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Thank-you all for your kind words, suggestions, and support yesterday when I was so terribly down.  Yes, that was past tense.  This am was still rocky but now (early evening) getting back to normal.  I didn’t go to the gym today; took the day off–and slept again after getting A. to the bus. 

Saw my gyn for pap today; the man (who delivered A., so you all know I’ve known him a long time) is cautiously pleased with me .  That helped lift my spirits.  I didn’t point out to him that I still weigh more than I did at 9 months pregnant.  Quit while you’re ahead. He did say not to dare give up on the exercise and wasn’t as pleased as I thought he would be with the cholesterol results;  apparently normal isn’t good enough; it’s TOO CLOSE to the upper limits of normal to suit him……pshaw!!!!!  Well, it’s good enough for me.  Had my blood drawn for the ca-125 and sched. the trans-vag ultrasound—yearly follow up stuff because mom took DES trying to get pg.  So I’ll be going back in a few weeks. 

Went to T. J. Maxx after appt. and before picking up A.; all the jeans left my butt hanging out and every dress I tried on had my boobs exploding like popcorn out the top—no thanks.  Seemed terribly low cut, maybe it was the bra I had on.   Did find a nice warm way, way marked down jacket for A., bought that.  A miracle—she likes it!!!!

Food:  bfsk: peach yogurt, walnuts, turkey, decaf tea w/skim…….lunch: 1/2 can tomato soup w/ skim, 1 hotdog (almost f.f.), 1piece whole wheat white bread, mustard……….dinner: end of the turkey shepherds pie, vanilla yogurt w/blueberries………….have a cantaloupe I may cut yet tonight

See ya’ll, chickadees!  G’nite!

Been totally off kilter all day–strange dreams last night, maybe, sometimes they stay all day, kind of leave behind an emotional residue that colors the next day.  Bruised, raw.   Anyway, I’ve been restless, unsettled, vaguely unhappy,  verging on weepy.   A. made the soccer team and it just felt like I was totally faking the happy thing; all I could think was ANOTHER thing to fit in, to drive to.  It looks like a lot of the games are out of town; good God, we have 11 high schools in the city and they have to go OUT OF TOWN????  Just not a happy camper today.  Restless—the maid and chauffeur hats are feeling a bit tight today.  Generally, I’m happy doing just the mom thing—this is what I wanted, to give her what I didn’t have and would have scaled back to living in a tent if that’s what it took .  Plus, with this soccer team, I doubt if we’ll have time to volunteer at the theraputic riding stable when they start up again in a few weeks.

Gym: stretch and exercise mat, 2.55 mi., ladies lite aerobics.

Food: OK except for the many handfuls of M&M’s which I totally deserved.

Sweet dreams, chickadees—for all of us.

Guess it’s the rain and cold moving in or being awake and up before 5:30.  Quick note.

Gym: stretch and exercise, 2.55 mi. on tm, 6 min rowing.

Food: bfsk: Grapenuts Flakes w/skim, decaf tea w/skim………….snack: hard boiled egg, about 1/3 of a delicious mango………….main meal: haddock, brussels sprouts, sweet pot., salad w/ baby greens, tomatoes, cucumber, green olives, strips of red pepper and balsamic vinegar dsg……………will add later…..snack: a few almonds……..dinner: 6 bites of a thin crust cheese pizza, the rest of the salad I couldn’t finish for lunch, a bit more mango

I did end up taking a nap for about 1 1/2 hrs.—can’t make it through the day on less than 5 hrs. sleep, bad night again last night.  We are going to have very cold temps. again the next 2 days.  I hate it, I want spring to stay instead of these occ. teaser days!  I was really suited to the climate in Charleston, S.C.—I think I was happier living there climate-wise than anywhere else.  Would go back in a heartbeat.  Can’t believe I made it through all those endless winters in Mi.; and worked nights, too……really wouldn’t see the sun at all for days and days.  No wonder I live for the sunny ones now.

G’nite, chickadees!

while I strangle my dh.  I came home yesterday to find MORE  cookies on the kitchen counter.  The little hooligans were selling them in front of Farm Fresh and he got sucked right in.

The week-end was pretty uneventful.  A. went to her usual Sat. am lecture.  Then I watched her play soccer for hours; team try-outs this week.  A family friend gave her a late Valentine’s gift $15.00 which was immediately spent on a bottle of something for Gracie’s fur; do horses have fur, or is it hair???  Well, maybe a coat.  Anyway, something to make it shiny.

