Changing my Life through Accu-weight Loss

Hmm.. there weren’t any fruit at home so I had this microwavable veggie mix and a half cup of V8..

So.. since I’ve been losing again, I haven’t really been seeing much of a difference, at least that is how I feel.
I am still 10 lbs away from my mini-goal of being at the place I started to feel comfortable in, but I figured being at 160, I should still feel very different.. but I don’t. It might be that I don’t feel that different because I was at 180 for a short time and my average weight I was at during my gain was in the 160’s. Whenever I went over 165, I would diet and get down to 160 or 157 but not much less.

Still, today I decided to try on some of my clothes that I wore in the 150’s and I could wear them which is what counts. The only thing is that they were tight.. it’s weird.. I guess as you get smaller, every pound you lose gets more noticeable than when you were bigger and lost a pound.  Anyway, I tried on a pair of capris I bought in a size 11 last year and wore a lot.. and they fit! I also remembered how loose they got at 150 and I was kind of shocked at what a difference it makes. Also, my hip bones were a lot more defined before when I was at 150, and that also kinda stood out to me that they really started to become defined only 10 lbs from now.

I’m not sure what the point of all that is.. I guess I’m just musing on losing weight again.. I’m not as excited to have lost the 20 lbs as I was before, and I don’t feel as smaller as I did the last time I lost weight and went down to 160, but I guess it is because I had done it before and just want to get smaller.

Anyway.. I should start working out on the treadmill again, I haven’t been exercising for a while.. and I want to go to NYC tomorrow, so I guess that will be my kickstart (all the walking).
My mom has been walking around a lot more, she’s getting better, so that’s good.

Anyway… 150.. here I come~ =]

I’m back down to 160.. So I lost all the water weight and the food was burned I guess..
I’ve been running around all day doing housework.
Today I chose to sleep extra though..

I will update later on how I’m doing, but I’m doing pretty well. I’m predicting at least 157 by this Wednesday and 152 by next Wednesday (The week my classes start) which is again, the weight I started to feel comfortable at.

I’ll update on what I ate later.

Okay, I’ll mark today as Week 6: Day 1 because I’ve been cheating on my diet for the past few days.

My weight had goen down to 160 but with the weight of all the food I’ve been eating, it jumped to 163/164 but I know it will get back down soon. My mom is home, I’m looking after her. Exhausting to look after her and my brother… but all in all..yeah I cheated, I ate a loot.. the most I’ve cheated so far. It was so tempting to eat today because when my brother is home, they always buy tons of food, especially junkfood and microwavables.. and they went shopping today.. but I stuck it through.
Had milk.. iced coffee, tea, milk w/ vanilla extract n splenda.. not bad. It will be a lot easier tomorrow… The important thing is that the weight will come off, even if it slowed down a bit. It was tempting to just keep cheating but I worked through it and I’m back.
So now, I will weigh myself on Wednesdays since my attempt yesterday failed.

So, I haven’t been doing well on my diet. I binged kinda on saturday (well any kind of eating is like binging on this diet) and then my parents brought truffles home and I had two yesterday… and then today.. well my mom is in the hospital, she’s been having a lot of pain and the doctor’s said she has gull stones.. =/
so i’ve been in the hospital since 9 am til 4 when my stepdad came and picked me up… I’m home right now, and he’s in the hospital. I still haven’t heard from the doctors exactly what they are going to do but I just came home to drink milk and shower and relax for a tiny bit. I’m going back around 7ish…
Well I was doing fine, diet-wise.. but when I got home, I had milk and cottage cheese.. then I headed for the truffles and gobbled down 2. I feel kinda sick now. I wish i hadn’t eaten them, it was only for a few seconds of pleasure..
Ugh!! 3 days of bad cheating!! It’s okay, tomorrow I am going to do milk again and the truffles are almost gone anyway so yeah… grr.. I was losing again too, the plateau that I hit from my period was going down and I had gone down to 160 and 159 was so close. I’m mad but whatever, I’m going to get back on track.
I’m stressed though about my mom, they will have to remove the gull stones.. ugh. its scary. I’m exhausted too..

well whatever, I’m not going to care about my weight like that, yeah I have 2 weeks left but I still lost and I will continue to lose, even if it got slowed down.
I gotta go shower and see my mom..

bad.. i cheated.. like major. I’m so stpid.. just when I felt like the water retention was going down I got bored and ate stuff I shouldn’t be eating.. like binge-type. ugh. I feel sick.
it’s ok though, tomorrow is milk and I’ll get back on track.
I won’t weigh myself then til wednesday or thursday.

Didn’t bother weighing myself.. I feel like I haven’t lost anything and it’s kind of irritating but it might be that I’ll lose a few before the week is over.

Been pretty moody too. I’m getting sick of being home.. I just have to hold out for 2 more weeks until classes start.
Also, for two days, I’ve been having like.. a headache. I realized that it’s because during my milk days, I didn’t have regular coffee, I had decaf. Also, I haven’t been drinking tea as much.. so I realized that my body has become accustomed to caffeine.. Weird.

