Days with out Soda: 17

Day’s clean: 0 (I had cookies yesterday)

I couldn’t take it anymore I HAD to have something sweet… I wanted chocolate, but I thought that might start a binge, so I settled for Short Bread cookies, one of my favorite things in the world! Though not really a binge food for me. It is my TOM and I am feeling a bit out of control.

Oddly I think I have discovered that crackers, chocolate, soda and frappiccino’s are triggers for me.

Some troll went on the 3FC boards and started posting stuff like, “why should I bother to go on a diet because 98% fail.” Stuff like that, oddly (seems like my word for today) this kind of took some of the wind out of my sails. It’s hard some days knowing that the deck is stacked against you. Though as my journal suggests, I’m giving no ground. I refuse to give up, and I won’t quit. Some one on 3FC has a tag line on their signature that reads, “Being fat is hard, weight loss is hard, maintenance is hard. Pick your hard.”

So that kind of gets me to thinking why would 98% fail? Why is that rate so high? So I punched that into Google, and I found something interesting. Apparently that number is from an obesity study that was done in the 1950’s. Though the fact still remains that most people fail. So I am still left with why? My theory? People go “on” diets and “off” diets. They don’t view it as a lifestyle change.

I view it like an addiction, I think the programs for weight loss should be the same, this is why I like the term “clean” instead of “on plan”. There should be an AA for dieters, I know that support I have received from 3FC has helped me out. I know I’m weird, but that is how I see it. It’s best never to become fat than to have to lose the weight. Fact is that it seems to creep up on you and then you wake up one morning and say WTF? Who is this fat person?

The other thing I have learned over the week, well I kind of knew. I know about how models photos were manipulated to sell products. However I never figured out with all the manipulation that they were air brushing the ribs of the models out of the picture and smoothing the lines. That’s just plain gross. I should have figured that one out, but I didn’t realize it.