OK … I am sooooo disgusted with myself that I think I am ready to get back on track again.

I went from 114 lbs to 132 lbs in about 5 or 6 weeks. That’s 18 lbs!!!!!

I don’t need to be 114 lbs. I really don’t. But I should be between 120 and 125 lbs. That’s where I feel my best. That’s where my clothes fit.

Now, I just feel icky. It came on way too fast.

I have been practicing disgusting eating habits for over a month, and it can’t continue. It just can’t. I swear, as soon as I stopped tracking my foods and using this site, I completely lost control. It’s like an alcoholic who stops going to AA. I need you guys. I need to check in.

When I lost my weight before, I wasn’t on a strict diet. I do not plan on trying a strict diet this time either. But I am going to try to eat healthier. I can’t eat half a pizza, a handful of Halloween candy, followed by cake and ice cream … every day!!! I can’t do that anymore. It makes me feel nasty!!! It makes me look nasty!!!

So, today is day one. I will go back to weighing in on Mondays like before. But I can tell you that the scale said 132 lbs today. The highest I have seen in MANY months.

Wish me luck!!!! I’m BBBBAAAAAAACCCKKKKKK!!!