Someone brought one of my favorite binge foods home…. Goldfish crackers… AAAAGGGGGHHHH! I’ve already had probably two servings… but they are sitting there calling my name, begging me to come and eat them…

I guess I have to explain about my living situation a bit. My room mate cooks… she LOVES to cook… where as I don’t really like cooking. Probably part of the reason I’m here now… To much fast food.

So tonight she makes Macaroni & Cheese and fish sticks for dinner. So rather than make a bit scene I thought well, I’ll just eat the fish sticks… So I was reading the label on the package… six sticks that were about the size of my finger were 220 calories, and 110 of those were from fat… WTF?! So I decided I’d just cook up my chicken breast and veggies but I wanted to go get some olive oil since were out. So I ask my hubby if he wants to go to the store and he says sure. So we jump in the car and instead he takes me out to eat!

I was good I had salmon with extra veggies! Then I came home and cooked my chicken breast.

Where am I at? Day 5 for no soda and Day 4 being clean on my eating…

So I’ve been working really hard, and I have noticed a difference in my puffy cheeks, they aren’t so puffy. No one else has said anything but my hubby. SOOOO yesterday I went to my personal trainer, and while I was on the leg press, he said, “I wouldn’t say anything normaly, but I see a difference in your face.” Granted I know I pay this guy, but I feel a difference so I am taking it as a compliment! I’m so excited! I’ve even dropped a couple pounds!

Yay! I made it through Gaming day without bingeing or eating the wrong foods or drinking soda! The soda was a challenge, but I made it! Yay GO ME! 

I lost a battle with the other side yesterday. I have to confess I was bad… I didn’t have the right foods available to me, but I kept my portions of the “bad” food down so I really didn’t eat that much of it. Though for dessert I had two sugar cookies, one coconut I don’t know what it was, and a piece of birthday cake. I justified it by saying, I’ve been good for 17 days, what’s the point of life if I can’t do ANYTHING fun? Bad part was… the cake? was not that fun! I felt like I ate a brick, it just sort of sat heavy in my stomach and I kind of felt like throwing up. Funny, I would have probably had two pieces of cake before I decided to diet. So the trick today is for me to get back on “plan.”

 Today was going to be more of the same, but I put my foot down and went to the store and bought “approved” foods, today and tomorrow won’t be off plan. I’ll win these up coming battles.

Day 17? Ugh as I’m sure you can tell by now I can’t count! I think I am on Day 17 of being clean (eating healthy & NO bingeing). I haven’t had a soda in two days, though last night was a challenge! I wanted a soda bad, but I didn’t have one… actually I worked out and stayed up a little and then went to bed.

 You know it is kind of interesting, I am the most healthy person in the house with the exception of the teenager. Even my personal trainer was kind of amazed that I am as healthy as I am. I told him, “yeah, my only problem is I’m fat!” We aren’t sure what is wrong with my husband, he seems to have a chronic fatigue disease and high blood pressure and my room mate is diabetic. My mom is that way too, she is really pretty healthy for a 73 year old woman. She drinks and smokes too! (I don’t smoke, but I like the occasional drink… not to be for awhile I’m sure).

 I am a bit concerned about being too sedentary, and I know I am. I work in a Call Center… and after a while you end up with the call center physique…. kind of portly and non descript! Maybe I should get a new job that is more physical? Anyway, I’ve been trying to figure out how I can fit more activity into my life, and I’m not sure how! The 55 minutes a night is bad enough on one of my busy nights. Unfortunately I can only visit my personal trainer once a week… I can’t afford more, so that is the best I can do right now. My husband is an insomniac so morning exorcise is kind of out of the question.

Don’t get me wrong I am committed to becoming more healthy and losing the weight, I’m just not sure where I’m going to fit everything in!

Maybe this is why all the thin people I know have the weirdest eating habits… They don’t eat for two days, and then when the do eat it’s three bites of something and then they complain of having an upset stomach.

So tonight the meal that was prepared was… Pasta! Gods I feel almost as if someone is trying to sabotage me! I was good and didn’t have the pasta *sigh*

So I have decided that I want to give up diet soda… the studies I have read and personal experience have taught me that it keeps the weight on so today is Day One on giving up diet soda. So I’ll see how that goes, I’ve given up soda before and it was interesting. When I drank soda again it was gross… I don’t know why I continued to drink it… So here we go again…

Yes, I have made it 14 days! I’m so happy.

 I almost lost it tonight, after going to my training session I had a protein shake, and when I came home I wasn’t hungry. However dinner was prepared, and it was rice! ACK I can’t eat rice… esp not pre packaged stuff. So my husband was getting kind of pissy that I didn’t want to eat (It was late too, I don’t like to eat after 7:00pm). I almost caved in but I managed to stay strong, and not partiake of the rice dish.

 I do feel like I have stalled out :(  I kep telling myself if I keep being good that I’ll start losing weight again, I just have to stick with it.

So I was over in 3fc and someone posted an article about having to work out more to sustain weight loss. The person who posted it also stated that she probably did 90 minutes a day instead of the recommended 55. I feel as if there is no hope bust my ass to get there and then I have to keep busting my ass… I thought it was supose to be easier after I got all the weight off.

 ”Study: More Exercise Needed To Keep Weight Off

PITTSBURGH (KDKA) ― A new study out of the University of Pittsburgh may shake up long-held standards about how much exercise patients need to lose weight and keep it off.

The study, published in the Archives of Internal Medicine, says the level of physical activity needed sustain weight loss is actually almost twice as much as the traditional public health recommendation. Those standards have said that 30 minutes of exercise five times a week is enough. The new study, headed up by UPMC’s Dr. John Jakicic, found 275 minutes of moderate exercise a week is necessary to keep weight off long term. That translates to 55 minutes of exercise per day, five days a week.

Jakicic says the study, which followed nearly 200 women over two years, found that patients don’t have to overdo it to maintain a healthy weight after weight loss. Moderate exercise, like brisk walking, was enough to keep the pounds off. “The advantage of more vigorous is that you can go a shorter time to get the calorie burn but if you don’t like vigorous activity and have the time to do it moderate is fine,” said Jakicic.

Among the study’s other findings: women who had more contact with the study support staff lost more weight and kept it off, leading to the authors to conclude that support systems may be important in helping women maintain weight loss. Despite the intervention, only a quarter of the women in the study were able to maintain a 10 percent or more weight loss after two years, highlighting the difficulty of sustaining a diet and exercise program long-term.”

http://kdka.com/local/weight.loss.study.2.782116.html

Well, I know I posted yesterday about my fear of today… I think I did well on the eating even though I started running at 6:30 am and here it is 12:10 am. I still have a ton of stuff to put away…

 I thought hubby went to bed and then he decided that he wanted to go for ice cream and that I had to come with him! I told him I didn’t want ice cream, and he says that it won’t hurt me. So I caved in and I went with him, I was thinking on the way how can I possibly get out of having to eat a whole ice cream cone? I figure it will make me sick now anyway. Sooo luck was with me and McDonald’s had already broken down the ice cream machine. So I dodged that bullet!

We ended up going to Walgreens and I was able to get an approved snack and he had ice cream! YAY! Still clean… well sort of I did a shot of Scotch tonight… just about hammered me to the floor!