Changing my Life through Accu-weight Loss

Okay, I don’t really want all that I wrote in the other post to be public. I’m feeling a lot better now anyway.
So to reiterate, I’m very pleased with my loss, I’m down to 164. Been drinking tons of water so the retention was very low for me (period starts tomorrow-ish, cramps n spotting today). I didn’t really expect to lose 2 lbs. by Friday but I guess the water really paid off.
I spent all day today cleaning upstairs and downstairs.. was pretty much my work out. 3 hours of scrubbing, dusting, organizing, sweeping..
I always get a burst of energy the day before my period and I feel like cleaning too, oddly. The day it starts, I feel extremely tired…
I’m happy because I should be down to the early 150’s by July 7, probably less. That’s when classes start so I’ll be really pleased with that. By Warped Tour, July 28, I should be at 135/130, my goal weight. We’ll see then if I want to lose more. I’m so glad I had all this time this summer to lose the weight. It’s going to be amazing to go back and see everyone haha.
Someone IMmed me and was telling me I was losing muscle, but it’s ridiculous cuz I’m most definitely not. Just from how I feel.. I’ve seen people diet, get down to their weight, and have no muscle or shape, even during the in-betweens.
Nah, I actually see and feel what I lose, plus I have tons of energy and strength. I compare it to when I would fast.. I couldn’t even walk too  much without feeling my legs burn from weakness but on this diet I run more than I ever ran before. Also, because your body doesn’t realize it isn’t eating that much, it doesn’t go into starvation mode which is what causes muscle loss. It just burns/runs on what is there, and veggies/milk.

Also, before, when I did this diet with the doctor, I met a lot of people who opted to have their doctor monitor them (someone actually told me that their doctor recommended doing the program) and their muscle loss was minimal, most of what they lost was fat, those who had health issues - a lot of them didn’t even need to take the same meds anymore for blood pressure, high cholesterol, etc..
I’ll never forget this one woman I met when I first went there for orientation. She was slim enough, older too, and when I told her I was new, she was practically jumping up and down for me, she was telling me how much I’d love it and blah blah.. but what struck me was that she had finished the program a year ago, lost 80 lbs, maintained it, but on top of that, she used to have out of control diabetes where she had to take insulin shots and a series of meds daily, and once she went on this diet, her diabetes was virtually gone and she only needed to take a pill everyday.  She had come back again after a year because she had a wedding to go to and sometimes people will come back to lose a quick 10 lbs or so.

So yeah.. believe what you want, but everyone who tries this program and follows it, loses weight, and at a good pace. I thought it was crazy the first time, but after 2 weeks, I was sold. Anyway I sound like im really selling this. I guess because it’s so different from what everyone else is doing. It’s not even crash dieting because you don’t go through starvation (except mentally) and you WILL maintain the weight if you transition correctly and eat better afterwards. It resets the metabolic point.
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Anyway, back to me.. Yeah. I’m excited =].
I haven’t seen a few friends in a couple weeks and I’m excited to see them sometime this week haha.
And clothes. Yes. Summer clothes. I can start wearing the cute clothes I bought last year during classes, and as I continue losing, well I guess I’ll have to buy more cute clothes! ^_-
Oh yeah, and there are 2 dresses my mom had bought for me last year, but at that time, I had a started gaining and I couldn’t fit into them. Soo… I can’t wait to try them on and wear them finally in a couple weeks. Yay.
Oh yeah, I remmeber last time, I lost weight from 192 to 160 and how much of a change that felt like to me.. but this time, since I spent most of my time in the 160’s and gained to the 170’s the last semester… I am sick of being in the 160’s and I see how much of a difference the 30 pound loss will make. I just want to get down to a size 8. I want to still have a body, and I will be doing toning exercises.. I don’t want to get crazy toned, just a little tighter.
Okay, I’m going to call my boyfriend and then sleep! =]

Today was stressful… my parents.. I hate my stepdad.

I don’t want to go into it.

I ate right though, had iced coffee and added flavorings to whole yogurt. It was good. Just feeling tired though… it’s around my period time.. I had VERY slight cravings for chocolate which is amazing b/c I lost cravings for sweets. Even the sugar-free candy.. I only have one piece if I feel like it. Before, I would eat the 6 I was allowed. Anyway,  I realize I write in here almost everyday… I guess it’s something I need to do. Seeing what I’m doing in words, and being organized.. it really helps me.
Ugh I have a headache..

