Here it is:  After the third night of laying on the couch just exhusted after work I realized how horrible I felt.  I know that last year when I was eating healthy and exercizing I had lots of energy even after working a full day and going to school.  These 30 lbs. I have packed on has not helped matters either.  Not that I was anywhere near my ideal weight before the 30 lbs.  The waist of my jeans is too tight and my fat pants actually fit now…ug!  I know what I have done to myself eating lots of sweets (usually 3 or more sweet treats a day) and over eating. 

 I am used to the feeling of feeling too full and have now accepted that as the norm.  Well it’s time to stop.  Eating until one is ready to upchuck is just not right!  

For the last few days I have been eating just until I am not hungry anymore.  Surprize, surprize!!  Let me tell you it is really hard to not put as much on your plate when you think,’ that will never fill me up’, but guess what…I have been finding that I am full before I finish.  Now I have to deal with scraping food off my plate and into the trash when I am full.  Boy this is a hard one because even though I am putting less on my plate and I feel myself getting full I think, ‘How can I throw this out when there are just a couple of bites left! 

I am acutally proud of myself that I threw food away yesterday.  I’m not sure if I have ever done this more than twice as long as I can remember. 

More later