better
Like the moon, we wax and wane, but emotionally. By the 2nd to 3rd week of Dec. I hit a seemingly bottomless pit of deep sadness and have my worst days of the year, then gradually improve; it’s like clockwork, something to just get through. I ignore it and avoid admitting what is going on until it just overwhelms me. I want to thank everyone for the love and support and sharing bits of their own December stories. It is comforting to have others care enough to take time to write a few words when you are hurting and I am very grateful to each of you. I think I’ve regained slightly more even emotional footing now, at least I hope so.
Cards and packages have been mailed, a relief. Rather than try to get a little giftie for each teacher and coach, a small donation was made in their honor to the disabled children’s horse therapy stable. I have memories of when I’d have things mailed by the week-end after Thanksgiving, every year I swear I’m going back to that and never make it!
I did go to the gym this am; did an extremely light work-out and about 20 min. on the treadmill, then did ladies lite aerobics. Went to a local place for lunch with my husband for my birthday….I had meatloaf, of all things, comfort food, I suppose, brought most of it home.
Tomorrow morning I’m going to a political party breakfast; my daughter needs political action hrs. for her AP government class and doesn’t want to go alone. This is REALLY not my thing; she’s gonna owe me big time. At $10.00 each, the food better be decent; hoping for short speeches, too. ugh!!!
Other than the breakfast, no plans right now for the week-end and that feels good. Nite, chickadees!
December 22nd, 2007 at 12:33 am
Sorry this time of year is so hard for you. Remember we are all here anytime. (((HUGS)))
December 22nd, 2007 at 10:14 am
This time of year is not easy for a lot of people. For me the “happy on demand” aspect grates on me. And I truly detest the conspicuous consumption mode of the modern holiday period.
Hang in there, it’s almost over. I hope you do find some enjoyment in the time w your family.
December 22nd, 2007 at 7:05 pm
Yup. This is probably one of the hardest months for most folks. Me included. Let’s just all hold hands and keep walking on through….
Warm hugs,
Z
December 23rd, 2007 at 11:24 pm
Hey, I grew up in politics. Sometimes those events are not too bad. Granted they are easier to stomach (ok a pun) if you are part of what is going on so you can follow it better. Growing up in politics in the height of the women’s movement really did teach me a lot. I wish our curriculum made students be a tad more active. Remember, Hitler won by one vote!
Glad you are feeling better. I have noticed I have a lot more depression this year than I have ever had before. When it strikes I find working out can help. Taking a hydroxycut pill can help (they are supposed to help weight loss. They have never done that for me, but they must have an upper in them!), and finally, I have found a pre-menapausal thing I have started taking which I find is really helping me. Not sure if you are that far along, but it never hurts to have suggestions. Of course, strangling my students is always a great stress reliever. I assure them that if their parents sign the consent form…..
Cheers
Shari