I need a haircut really bad.. I’m fine with my size right now, as far as being self-conscious.
Oh I just realized that once I went past 170, that’s when I really felt.. out of place. I mean even in the 160’s I feel self-conscious but my stomach wasn’t hanging out as much.. and even when I was 170, my mom agreed that those 10 lbs I lost had a major effect. Then I checked my BMI and realized that I hit “obese” at 170 and now I’m at overweight. That’s crazy. I could actually see the difference too, I mean.. my hips have shrunk, my chest, and my stomach. It’s funny how my feelings of being “too” big correlate with the BMI index before I even knew my BMI.
Anyway, I also found out that 140 is the starting weight for “normal” which explains why I felt so good at 150 and felt like I just had a little extra but it wasn’t a big deal. Hmm.

Still, my goal is still 130. I will stop and transition at 130, but even during transition, I will still lose a few pounds.. Anyway.. I’m rambling. I need to nap.

I am down a pound to 166. I’m so pleased with that. I’m hoping to get to lose 3 more by Tuesday! That’d be sweet. —-I’m down to the weight where I started to feel fat again when I started gaining.
148-153 was my comfortable weight. Every pound I gained in college was a pound I felt. I let it go until I hit the 160’s because that’s when I started to notice rolls becoming more pronounced.. my jeans started to tighten. The woooorst thing was my skinny jeans.

They stopped fitting! Skinny jeans.. now.. I NEVER dreamed of wearing skinny jeans when I was heavier.. and when I was able to put on a pair and wear a cute top over it without worrying about rolls showing, or feeling big, well… I think that was the happiest I’d been with myself. I had finally.. only begun to really see how I’d look when I was at my goal, and the kind of shape I’d have (happy to say I still kept a curvy figure - little to no muscle is lost on this diet). So anyway, I took out my pair of skinny jeans and I marveled that in less than 15 pounds from now, I can wear that AND look good in it. I held it up to my thighs and noticed how straight the jeans wear.. they’re low-riser dark wash skinny jeans. All my life, I had to wear jeans that worked to wrap around my thighs. I always looked at the jeans that were straight from the hip to the waist and I always thought I could never get to that.

Now I’m on my way again.. and to be able to wear that during the first semester.. wow. I can’t wait to go jeans shopping again. The only insecurity I had around 150 was my gut - the hardest place. My stomach had improved tremendously, and there were real curves that could be seen, but I wanted it flat and curved. My legs are the first to really slim down.. everything else.. my chest, my arms, my stomach - they all slim at their own pace. Anyway, it was amazing to look at those pair of jeans and know I could fit into those. It’s weird because.. I’ve always been overweight, so the time that I was thinner, it was very short-lived.

I saw pictures of myself at that weight and I realized that although I didn’t look particularly “skinny”, I looked average and.. what I was at 150 was.. the “cute” chubby. What I was before was.. not cute. But really the greatest thing was how I felt, I felt so good at that weight.. imagine how I’ll feel when I’m done. The problem was I felt too good, and being in college, I felt like I could eat a little here and there and diet the rest away.. but I never did transition and it was a lot for me. I needed to keep going.

It’s okay, to try and fail is still amazing because the next time around, you know what to do.I’m just thinking about it.
I remember when I first started losing weight, I tried not to write a lot about it on my xanga blog b/c my friends were sick of hearing about it so much during lunch and stuff when I didn’t eat what they ate. Idk, I guess it becomes an obsession? That’s the only way I can keep at it though. I love this blogsite because I’m writing just for myself and I can pour my feelings out into it.

I don’t write a lot about the other stuff that goes on because.. I feel like I need a separate blog just to express how I feel with my weight and my dieting. I don’t really care if people read this or not, but this is so therapeutic for me - I can talk about my body image, weight loss, self-improvement as much as I can and to get it out into words is so amazing.I can’t wait until I can look back and marvel at what I’ve done.

Weighed myself this morning, back down to 167.
No fruits at home.. and no veggies.. I’m gunna ask my mom to pick up a V8 drink..

update later

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Okay, I tried another recipe on the accuweight site.. turns out we had the veggies to make it.

Basically, you slice up thin pieces of an eggplant, soak it in salted water for 30 minutes, slice up as many tomatoes as you want, sautee two onions til they start to carmelize… and add mushrooms if you want ( we didn’t have any ). Oh yeah, I bought PAM cooking spray so I was able to sautee and coat the pan.
So then.. you take a loaf pan or something close, layer it first with the onions, then the slices of eggplant, then slices of tomatoes.. and keep at it til you’re done. Then you season with oregano, salt, and garlic powder if you want.. And bake it in the oven for 50 minutes on 350 (my oven heats up fast so I put it on 300).
I have to say.. This came out delicious… I mean.. on my diet, it’s best to eat raw veggies.. and I guess since I’ve been so used to the basic tastes of fruits and veggies, anything beyond that tastes amazing. It’s a good healthy dish though, I can’t wait til transition period, I’m going to make this dish with chicken. It makes a good amount too. My mom ate the rest of it lol.

