Changing my Life through Accu-weight Loss

Today is so beautiful!

For the past few days I’ve been working at my room, cleaning, dusting, throwing out old paperwork n clothes (I’m really bad with holding onto old things for its sentimental value). I realize how much clutter that causes, especially all of my high school paperwork and notebooks. When am I ever going to look at them? I threw away most of them, I kept a couple but most of it is gone. Anyway, so that was kind of.. my work out I guess you could say, sweeping, cleaning, dusting, mopping. Spent HOUUURSS each day.

Well, the result is GREAT! I spent yesterday putting up posters and decorating/rearranging stuff. It feels wonderful. Helps me stay organized mentally as well.
Having a neat, clean room is SO important I think, especially if you’re trying to lose weight. If I had just cleaned as I went along and put things back, not letting it build up, I wouldn’t have had to work so hard to get everything neat and clean the way I like it. Now I’m enjoying my room, my private space.
Kind of like weight loss.. Actually, it’s JUST like weight loss! If I had just controlled myself before, I wouldn’t have had to go on this diet and work so hard. Keeping a neat room is really helping me in my weight loss actually, because before I would look around, see the clutter, and it would make me depressed because your room.. that is your private space, your sanctuary, that’s how you.. EXPRESS yourself. I would take comfort in food. Now, I enjoy my room… it helps me stay focused with EVERYTHING.
Keeping my room neat and clean is a daily reminder of my weight too, and how great I will look and feel at the results. It keeps me focused of my diet and reminds me that as easy as it is to pick up that piece of chicken or that piece of chocolate, it is not worth throwing away the whole week for.

Oh yeah, last night I was putting up posters and blasting music. I went downstairs to see what my parents were up to and to see if anything was on TV and I see my rents eating away at this big bag of Kit Kats!
My mom was like “SORRY! uhh.. it tastes bad, theyre SO disgusting..” it made me laugh, it wasn’t a big deal. Any other day and I would have eaten maybe 5 or 6 of those mini Kit Kat packs. I thought it over and I realized how much easier this diet gets when you DON’T cheat. When you DO cheat even once, it gets SO much harder and easier to get off of it and gain weight. I read this interesting article online about how instead of AVOIDING the foods you can’t eat, it’s better to have them around and practice restraint, because in real life, unhealthy food SURROUNDS you and it is SO EASY. So, having the Kit Kats there help me actually. Last night there was a stray on the kitchen table, I can’t tell you how many times I passed by, eyed it, and almost picked it up. It’s this little piece of chocolate, what could it do right? Then I remember how strict my diet is, how MUUUCH that one little piece will affect me, and I give it up. I tell myself, yes, I realize there is chocolate and I am FREE to have a piece, but that I AM FREE, I am FREE to say NO, and lose weight.
These tiny accomplishments get me through the day.

I woke up this morning, had 3 glasses of water, looked around and smiled at my room, at the light coming in through the windows. Before, I would keep my curtains closed in my room and my door, now I leave the windows open, I let the light in, and I enjoy it. It has become the personal space I always wanted and it reminds me of how weight-loss is a total change, a TOTAL improvement. I want to lose weight, get in shape, CONTROL how I eat, and it will help me CONTROL other aspects in my life. It is working so far, I am slowly getting to be the person I want to be, I am thinking positively and being who I am.

Today I finally went on the treadmill around 1ish, I usually do interval training where you walk at a leisurely pace, then you jump up to running and push yourself to sprinting at high speeds. Then you go back to liesurely… you do these for a while and it helps keep your metabolism up for the rest of the day.
I did about 2.5 miles, in about 45 minutes, not bad considering how long its been, (about a month n half).
I have to say that, the first time I was trying to lose weight, when I had gotten down to the weight I am at, I could only do maybe.. 1.5 miles, 2 at the most. Today I could have gone to 3 miles but I didn’t want to push myself that far. During the semesters I worked out too, even as I was gaining, not VERY often like first semester but still I did work out a couple times, and I would do 3+ on the elliptical in 40-50 minutes. It made me realize that even though I gained weight, I am SO much better than the first time as far as health-wise and fit-wise. Before I started working out, I HATED physical education because I couldn’t run that far in that little time and I wouldn’t do as well in a team. AFTER I started losing weight, I love phys. ed. and my instructor and those around me all complimented me in how much weight I’d lost, and I no longer tried to blend into the background, I tried to stand out!

So, I may have gained weight back because I never transitioned or tried to, and it may be my second time, but I still learned a lot from the first time around, and after doing it, I KNOW I am capable, and I had a taste of what it feels like. NOW I’m striving to lose the weight this summer and go to college, cook healthy meals even after I transition so I can maintain, and BE HAPPY and CONFIDENT.

So today, I saw the Kit Kat’s again, didn’t think twice about not getting some, and headed straight to the fridge for this organic crushed red pepper and tomato soup. I read the ingredients and it is all veggies and a small amount of milk. I don’t know if it is approved by my diet, but considering that V8 drinks allowed and that milk is the only other ingredient, I had a cup of it. It is AMAZING and delicious, about a month ago when I was trying this diet again during college, I had this soup every veggie day, only about a cup n half though b/c we are allowed about.. 1 1/2 lbs of fruits and veggies, and it takes about that much to make one can of V8, so I used the measurement and applied it to the soup. When I did the diet for about a week in college, I still lost about 7 lbs that week so I did not see any slowing of the process, I thinkt he soup works with this diet, so I’m going to keep eating it.. but not a lot though b/c V8 is discouraged itself b/c the doc wants you to allow your body to chew some solid food since the other two days are milk, and it can affect you mentally. So when there aren’t veggies around, or stuff I like, I’ll have the soup. For fruit today, I limited myself to a few grapes, about a handful. I think that is the allowance for the day.

AGAIN this diet is amazing. Even after I worked out I did not feel hungry, in fact I have a lot of energy. I still don’t feel hungry, I keep massaging the beads and filling up on water and if I have an intense craving, I have a piece of sugar-free Jolly rancher  or a sugarless piece of gum. We are allowed up to 6  of sugar-free hard candy or gum anytime, and for the hard candy, it can’t be more than 10 calories a piece. So I had around two pieces today and I’m saving the rest for later in the night.

Anyway, I DID cheat this week so I am not expecting the 8 lb loss I was hoping for during the first week, but I still lost weight and I accepted that I cheated and did not continue, when you accept what you have done but keep going, it makes you stronger and helps you not do it in the future.
I’m going to weigh myself tomorrow as that marks the end of the week, to see how much I lost.

Anyway, until tomorrow…