I can’t believe how out of control I have been. After three and a half months of tracking what I eat on Daily Plate, I completely stopped ….. and my eating went WAY out of control. I have had a week long binge. That’s the only way to describe it.  Honestly, I probably ate between 2500 and 4000 calories a day for the past 7 days. I was eating everything in sight all day, every day. Maybe those calories are a bit of an exaggeration, but I don’t really know … I didn’t even “sort of” keep a count … I just didn’t care.

I think the NO APPETITE reaction to missing Jay turned into FOOD FOR COMFORT reaction to missing Jay. And you know what??? I feel worse than ever!

But that’s okay … I am back in the game. I logged onto the Daily Plate today and started tracking my food again (even the Dunkin Donuts Bow-Tie that started my day). I CAN NOT gain back all of my weight. I can’t do it. I hated my body back then. I actually kind of like it now. I feel like I finally fit into my own skin. But not this week … this week I just feel disgusting.

Not sure what the damage will be on the scale. I’ll do my official weigh-in on Monday. I was 117.5 lbs last time. I’m hoping that I am no more than 120.0 lbs on Monday. That’s where I want to be … that’s where I want to stay.

As far as my other goal … the cleaning/organizing for 45 hours in September … well, I kind of blew that off too. I mean, I haven’t made any big messes, but I haven’t done anything extra either. Unless you count the work-out I had putting new slipcovers onto my couches last week. And putting a bunch of photos in frames. I suppose that counts towards “organizing”. I’ll have to look back to my last post, but I think that I am at about 20 hours towards my goal right now. Maybe more tonight after I visit Jay.

Speaking of Jay, fabulous news. He should be home by the end of next week if all goes well. Someone has to do a home visit next week to make sure that the apartment is an acceptable place for him to go (of course it is … I keep this place very nice!). Then, they send him home. Simple as that, I think. Can’t wait.

Oh yeah … one more thing. I dyed my hair last night. It was way too blonde last night so I picked out a color that looked like a light to medium brown. Nothing to exteme. I actually told my friend I was afraid it was going to be too boring. Ummmm ….. not quite how it worked out!!!! It is SOOOOOO dark! Extremely dark. Jay’s gonna die tonight when he sees me. He likes me blonde … Oops … oh well!!! I haven’t decided how I feel about it yet … maybe once it fades a little. It will fade … right????? LOL   Oh well. I’ll put some pictures. You guys can decide what you like better.