Anyway, I’m feeling good bout my weight loss. This diet may be one of the hardest and most food-deprived diet out there, but the results are amazing, and the rate too. It’s healthy too, if the beads didn’t work, I’d be crawling on the floor dying of starvation, but unlike regular “starvation” diet, your body doesn’t go into starvation mode, so your metabolism stays up. I mean, when I was fasting, I felt tired within the first couple hours and was waay too tired to even go to gym class, but this.. it’s.. awesome. Those doctors.. man.. they are something else.

I found out that finally after 11 years, the program is being sold to.. I forgot who.. so this diet program is going to be more well-known. It’s one of those diets that everyone can do if they put their minds to it, and you lose no matter what if you just follow the rules. Not everyone can be that strong though, it took a lot of mental focus for me to do this. It’s helping me become more focused in every other aspect of my life though, and I’m going to be able to get this over with pretty soon.  I set my goal to at least 10 lbs by July 7, but I’m being generous, I could lose more by then but I don’t want to disappoint myself if I get sidetracked like I did last week.

I know I should resist weighing myself tomorrow.. It’s going to be hard because I wake up, go pee, then pull the scale out from under my bed and weigh myself naked. It’s so convenient.. ugh.

So.. last week was bad. I’m not making any excuses.. I shoulda controlled myself better. The first couple days I wasn’t losing.. and then I ended up cheating throughout the week. Especially on Sunday and Monday.
Anyway.. So.. since this diet is so restrictive… eating outside of it makes you gain water weight that had been detoxed out.. so I gained 3 lbs of it to 170.. the good thing is that I was 170 all that week.. So I didn’t gain any real fat.. But anyway.. So I went back on my diet yesterday with milk.. and since yesterday I’ve lost a lb.. bak to 169.. so I’m glad I’m getting back on track.

I got side tracked and was slowed down by a week.. But the important thing is that I’m getting back on track~It hasn’t been a whole month yet so if I could lost 5 lbs this week then I’d have lost 15 for the month. That’d be great. Anyway, update later.

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So.. Today went well, and I feel pretty strong today, I can tell I won’t cheat.
It was a milk day.. I bought Giradell unsweetened cocoa the other day b/c I bought an ice cream maker and there are sugar-free recipes on the accuweight.com site.. the only problem is that I couldn’t find rock salt for ice cream at the supermarket, nor could I find Xanthan gum.. and when I asked.. they were just as clueless =_=.. I’m going to try Stop and Shop or something next time.
So anyway.. I decided I wanted chocolate milk.. well I ran out of WaldenFarm’s 0 calorie chocolate syrup.. and the unsweetened cocoa really is a pain to mix and dissolve (it worked well when I used it in blender recipes.. but I broke the blender =[ ).. SOOO.. I heated up a cup of milk and mixed in cocoa and splenda..
Well the good thing about the storm that happened last night is that a lot of the humidity was gone, so the hot cocoa wasn't terrible to drink.. And then I had two sugarless chocolate fudge popsicle (40 cals each). I realize it is a tiny bit of cheating given there are things in there that I shouldn't eat, but I've had them before during my milk days and they are OK once in a while. Anyway.. then I made some iced coffee with milk. That was pretty refreshing =]

So… I’m very positive right now. I fell off but I’m back on. I’m starting to lose again. I realize my period is on its way so there are going to be fluctuations.. and I need to drink more water than I already do. I keep thinking that I have a month before my summer classes begin (less than a month) and that if I lost just another 10 lbs, I’d be pretty happy. I’m so bored this summer, no job oppurtunities.. everyone wants a long-term person >_< grr. It’s okay though.. that refund check is going to be hold me over for the rest of the summer, and when I get to school I’ll be working there. I’m helping my mom  out here and there, despite the little fights we get into. I am actually really excited for college to start up again *teehee*. I wonder who my roommates will be? Later on, I’m going to learn more recipes for my transition time, when I get to encorporate small amounts of oil, and chicken/fish into the veggie days. Honestly, chicken is one thing I REALLY miss. I love chicken. And chicken and veggies.. that is my ideal healthy food. I’m just really looking forward to September!
Myles is trying to lose weight too. I miss him so much! It’s been over a month since I saw him last. But, I’m doing pretty well, I know we’ll see each other again, and knowing that I can see him freely once classes start is something that really helps me get through the summer. I’m excited to meet his best friends, his friend is transferring to Columbia University to be close to his girlfriend, and it takes no time for us to get into the city from Rutgers, so we’re planning a double-date in the city! I really want to dress up in this beautiful skirt I bought last summer that fit me at 148 (although it may be loose later on), and also this blazer that was a tight fit on me at 148, and I know will fit perfectly when I’m smaller. By then, I can start to eat out again so I want to stay on track to be able to do so. It’s something that is keeping me motivated right now.. Myles hasn’t seen me really dress up since prom (we are long-distance btw so that’s another reason), and I haven’t eaten out at a nice restaurant in the city yet, I’ve been to coffee shops and local eateries, but not a nice restaurant.. so I’m super-excited for that.
Also, the restaurant we discovered in Newark, Spain, is excellent, and was ranked #94 in the country as far as the taste of the drinks.. and well they had amazing drinks there! and the staff, the food, the price.. it was all excellent! So, I’m also excited for that too, when he visits…

