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Up 2.5 pounds this week.  :-(  Hopefully it is water or whatever.

Yay - 198.0!!!

A couple of months back, I bought Fiber One Bars in chocolate and peanut butter flavors.  I was immediately hooked.  They are only 140 calories, very filling, and super tastey!!  I had to watch it because sometimes I would eat 2 or 3 in one day because they are so addicting.  But I loved adding the extra fiber to my diet in such a delicous way. I would buy in bulk so I would always have a few around at work to keep me from indulging in other unhealthy snacks.

I didn’t immediately recognize the timing, but around the same time I started eating the bars, I started suffering from horrible gas attacks.  And when I say attacks, I am putting it mildly.  I would spend a couple of hours holding back wind, and this would cause my stomach to gurgle as badly and loudly as if I truly was passing gas - for hours at a time.

I remember one time I was at a meeting at work when it got really bad.  I am a female in a senior management role, and its tough enough dealing with an all-male executive team without any extra reasons for them to not take me seriously.  It was horribly embarrassing, and the more embarrassed I got the more my stomach got upset.  My colleagues were really nice and ignored it, but the gurgles in my stomach sounded as bad as if I was freely passing gas.  I still get embarrassed just thinking about it!!

It was only when I ran out of the bars last week when I realized that they were the cause of my gas.  I haven’t had one in a week, and I haven’t had the problem in that entire time.

It was tough to give them up, but I can’t go through that again!!

Weighed in early this week (going to a wedding tonight, so no doubt I would weigh in Sunday AM with disappointment).  Its been slow going, but I’m finally under 200 at a cool 199.6!!!  I’m really happy!!!

Gained a pound!!  I know, I haven’t taken things “seriously” so I kinda deserve this.

Weighed in at 201.4 today, down from 202.6 last week.

I seem to be averaging about a pound a week, except that first week of course (three!!).  But I can totally live with a pound a week.  It is pretty easy so far.  Like last night I ate pizza and ice cream. If losing a pound a week means I can occaisionally have pizza and ice cream, I will take it!!

The photo shows the size of a pound of body fat.  Its gross to think about but it is a great reminder!!

I weighed in mid-week.  Bad idea.  No change from the weekend. 

Weigh in - 203.8, down 0.4 pounds for the week. I’m somewhat disappointed, but I’m keeping it in check because I have PMS and I know that accounts for about a pound, possibly more.

I’m going to keep on keepin’ on!!

This week I have a couple of challenges. I’ll be going to Ruth’s Chris Steakhouse tonight for dinner, and I love that food. I want to be careful not to eat too much. My approach to dinner will be to eat quantities that enable me to enjoy each course, not eat as much of each course as I possibly can snarf down.

The other challenge will be that the new quarter starts in school. The class looks tough, and school nights are always my weakness. I get really into the night time emotional eating thing when I have tough classes. My philosophy here will be to focus on getting the work done as best I can. If I need some light snacks to help that is OK.

I have so much anxiety about my weigh in.  I don’t know if I can take the disappointment that I believe in my heart is in store for me.

Ugh.  I gotta get ahold of myself.

What happened to the Random Blog link feature?  Am I the only one missing this?