It would have went away tomorrow but I wanted to drink tea anyway, I can cut back on coffee but tea is something I like to drink at least every other day, simple because it is good for you.
Anyway, after drinking the tea, it helped with my headache and that just confirmed it.
I’m still moody though. I just need to get out. There’s things I need to get done..
Ugh. I hate feeling cranky like this.

Today I had a banana, a few cherries, and a glass and half of V8. That is a solid 3 lbs that I’m allowed. I know better than to weigh myself after eating all that lol. I’ll weigh myself after my milk days start up.. which falls on Tuesday morning, so that works. I don’t feel like doing anything and it’s depressing.. I got invited to go out to the city today but ehh. Also.. because of my moodiness.. I’ve been getting cravings to eat. It’s shocking how it affects me.. I almost gave into having pieces of chocolate but I didn’t. It was kind of scary to see how I eat when I’m upset..  The good thing is that I’ve gotten over eating when I’m bored. I eat on vegetable days not because I’m hungry but just for energy and nutrients and such now. And I treat fruits as a dessert..  something I eat to savor the taste. Even sugarless candies have started to taste too processed and gross for my liking.. I ended up spitting out the one sugarfree jolly rancher candy I had in my mouth. My tastes are shifting, and I like it. I will definitely keep this up during college.

I know my moodiness will go away and my slight cravings will subside and I’ll pick up again once my period is over.. everything negative becomes so amplified when I’m on my period. I get short-tempered and irritated. Ahh.. I hate that.
I need to drink more water too.
We have mango’s in the house now.. but since I had about what I’m allowed, I’m saving the mango’s for tomorrow.. yum. I love mango’s.. I haven’t had them in so long though. I am looking forward to the summer session to start.. I made plans with my friend to work out at the gym there, so now I have a workout buddy. I forgot that we can use the gym during the summer sessions, so that is a huge plus. I figure, I’ll go to class, and it ends at 2:45, my friend has classes later on but she’s going to show up early to go work out or just to even sit and get coffee, so that sounds good. I need to get out more, but it’s depressing because I don’t have a job and I don’t feel like spending money that I saved..

Yeah, wasn’t feeling too well today. In a bad mood. I don’t think I should even weigh myself until Tuesday even though the 21st marks a whole month. I mean, I might, but I’m doubtful it will be worthwhile because I retain so much water during my period and I barely lose. Grr…
My period should be over by Tuesday too, so we’ll see what happens..

Ugh, my stomach hurts. I don’t think I’m going to weigh myself til my period ends.. I feel so bloated and I don’t have anything to alleviate bloating, just cramps. I slept long but I still feel tired, I think I’ll sleep another hour.

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Bleh. today was bad. the weather was crap. I felt like crap too.. ugh.. cramps.. bloating.. grr..
and yes.. wen i’m on my period… I want chocolate.. really bad. so i went into a case of chocolate cookies my mom had.. ahh.. it was.. okay. not as good. these days.. if I cheat.. I really taste like the sugar and lack of flavor in general. I just had bits and pieces.. (the cookies were crumbled). But then I had 4 fudge popsicles.. ugh.I wish the blender was working, I coulda made a mochachino w/ chocolate. well w/e I didn’t eat a lot and I felt bad… It’s okay though, I didn’t do what I used to do which was if I cheated a little, I would be like “oh well the week is gone I might as well cheat more for today”. I stopped doing that, nowadays, if I cheat a little, I acknowledge that it will slow my weight loss down for the week but I’ll still lose weight.
I know I’ll still lose 1 more lb by the 21st. I’m just retaining water and feel sooo bloated. I drank a ton of water but I didnt have to pee as much as usual so that tells me I’m retaining.
Anyway it’s okay.. I’m just really tired. And I cheated before 6 so that’s also good, just got to fill up on water. My weight was teetering at 161/162 when I weighed myself this morning.. I’m not going to drive myself crazy cuz I am, after all, on my period, I’ll just check it on like…. Friday..
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Ugh, I slept like an hour. I have a feeling I’ll end up staying up tonight.
I noticed my face really slimmed down, and my skin and acne cleared up too since I started this diet. My skin looks and feels amazing and soft. There are still tiny bumps here and there.. and I did develop a pimple overnight when the weather was really hot, but that is going away on its own… I don’t like to touch it b/c it hurts but you can tell it has gone down significantly.  Hmm.. last time when I was in the 160’s.. I cut my hair, and I trimmed it again before college. Now that I see my face slimming and I have longer hair.. I think I look much prettier with longer hair. I think I’m going to just get a trim and side-bangs when I cut my hair. I’m going to get it cut sometime at the end of the month before classes start..
Today marks 3 years and 5 months with Myles <3 I stopped counting months a while ago but I just remembered.. and it will be 3 1/2 in July.
I love him so much.. <3  I can’t wait to be able to go out with him in the fall when college starts, he’s been so patient with me and for him to put up with the way my mom acts about us.. well I love him so much for that. I sincerely don’t know what I’d do without him.

