It’s not good. I’ve been binge-free for 29 days now, which for me is incredible. BUT I’ve gone over plan for nearly a week! In the past this has been my downfall, and I’m feeling a bit sad. I have to (reluctantly) admit the only thing keeping my sane is the firm - star trekkin. Sad, but the most immature song ever that its helping me not feel impending doom. Arrrrgh.
Back to work on Friday, then College on Monday, but come Sunday morning I’m going running. I always find that most effective in weight loss, so I’m hoping I’ll burn off alot of the extra food I ate this week. (though 8000ckal + is probably really difficult to lose)
Ah well.
Filed under: Uncategorized on August 27th, 2008 | No Comments »
I hate Sundays anyway. But today was my weigh-in day and I’m up two lbs. This HAS to be related to my years-worth of alcohol intake on Thursday, because I’ve ate healthily since and stuck dead on plan.
I think since it usually takes my body about 4 days to adjust if I just stick to plan I should start to go back down soon enough. My only problem is I’m at my fathers house and they literally have no fresh fruit or veg, which I live on. Sorry - they have 3 bananas (I really feel spoilt for choice).
I suppose in a way its good that I’m not tempted to eat anything, but its still annoying. Also my Granddad who has been ill for a few months now passed away this morning, and I didnt get to say goodbye being over 300 miles away. So tomorrow I get to say goodbye to him in my own way. Death doesnt bother me so I’m not too upset, I mostly find the negativity around death and seeing other people upset the most offensive. Once somebody else starts crying, I start too. So I’m hoping I can deal with all that without food.
Filed under: Uncategorized on August 24th, 2008 | 1 Comment »
Where to begin..
The dreaded birthday arrived. I did plan to eat healthily on the day so I could drink in the evening and stay on plan. Well i DID eat healthily and managed to control myself despite blood sugars. By about 10 pm after several vodkas, one two many cocktails & a jug of sex on the beach, I figured my ’staying on plan with alcohol’ didn’t quite stick. Although this morning the scale told me I’d dropped 2 lbs I’m not keeping my hopes up. if I want to see 155 stick I’m going to have to work incredibly hard the next few days. Because last night I EASILY drank my way through 1000ckal+ of alcohol.
I guess the great thing is, despite being intoxicated I didn’t binge or eat which brings me onto day 25 binge-free. Woohoo!
Filed under: alcohol, disasters on August 22nd, 2008 | No Comments »
Okay, so the big 18th B/day is looming ever closer. One day away now and I’m 37 lbs off original
my original birthday goal. Sure I nearly hit target but I also re-gained. This time the lbs are coming 
off so much slower and I really am having to push myself into gear.
My friend wants me to visit Turkey with her next August, so that is awesome inspiration to not only control my diet but to exercise for a nice toned body. And I feel I can make a good difference by then.
So we’re both doing our gym induction tomorrow. I’m slightly scared of what that will actually involve - I’m hoping just a demo of the equipment and nothing personal like weight or measurements. But at least I won’t be alone! I guess the fact I’ll have to pay the last of my wages on that place is also going to motivate me to get the best out of my money.
I also saw this picture of Haliwell. If she can look like this AFTER a baby I’m positive I can do something great with my body.
Filed under: Exercise on August 19th, 2008 | 1 Comment »
Made for my dinner this evening. Although it was very tasty I never seem to get the peppers cooked properly in anything! any suggestions?
and a little photography practise;
Filed under: Food, photos, recipes on July 31st, 2008 | 4 Comments »
I read an old E-mail from a somebody from my past today. Since then I have been breaking down all through the day. I physically feel like I can’t breathe and I just want to cry into somebody. Instead I’m sitting here alone.
I guess on the plus side I’m not crying into a bowl of cereal or stuffing my face. But by God I feel truly awful. 
I know it will go, it always does, but I also know it will return to. Bah, the nusciances of life.
Filed under: Uncategorized on July 29th, 2008 | 1 Comment »
I know nobody else going to bother reading this, but for my own helpful resource I’m posting my diet plan this week.
Tuesday
Breakfast - 1 slice toast with bannana, 1 yoghurt.
Snack(s) - Celery and carrot sticks
Lunch - Sandwich and raisins.
Snack(s) - Boiled egg, nectarine.
Wednesday
Breakfast - Cereal
Snack(s) - 4 small cheese crackers
Lunch - Quorn/Tofu salad
Snack(s) - raspberries
Tea - Tofu Pasta
Filed under: Uncategorized on July 28th, 2008 | No Comments »
So, a new blog because I’ve somehow misplaced my old one ? It’s loitering here somewhere, but a new blog and a new beginning align quite well I think.
I’m practically re starting this whole experience and am 160 lbs. It’s now a question of Mindful eating - I’m going to discipline myself into eating as means of survival when I’m hungry rather than masking my emotions, and I’m going to help myself be expressing my feelings. So I’m digging out my easels and countless paint brushes and pencils and I’m going to do something industrious with my emotions from now on!
I’ve been pretty good since an awful 700 calorie choc binge on Tuesday and actually haven’t been struggling, so hopefully I can keep on the ball.
Peace out.
Filed under: Uncategorized on July 26th, 2008 | 1 Comment »