One thing I’m worried about is how my roommates will be. I hope they’re not going to be busybodies like I had last year, also I’m not a frat person yet they kept trying to drag me to them, and it’s like.. okay.. I have a boyfriend of more than 3 years, I don’t want to “dance” with random horny guys, and I don’t want to drink beer or jungle-juice with God-knows-what in it! It’snot my scene, I’d rather have a few drinks with a couple friends or something, and in moderation on occasion, not every thursday. Well I do have a
6 - 9 pm class on Thursdays..! That’s pretty late.. but its once a week and that’s another good thing is that it’s not Thursday’s so in case they ARE going to try and drag me out, at least this is something they could understand. Last time, they thought my bf was restrictive.. which was an insult to me b/c it’s my choice not to go, it’s not as if I LIKE that scene or dancing with random guys.. and even Myles stopped partying after we started going out and he used to be a crazy partier. Anyway, I’m getting off track.
I’m excited and nervous for next semester.. But more excited =D. Also I’ll be working for a lil extra cash here and there.. and I’ll be able to cook, so no more temptation from the cafeteria or guilt for not eating (since it cost around 1800 a semester for the meal plan and it was a MUST to have for freshmen).

Anyway, I’m excited, and I can’t wait for classes to start in July either. I need to buy a NJTRANSIT monthly pass too. I’ll update later.
Oh yeah.. I’ll weigh myself tomorrow.. buuut.. I’m going to try and weigh myself every couple of days instead of everyday since it really affected me last week.

Woke up, talked to my mom, decided I didn’t really want to do the BBQ. She was doing work in the garage and.. well I just wasn’t feeling up to it, and I knew if I cheated today it would be very hard for me to get back on track Sunday. So instead, I woke up, helped my mom out with work, and I just spent an hour working out.. treadmill - 2.3 miles… 10 minutes of stretching, and I’ve decided to encorporate pilates again.. I have the DVD. Today I just did a few of the moves I remembered.. I didn’t want to overdo it, but I’ll start doing Pilates again.

Anyway.. today is veggies and fruit.. I’m just going to bake that squash for today and drink a lot of water. I don’t want to eat more than I feel necessary… I’m only eating for the vitamins and minerals.

Anyway, going to shower.. its so HOT! it’s supposed to go up to 96.. ugh.. so glad I have a window A/c …

Okay, I really messed up this week. I cheated today and ate a bunch of stuff I shouldn’t have.

I got upset because I had been dieting perfect this whole week and my weight didn’t budge. I know it had to do with ovulation because you retain water during that time (i can always tell when I am). But it made me frustrated.. and then my mom has been stressing me out.. and well you know the rest.
Tomorrow she wants to have a BBQ.. I know I will lose weight anyway, so I’ve decided to look up recipes, veggie stuff that I can buy tomorrow and make for the  BBQ. I’m not going to stress myself out over the cheat, tomorrow I’m going to fill up on water and veggies, and the most I’ll have is chicken. I’m going to enjoy myself tomorrow knowing that I will get on track on sunday and this was a cheat day.
I  KNOW I can get back on track because when I stress over it too much, that’s when I eat more. I’m accepting that my weight loss has been slowed and it’s my fault, but it’s my choice too. Tomorrow I’m going to enjoy myself, finish eating at 6, and Sunday will be a restart.

Ugh, I’m disappointed but I know what’s done is done, and it’s up to me to get back on track. I should have been patient with my weight-loss because the minimum is 15 a month, and I wanted to rush more to get it over with, but really even 15 a month is a lot and even at that rate, I’ll be at a good weight during college so I shouldn’t obsess.
So I needa get back on track, using these two days as cheats, at least I didn’t go crazy with my cheats like I used to before.