Anyway, enough of that. I think the rest I got today and judging from how I’m feeling right now, which is pretty refreshed.. I’m going to work out on the treadmill again tomorrow. Not as usual, a little slower but I’m still going to do it.
Oh I’ve been using Burt’s Bee’s sample sized shiny shampoo and conditioner for two days now.. I still use a detangler and Tresemme Heat tamer..  but my hair feels natural now.
It feels so soft and light.. I’m used to pantene and I would use a clear shampoo to get the gunk out but it would just dry my hair out. Also like.. my hair is very damaged and I know that.. but since I switched, my natural hair feels softer and lighter.. very natural.. so I’m looking forward to getting a cut to get rid of all the damaged ends but I’m going to buy Burt’s Bee’s moisturizing shampoo (b/c my hair is pretty dry towards the ends) and see what happens. So it’s kind of like a mini-experiment. I’m still going to use product like the occasional mousse, and Citre-shine finishing spray, and of course, the heat protectant sprays.. but I think over all, the shampoo switch is doing me well. I’m going to get Burt’s Bee’s avocado hair treatment as well b/c I’ve heard great reviews on that. It’s kinda pricey to get all 3, but I found a site that sells the $8 bottles for $5.88, and I figure with the shipping, I’ll still save a few bucks, gas, and time, so it’s well worth it.

I also have a Macy’s card and I went online for this clearance thing and found a blazer on clearance for $10! It was REALLY cute and the special offer I got in the e-mail was $.99 shipping, so I ordered that. I should be getting it soon. I needed to buy something on that card to basically keep it active and just build credit. I bought it in a medium and I have a feeling that it won’t fit me til I get to the 140’s but that is another incentive for me to continue. I’m about 20 lbs away from that. I’m pleased with my overall progress, and I’m not going to slow down or get deterred or disappointed in myself because of that one cheat. I got to keep going!

Yay. I am down to 161.
Weight loss this week: 9 lbs.
Total Loss: 19 lbs. in 28 days.. with 1 week where I cheated and my weight loss had stalled.
1 month on the 21st. 4 more days til that day. I know I will lose at least 1 more lb by then to hit 20 lbs lost.
Yaay! =]
Oh yes and 10 more lbs. to lose to get back to the weight I was when I was comfortable and when I started college.
Piece of cake. about 30 more lbs to lose in total. No sweat.  =P
I’m happy.

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Had a glass of V8 and I felt SO much better afterwards.. I guess the lack of eating veggies and fruit really affected me. The doc had said you need to eat at least half of what you are allowed to eat, and I went a couple days without eating veggies really, just a cucumber.
Anyway, I went on the treadmill again after not doing it for days… not for too long, I just wanted to walk a bit, also it helps with the cramps. Did 30/40 minutes.. I just wanted to walk for the sake of walking, not anything hardcore.
Also had 3 sugar-free fudge pops.. Usually I will have 2 at the most but.. yeah.
I feel pretty good though..
I have to go to Rutgers soon to pick up books I reserved at the library for my classes.. and I have to pay off the bill for the summer. Will do that this weekend possibly.

Hmm, there weren’t any fruits or veggies to really eat today except for cucumbers.
I had a few..
I felt kind of light-headed later on.. I really need to eat my fruits and veggies, a couple days ago, I didn’t eat any fruit or veggies really.. and I think that affected me.
Anyway, I took a vitamin, had a cup of tea, and I felt fine. Plus I get tired as it is the first day of the period..
Went shopping today, bought a thing of V8 so I can have a cup of that tomorrow and get all my nutrients and stuff.. and for next time, that way I don’t have to skip over it really..
Been feeling bloaty.. checked my weight though even though I felt bloaty.. it was like at 163.5 or something.. so I know I’m still losing, just got to drink more water!

Bleh.

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I’m actually feeling a lot better, drank a bunch of water..
I just realized something too when I was talking to my boyfriend..
I’m turning 20 in December!
I’m going to entering a second decade of life at a healthy weight..
Ahh.. that is just.. so.. incredible. It’s going to be a new start.. a new phase in life.
I mean, now that I know what I want to be and major in, and then on top of that,
losing weight! 
I will be at my goal by the end of this summer, (maybe I’ll go down lower, who knows?)
So after I transition, it is just a matter of keeping up the healthy lifestyle, eating my veggies and fruits, trashing the junk food.
I don’t have a problem with that. I’ve learned to LOVE fruits and veggies on this diet, and have fun experimenting with recipes. I have a feeling I’m going to be doing a lot of stir-fry with chicken even after transition.
OH also.. I am getting my braces off soon! I’ve had them for years.. oh man.. this is awesome. Loosing weight, getting my braces off, finally figured out what I want to do in life. Yay, I’m looking forward to my 20’s =]