From fat and flabby to flab-u-less!

I told you my body likes to stall. Sure enough, it’s oscillating between 161 and 163. It doesn’t want to drop. My tape measure doesn’t want to budge, either. Stupid SOB.

I checked the scale like I do every morning, and sure enough, 163. That’s a 1.4 lb gain from yesterday. What is it with my body?! Why does it do this? I was OP yesterday and no, I didn’t get to exercise, but come on…an almost 2 lb gain?!
It just doesn’t want to get below 161. I read a book that poo-poo’d the thought of set-points. Well, I can tell you that they do exist and my body loves them. I hit them over and over again; I can tell you what mine are. The first is 161-163. The second is about 158, the third, 156. After that I don’t really know because I’m lucky if I can get to the 150’s, as you can see.

It’s getting frustrating. 4 weeks into it and this is already happening. People wonder why I hate my body. Well, this is one of the reasons.

Update 4:25 pm:
I’ve decided to cut down my points to be in the 20’s even though I’m still nursing. Perhaps knocking it down might shock my system.

Update 5:35 pm:
On advice of a friend I’ve decided to continue wendie rather than cutting calories drastically. Thanks, brseay!

Back to wendie plan. Not losing anything; stuck at between 161-163. My body reaches a stall early, doesn’t it? It’s always done that. Always.

I did the 30 Day Shred yesterday and don’t know whether or not I should do it again today. I might. I might give it 10 days at Level 1 and see if it makes a difference. If it does then maybe I’ll move on to Level 2.
Part of me is screaming, “NO NO NO!” because it kicked my butt yesterday. The other part of me knows that if I don’t kick it up a notch I’ll never get to goal size.

Update 4:22 pm:
I went to walk and the park was overrun by crosscountry track teams from schools around the area. No walking for me today. Crap.
I think maybe I should put $2 in the kitty everytime I exercise. So that means I get to put $14 for last week.

Why does my body hate me so? I stepped on the scale this morning, 161.6. It’s infuriating and sad. It’s a 2.2 lb loss so I guess I should be ecstatic. But why can’t it go faster? That’s barely a 1% loss, if that!

And my hip measurement went to 44.12; earlier in the week it was in the 43’s. Granted, I did mention earlier this week that I noticed my butt seems to be lifting and I wonder if that had anything to do with it? I also made sure that the tape was completely level and not wandering up towards my back or down to my knees. I also mentioned earlier this week that when I made sure the tape was completely level it read 44.5. So maybe I did lose almost .5 inch off my hips. *sigh*
This journey, it is not easy.

I’m trying to get Jillian Michael’s 30 Day Shred. They have parts one and two on On-Demand and I watched part one last night (yes, watched. It was midnight and I was in bed). It looks trying but not terrifyingly so. They say you could lose up to 20 lbs in 30 days. Well, I want to try it. Maybe I could?
I’m putting it on hold from the library, though, and there are 18 people in front of me. Netflix says there’s a long wait. So it looks like I might be hosed.

And I think TOM is coming.

Update 2:48pm:
Oh my gosh. I just did 30 minutes of Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred Level 1. Holy shipyards. I’m still shaky. That was intense and it kicked my butt.

I don’t get this. I stay OP, I exercise, and still I gain .8 lb? What?!
I also gained 1/8 inch back on hips. I just don’t get this. Why is my body so reluctant to get out of the 160’s? I just hope it won’t be so reluctant to get out of the 150’s!
I guess it could be getting close to TOM. Yeah, I just checked. It is getting very close to TOM. Shoulda known, huh?

I also did a measurement on my hips where I made sure the measuring tape was perfectly level in circumfrence around my hips and the measurement was like 44 1/2. *sigh* Maybe I should count that as measurement? But you know, I guess I’m not surprised.

Update 9:53 pm:
I walked for a 52 minutes today, half of that uphill and on rough terrain. I get to put money into my goal clothes bank because I exercised everyday this last week.

Tomorrow is my offical weigh-in. I’m keeping my fingers crossed that the scale is nice to me in the morning. And the measuring tape is kind to me, too.

Woke up almost an hour ago. Couldn’t go back to sleep because Robbie is awake and won’t go back to sleep. Figures, huh?

Scale still says 161 but I lost almost 1/4 inch off my hips. Yay!

Update 11:50 am:
It’s not even noon but it feels like it should be 3 in the afternoon. Bill’s goddaughters are coming over tonight and I think Rob is making waffles and corned beef hash for ‘dinner’. I grew up on waffles, pancakes, spam and hotdogs because we were on foodstamps and my ‘parents’ would only buy that stuff for us kids while they ate steak and other stuff.
So consequently I am not a big waffle fan but Rob loves them and makes them all the stinking frigging time. I may have him make me some corned beef hash and hash browns. I don’t want eggs or waffles. Or maybe I’ll eat cereal.