Soo.. I’m back down to 167, it was just all water weight.. which means.. that.. I should lose a lb. by tomorrow. The only problem is there’s no food in the house!!
Well I’m going to work out anyway.. and then when my mom comes home she said she’s going to buy some veggies.. I wanted to try this recipe with a butternut squash.. It’s supposed to taste like fries.
All you do is peel, deseed, slice in half, and cut it into french fry shapes and sprinkle some salt on it. Then you bake it at 425 for 40 minutes, flipping them over halfway. It sounds really good, and it’s soo simple. There’s a recipe for “legal” ketchup but I don’t usually eat my friends with ketchup anyway, I usually eat em plain or with mayo (ha).
Anyway, I’m going to work out later and clean a little bit.

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So, feeling pretty good today. You don’t HAVE to eat the max of what is allowed, but it is required to eat at least half to supply the necessary vitamins to get through the day… but.. I wanted to..
So I went to Stop n Shop, bought the butternut squash and a couple of those frozen veggies that you steam.. also, a nectarine, sugarless jello and gelatin, flavored seltzer water, and sugarless 9 cal candy, and a sugar substitute. So I’m  pretty much set.. there’s no reason to cheat now haha. well there wasn’t one to begin with but the sugarfree candy REALLY helps me with cravings. Also there’s a recipe I looked up with jello and gelatin.. apparently you can make jelly candies this way. I’ll post up the recipe later.

Oh yeah I tried the butternut squash thing.. I cut it up (never did b4 so it took longer than I anticipated). Our oven heats up really fast.. so instead of 425.. I *should have* put it on 350 or 300.. so after 20 min.. I went to flip it and noticed when I did the edges were kinda burnt. I should have taken it out then but I reduced the heat and after I flipped em I kept em in for another 10 minutes.. well most of the pieces were shriveled n burnt. Not all though, I still had some good pieces I could eat. It was actually really good.. since I only used half, I’m going to do the same next time. Tomorrow is milk though, so at least I have the sugar-substitutes to make the stuff I want.

Anyway, I’m giving it another half hour to digest.. then I’m going to work out. I’m feeling pretty good so yeah.

Okay well I weighed-in at 166.5 - 167.. -

Weight loss for 2nd week - 7 lbs.

Accumulated weight loss - 13 lbs.

So far during the day.. I was doing well, just eating veggies and a fruit.. but the vegetables tasted gross and well..

I had a couple kit-kat’s again. It tasted horrible though so Idk why I kept eating.. it was waaay too sweet and I felt the sugar hit me.

Ugh.. well I’m going to fill up on water and work out later at least. =/

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My head hurts.. and I feel like crap. It was too much of a shock eating all that sugar.

I’m going to learn from this… the good news is now I find sweets repulsive and I have no craving to eat more.
I’m not going to be discouraged from this, I’m going to keep going, even if I don’t lose today, I’m still going to, and that is what matters. It was a mistake but I’m going to continue.
I feel like I have a hangover.. ugh
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Didnt work out today. Took a nap around 6.. woke up at 8:30. Felt WAY better. my weight jumped.. Its water weight though. It’ll go down in two days. Anyway.. I’m definitely going to wake up earlier tomorrow and work out.
I need to do some shopping too..

Yes! I weighed in this morning and I am down 3 lbs.. I’m at 167! woohoo!
My “official” weigh-in isn’t until tomorrow but I’m ecstatic! That means that I lost 6.5 - 7 lbs. this week!
Better than I hoped!
I calculated my rate of loss at 5 lbs a week, teehee this is awesome. I look and feel skinnier too.
I’m going to NYC again today with Darlayne and Rayna. We’re just going to walk around..

I’ll update later~

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Yeah.. I had those mini kit-kat’s =[ A few.. it’s bad. Grr. i was doing SO well.

It’s okay though, I won’t let it discourage me.

I went to nyc today w/ darlayne and rayna, we walked around a lot.. probably.. 2 miles at least..
was really fun, bought a charm bracelet and anklets.
I’m going to work out tomorrow and try to work at the kit-kat’s I had. It definitely is going to affect my diet, especially b/c tomorrow  is a veggie/fruit day.
I had iced coffee from dunkin donuts.. it was.. not good. Starbucks makes it stronger..

Anyway, I’ll weigh myself tomorrow, I think I will end up staying at my weight or maybe even gaining a pound.. but my body will re-adjust in a few days the way it did this morning.. So. I’m not very discouraged.  I will keep going..