scale hell
OK I finally got on it Sunday……….and I was up 10lbs. from my lowest. 10lbs!!!!! I’m low, low, low these days. It’s one thing to blithely chat about it “not being a diet; it’s a lifestyle” but the reality of that statement and the “foreverness” of it just sucks. Part of me wants to just give up; honestly, a BIG part of me—-now I have almost 20lbs. to reach goal which I’ve only come within 8lbs. of at my best, and that was OVER a year ago. It’s depressing. I see quite a few other long timers here falling by the wayside and that certainly doesn’t help either. My 30+ lbs. gone is slowly getting chipped away.
I’ve been bruised, sore, and battered for just over a week. Rachel was in season and slammed me into the doorway of her stall when she went ballistic when they ran the other mares out to pasture by her. A. got semi-pinned against the stall wall during this. We both ended up at the dr.–I wanted to make sure she didn’t have a cracked sternum or ribs and wanted to get my huge bruises checked since I take daily ASA. I repeat, “I AM NOT A HORSE PERSON”. In Rachel’s defense, since she’s “lead mare” the stable people should have known not to run them by her like that; it was pretty dangerous to both A. and me. We have LOUDLY made our position clear on this. Hopefully there will be only one more week of icing her lower legs and the farrier can fit her for special horse shoes. I told her owner that we can’t make it 3 days this week and it’s his job to do those days. If she’s not in season, it’s not been too bad.
I have made it to the gym—tm is ok but I can’t do all the exercises (especially those involving my right arm and shoulder which took the brunt of Rachel) so I just do what I can. Will try for a half hour on the bike in the garage today.
Other than that, been quite busy with things at A.’s h.s. Worked a big race in pouring rain last week-end; an 8K.
See ya, chickadees.
September 30th, 2008 at 3:40 pm
Good for you getting to the gym, I think I would have used the “too bruised up” excuse and then gone home. What a great mom you are enduring that horse just for A!
Chin up about the 10lbs, you’ve lost weight before you can do it again. Better to gain and loose the same weight than just keep going up and up right? Have a great week
October 1st, 2008 at 1:29 am
Wow, messed up by a giant horse and still goes to the gym to work out. Honestly Ms. soclose where do you get it from? and will you please fedex some out to me IMMEDIATELY!
Sorry about that with poor horsie… thank goodness you both are alright. I am down with your thoughts on the weightloss thing. Last year I was down 40 pounds. Now I’m barely keeping the last 10 off.
It’s ridiculous and can be very depressing. But you are doing the right thing by working it out consistently - i don’t have that in my life and I think it’s not good for me. Gotta get back to it.
Oh yeah, that dating website ‘the right stuff’ I don’t do anymore but that’s how I got a hit from the dentist - so i guess they just leave your picture on there. No speed dating for me… don’t have the balls for it anymore…. so tired of disappointments.
xoxoxoxo
October 1st, 2008 at 2:54 am
I think you should get some sort of special blessing from the patron saint of horses for all the work you are doing with Rachel, and all you seem to get from it is bruises. I am also very much NOT a horse person and I think I’d have gone “yeah, it’s got that lamination thing, better send it off to the dog food factory”. Heartless, aren’t I?
I’m disappointed for you to see that the weight isn’t going the way it should. Frustrating! You are doing such great work. I know it will all come true.
October 3rd, 2008 at 12:11 pm
Don’t ever forget who you are. You are “Soooo Close!” I know it must be depressing to see those pounds slowly piling on but you’re right on track to catch it now and address it before it gets totally out of control. It really sucks that we have the genetics, metabolism, mind-set, or whatever the Hell it is that makes us have to be constantly on guard and it’s because you’re so dedicated that you remain “Soooo Close”. Stay on it!
(((Hugs!)))
October 4th, 2008 at 11:23 am
Okay, the horse thing is starting to scare me. Please be careful…I know you are, of course, but it sounds pretty intimidating you and A in the stall with that huge & hugely sad, I suspect, animal. Poor Rachel. I hope her owner steps up to the plate this week for a change.
So of course I want you to be here forever (very selfish), but every time I come to your site to catch up, I’m reminded that you’re a short-timer here. It might not seem like it to you, but that goal of yours really is within your reach. It is still so close! Geez! Look at all you accomplish in a week. Half the time I leave your site exhausted just from reading about all that you pack into the same 7 days I have…although, in all fairness, I think your days must have many, many more hours than mine. You can do this!
Okay girl, none of us wants to yo-you our way through life, so tell us what you’ve learned about losing those last pounds & about maintaining. What’s next? What’s the hardest thing about it that makes the “foreverness” suck so much? I hope to be soclose one day myself, so I’m hoping you can tell what it’s like to be there. If the path were clearly marked, I think we’d all be at goal and happily & easily maintaining. But it isn’t, so we need some pioneering souls to help us find the way & you know the terrain.
So, it’s back in the saddle for you…& when you’ve gotten to goal, we’ll all know better how to get there.