I haven’t been on here in over a month. It’s been a crazy month. As far as the eating healthy, I COMPLETELY gave up. I’ve done nothing but eat for the past 5 weeks or so, and I’ve gained over ten pouds. 114 lbs was my lowest, and I’m back up to 127 or so. Maybe 114 was too low, but I feel gross at 127 lbs. Maybe because I don’t fit into my clothes anymore. I don’t know if I plan on getting back on track yet. I would like to say that I plan on starting right now, or even tomorrow, but that would be a lie. I just wanted to check into the site so that I didn’t lose it. I know they get deleted after a while if you don’t log in. And I do plan on coming back … when I am truly ready. Maybe soon.

By the way, Jay has been home since I stopped writing. He came home around the end of September, and things have been great between us. Better than ever.

I’ve gained a lot of weight, but I am really happy. Isn’t that was matters most???