My scale decided to give up and tell me what I weigh. On my official weigh-in Monday I was 163.8. Today I am 161! Woohoo!
I am really really really hoping I either stay the same or go down even further. Please scale monster? Please?

I had a microwave pizza for lunch like I did yesterday. I still stayed OP, though. So thumbs up for me! I’ll stay OP today, too. I don’t know what I’ll have for dinner as Rob is working today so I may be on my own for that. I think I have soup in the cabinet. I could make soup and a sandwich.

I guess I shouldn’t be under the disillusion that the scale is impartial. I think it sees me coming and wonders how it can ruin my day and then it remembers…I’ll tell her that she’s gained weight! It chuckles excitedly to itself, wondering how much to tell me I’ve gained. It thinks, “If I say 5 pounds she’ll go crazy but probably won’t believe me. If I say .1 it may not be enough. Let’s tell her that she’s gained almost a full pound! Let’s make her think that she’ll never get down past a certain point!”
At the point my toilet and sink gurgle their laughter. My shower drips it’s enthusiasm. My toothbrush nudges the toothpaste and grins.
The naysayer is my sweet, soft, fluffy toiletpaper. “Oh, don’t do that to her. It isn’t very nice.”
“Just shutup!” snarled my scale. “You think you’re her favorite just because she touches you more than once a day. Well, who’s more important?! Huh?! I’m the first thing she touches!”
The toilet chimed in. “Technically, Bob, I’m the first thing she touches, then the TP, then her toothbrush. You’re actually the last thing she steps on before she leaves the bathroom.”

That is why my scale is always in such a bad mood and takes it out on me. He lives on the floor, he’s only useful once or twice a day.

Update 5:18 pm:
Walked 1 1/3 miles this evening. Robbie whined the whole time and I had walked 1/3 mile with him in my arms and pushing the stroller when it started raining. I decided it wasn’t worth it. LOL
I still got 30 minutes of exercise in.

I stepped on the scale this morning…drumroll, please…162.4! That’s a .8 lb loss from yesterday! Woohoo! So far that’s a 16 pound loss.

Old Country Buffet has a soup and salad bar; I have a coupon for $5 so I may use it Friday.

Update 2:09 pm:
Went and walked 3 miles, about 45 minutes.

Update 12:12 am Oct 9:
Yes, I’m still up. Robbie just went to sleep about 20 minutes ago. I’ve drank quite a lot of water today and I’m hoping that that’ll keep me from being bloated.
I tried on my size 12’s yesterday and I suppose I could zip and button them if I wanted to lay down to do so and then have bad muffin-top. Blegh! I’m probably 2-5 pounds away from being able to wear them comfortably. I’m hoping to be below 162 when I weigh in again. I’ll be glad when I get to 159 but will also be worried because I had a tendency to stall when I hit around 156. But the difference is, this time I’m exercising.
I also have on hold some Shape DVDs for abs and one for thighs, butt, and hips. I also have a Denise Austin Pilates DVD on hold. I did the pilates one I got from the library but wasn’t really impressed with it.

are so dang groucy! Sheesh! Rob is just being a jerk this morning. He slept all day yesterday which I understood…he was awake for 29 hours, working for 18 of those. So I let him sleep. When I get up this morning he’s in the office in the recliner with his heating pad on his back (he has constant back and hip pain from a dirtbike accident 7 years ago).
I brought Robbie into the living room to nurse. I went back into the office/nursery and asked Rob for his extra bluetooth so that I would be able to talk on my phone while walking. He woke up and found out and has been grouchy ever since. So grouchy, in fact, that he threw my phone. I couldn’t find it and he had to get up and look for it and threw it again. He then cussed and said for me to leave him the frick alone. I said “oh, I will”.
I’m frankly sick of his attitude. He has SAD (Seasonal Affectiveness Disorder) and it really plays havoc on both of us because he takes it out on me. We were going to move to CA where the area is mostly sunny but he decided to put off the move until around March. So great, we’ll go through another winter of this BS.

Update 3:28 pm:
He didn’t apologize for earlier but he started acting better. I decided to bite the bullet and just let it go. We’re going to Old Country Buffet for dinner and I wish we could now. I’m starving!  I did 30 minutes of Pilates for abs, butt, and thighs. It worked the thighs more than anything else but my butt was all quivery, too, when I got done. Didn’t really feel it in the abs. I have a few more DVD’s on hold from the library for abs workout.

Update 9:09 pm
OCB was good. I had about 20 pts so I was well within boundaries. I still have some points but may save them for another day.