight before I take a shower, right now I’m going to relax and start reading the 300 pages I have due by next Monday. Even with the working out, I predicted that without working out too much, I would lose the average of 4 lbs a week since it will slow down, but I want to lose a bit more, maybe 5.. Well.. I mean, if I do hit target in the beginning of September or end of august, it will still be OKAY b/c by then I will be in the 130’s and I won’t have a problem over at the dorm since I’m going to be cooking.. Really, it is that transition phase that I am worried/nervous/excited about.. I mean.. 1.. that is when I can stop using beads… 2.. I’m worried that I might not stick to the transition part.. and might start adding foods in too quickly 3… it is for about a month and half, and that is a long time when you’re in college b/c of all the work, so I hope I don’t succumb to bad eating habits.
As much nervous as I feel, being able to eat chicken again and use bits of oil will really appease my taste buds so I don’t think I will succumb to junk food either, plus.. I think.. I will have to keep in mind that I really don’t want to go through this again, and transitioning is really a process of crossing the finish line so I think it is towards the end that people stop messing around and just go for it.. Whatever, I’m not there yet so I won’t think about it, either way I need to go through that correctly if I don’t want to gain weight back so that is something I need to look at as having no choice but to do.
Okay. So, I’m going to work out today, tomorrow with Svetlana, and then Friday and Sunday. It is very do-able to put in 40min to an hour, depending on how I feel. I just have to do it!

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Ugh, you know, I’ve always been a good writer. I got A’s in classes where B’s were the highest, but when it comes to blogging… well, different story. I just reread parts of this and it sounds off, but whatever lol.
I ended up working out , did a lil over 2 miles. I think it’s pretty fair to say that it was about as much as I could do because I was tired from walking around on campus and commuting and such. Anyway, I need to just try getting to sleep earlier.. I got off the phone with my BF at 11.. I should have gone to bed at least by 11:30 but.. eh. It’s okay, tomorrow is Thursday, so I can take it easy after I get back and take a nap maybe.
Okay, now I’m feeling tired, haha I’m going to sleep.

ok.

I know I said I would hold out on the weighing.. but this morning, I woke up, and I looked and felt a little thinner, this is when each lb I lose really starts to show. I noticed it in my stomach and my face.. so I weighed, and yes I’m down to 155! In fact, is was a tiny bit less than 155 but not quite 154.
Anyway, I’ll weigh again tomorrow though there is a good chance I won’t lose a lb for tomorrow since the loss IS getting slowed. Also, I’m approaching my period, and I’m started to feel sore in my chest just a little though. So I need to drink a lot more water, but even then, I know I might still retain.
I’m so excited though.. 155.. is awesome. I’m starting to feel more comfortable though when I see myself I know I still have 25 to lose. It is my height too, I wish I was taller.. at least 2 inches. Meh. Its okay, there is always heels.

So.. today.. I forgot my bag of gym clothes =_=, I was rushing out.. so yeah. But I still hung out with Svetlana for a bit, it’s just.. so tiring. She comes to Rutgers early, she has class from 6-9, tuesday n thursday, so after she works out, she has time to relax. I don’t really get that time, b/c I need to catch the bus by a certain time. At the same time though, we ARE paying for access to the gym, so I feel like I should take advantage… Bleh. I need to look up another bus route  b/c if I go to the gym at 3, I will get out around 4 and itll be too late to catch that bus..
Hmm..  I’ve decided though to request a stop earlier.. b/c the bus stops right across from my house, and I live on a busy street, so they charge a little extra after they pass the corner to keep going. I might just get off at that corner b/c it is by CVS, so I can go to CVS if I need to and then I will have to walk a few blocks to my house. If I do this, I will save a few cents and add more more distance to walk.. I think if I did it 4 times, it would equal 1 mile each week, which is something. Plus, I go downhill so it isn’t too bad.

I did a lot of my reading assignments on the bus so I could relax a bit when I got home. I just have one more reading, but I printed it out this time so I can do it tomorrow morning on the bus.. I think I’m just going to take the night off and relax b/c the reading isn’t a lot and I can get it done in the morning. My hair is amazing… I used that Alter Ego stuff again last night, and my hair is.. incredibly soft! I love it.. I’m so happy we bought it. I’m going to take a shower a little later.. I think I’m going to take a short nap right now.