Sunday we went to the barn.  The owner has a new Appoloosa, a 4yr.old, just cut stallion—still has to be kept separate till the testosterone is all out of his system.  She was working him a bit when we arrived in the round pen, absolutely beautiful animal.  Gracie’s owner has been out at sea so she was a bit rough to work with at first–did a quick groom and took her to the round pen where we put the bareback pad on her and A. hopped on–not too bad: trotted but refused to cantor this week, bucked once, A. stayed on.  Then she lunged (?) her a bit and finally we took her back and gave her a real good grooming before turning her out again.  It’s so muddy the grooming won’t last long, it’s mainly to keep her used to the handling.  During the first grooming she had some snotty moments, was tired and behaved much better for the second.  I’m getting better with all this, but I don’t think I’ll ever be a horse person or be truly comfortable around horses.

Reading Nicholas Sparks’  “The Notebook” and Alan Alda–”Things I Overheard While Talking To Myself”.  Both good.

Gym today:  Stretch and exercise mat, weight machines, 3.15 mi. on tm., 16 min. on rower.

Food: Grapenuts Flakes w/skim, decaf tea……..snack: vanilla yogurt, turkey…….. lunch: turkey shephards pie and a big salad, 3 peanut butter cookies………….will update later  dinner: V8, 3 slices deli turkey, microwaved slice of Alpine Lace broken up to use as dippers for Newmans Salsa, 1/2 pear…………snack 1/2 pkt. Instant Bfsk. in about 4 oz. f.f. milk

G’nite, chickadees!

Well after being sooooooooo proud of myself, I caved and ate and ate and ate the awful things—thin mints and peanut butter.  You know, when the little girl came to the door weeks ago, I KNEW that ordering cookies wasn’t the way to go, but I remembered trying to sell those blasted things myself way back when and felt sorry for her.  It was very cold and her order form was almost empty.  Well, I guess this falls under the heading of: No good deed goes unpunished!!!  I’ll be on that stupid tm. for YEARS trying to work these cookies off.

Anyway, we had rain all day.  I went out late yesterday afternoon and cut a big bunch of daffys and put them where I can see them from almost everywhere.  Very cheerful!!!

Food has not been bad except for the cookies which will soon be gone.

Gym today.  Stretch and exercise mat, weight machines—went easy on the arm ones as I have a huge bruise on my upper right arm, no idea how sustained, 1.77 mi. on the tm, ladies lite aerobics.

Got a print out of my cholesterol test from Tues.  Last time I had one I was just a few points over 200, that was about a year and a half ago and before I did any exercise.  Now it’s 192, so that’s better.  Triglycerides: 71.  HDL: 52  LDL: 126  Guess  exercise does do some good.

My daughter is thrilled because the bareback pad she ordered came yesterday. It even has stirrups.  The only saddle she had to use for Gracie was a big old roping saddle which she hated; it is so heavy she has to get up on the mounting block to be able to lift it high enough to get it on the horse (and Gracie isn’t a big horse).  Sunday might be real interesting if Gracie doesn’t like the new thing.  Wonder if she’ll move this week or decline to budge.

Step away from the girl scout cookies, chickadees!

Got the windshield taken care of today; went with the Triple A glass people; had just renewed my AAA membership so called them for a quote.  Turns out theirs was so good because they gave me a quote for a smaller model by same maker, so I got a bit of a bargain.  He even managed to transfer my inspection sticker to the new one.  Took a good look at the tire, seems to be still staying up OK this time, leak must be very, very tiny—or else some neighborhood kid was up to no good.

Sunny here!!!!!  But only in the 40’s.  Tomorrow we’re not supposed to get out of the low 30’s which is exceptionally cold.  A. has a concert tomorrow night (she’s practicing now, beautiful violin) and already I’m not looking forward to the cold.

Just finished a book: Bless Me, Father.  About a young boy forced to be a fighter who’s father is mobbed up, not my usual but Ok.

Gym today: stretch and exercise mat, weight machines, 2.90mi. on tm, 10:00 rowing, ladies lite aerobics

Food: grapenuts Flakes w/ skim, decaf tea w/skim……….lunch: 2 Hebrew National almost f.f. hot dogs, 2 pieces whole wheat, mustard, broccoli…..snacks: 1/2 pkt. Instant Bfsk in skim, couple handfuls of peanuts, bit of cantaloupe……will add rest of food later…dinner: 1/2 can tomato soup w/skim, 4 slices thin sliced deli turkey, blackberry yogurt………….THEN my Girl Scout cookies came—such torture!!!!!  had 2, yes, only 2 Thin Mints—I’ve come a LONG way baby; any other year it would have been the whole sleeve (at least!!!)

Later, chickadees!

My mood is not great; have a bit of a headache but other than that no real reason.  We did have mostly sun today and I did sit out a bit; didn’t get to even 50 though.  No gym.

Didn’t sleep well at all last night—tossed and turned with my mind going a million miles an hour for what seemed an endless amt. of time.  Usually this sort of thing goes in cycles, hope it doesn’t continue.  Of course I ended up taking a nap today, setting myself up for another bad night probably.

Got some blood drawn for a cholesterol level; a woman stopped by the exercise class last week and signed us up–all we had to do was fast and show up.  Ate late because of the test;  bfsk: blackberry yogurt, 1/2 Wasa cracker……….lunch: hamburger stew, 2 pieces acorn squash, 2 pieces white wheat bread…..later:  few almonds and 2 handfuls of dry roast peanuts, Mc Donalds hot fudge sundae

Off track in a big way, major cranky, head hurts….off to find the aspirin, chickadees

Food: grapenuts flakes w/ skim, o.j., decaf tea w/ skim………..lunch @ Olive Garden: 3 stuffed mushrooms, 1/2 the soup-ministrone, salad, small piece birthday cake……….later: some candied pecans in the mall….tonight 3 pieces organic dark chocolate……Not a great day food-wise!!!!!!!

Gym: 13 min rower, 1.30 mi tm. W/ incline

Major rain last night, cloudy all day—just yuck.

Hoping for sun tomorrow, chickadees!!!  G’nite.

Yesterday started out with a speeding ticket while taking A. to her  lecture.  41 in a 25.  I have been guilty SOOOOO many times of speeding, I couldn’t even get mad or too upset, figure it just caught up to me; and the cop was nice, not mean or sarcastic or anything.  But, I did say the F-word when I pulled over; at first I thought maybe I just thought it, but no, I said it, as A. let me know, rather much to her delight.  I made a HUGE effort to clean up my language after she was born because I hate to hear little kids cuss and really couldn’t imagine those words coming out her mouth.  I’ve done very well.  I know she goes to public school and hears it all the time (maybe says it) but I’ve made it very clear that she won’t cuss where I can hear—she’s tried the f-word twice in front of me and lost her allowance for the rest of the month for it both times.  AARRRRGGG!!!!  I could just kick myself.

Anyway, we made it to the outlets, which were impossibly crowded. Bought A. some things, that’s all.

Food yesterday was Ok, usual bfsk, 6″ Subway sub for lunch, salad, hush puppies, and blackened tuna at a favorite place on the way home.

Yes, I will get the windshield taken care of (kept wondering if the cop was going to mention it) and the tire checked out…..there’s just never any time.  The crack is getting bigger and now it’s across my line of sight so it has to go.

I have 4 daffys open now.  In about a week I’ll be able to cut and bring in a big bunch.  I love to see them on the table, so cheerful.

Later:  Food today was less than good, maybe delayed reaction to the ticket????  Anyway, I started the day with a big handful of cashews and 6 dark chocolate Hershey kisses—not quite my usual bfsk!!!!!  A bit later I did have Grapenuts Flakes w/skim and V8,    in a few hrs. dh got up and made a huge stuffed omlet which I had a piece of……..since then it’s been mostly squares (about 6) of organic dark chocolate and about half an hour ago a few mandrin orange slices and a small f.f. vanilla yogurt.  Can’t remember a day with worse food choices—chocolate, chocolate, chocolate–my belly is actually kind of unsettled and unhappy, no surprise.  G’nite!

Have a good day, chickadees.

Felt the best I’ve felt all week.  Gym: stretch and exercise mat, weight machines–increased calf press to  150 lbs., triceps press to 110, and compound row to 100—felt good, tm-2.6 mi., ladies lite aerobics.

Food:  bfsk: grapenuts flakes w/skim, oj, decaf tea w/skim……..snack: small piece of cheesecake from dh’s birthday…….late lunch: turkey, mixed greens salad w/balsamic vinegar dsg., 1/2 small baked pot. w/about 1 T. f.f. sour cream, baked acorn squash–drizzled w/olive oil, sprinkled w/ oregano, basil, and garlic………snack: shared last piece cheesecake w/ dau………..also had a couple handfuls of cashews–dh got some lovely large ones for his b-day…..I think I’m about done eating for the day

Had a nasty surprise today; our heat pump was covered with ice, really strange since the temp was near 60.  Turned the system off and got all the ice off it, seems OK now, per dh.  Hmmmmmm, not a good sign, methinks.  Well, it’s the one came with the house so it’s probably wore out–we moved here in the late 80’s, I think.  This could be really expensive.  Then he also tells me today that he doesn’t think his work car will last much longer, well, it’s an 86 Olds—-but then WHY did he just put over 1,400 into it a few months ago???????  I didn’t think that fixing it was a good idea at the time; of course I didn’t know the total until after the work was done.  MEN!!!!  And I’m driving around with a cracked windshield and telling A. that I don’t really “have” to get it fixed till the inspection is due—for some reason she’s scared to death that it’s going to collapse in on us and driving me nuts about getting it replaced.  And I seem to have a leak in one of the back tires, just keep filling it up every now and then.  Really should get that fixed.

Tomorrow we’re supposed to go to the outlets we didn’t make it to last Sat.  Will try again after her lecture tomorrow.

G’nite chickadees!  Have a good week-end!