This is Day 11… “clean” I think I forgot how to count so I am a few days ahead of where I thought I was. So I was bad I had to step on the scale this morning, my fast trip down has now stopped. I was hoping to get five more pounds out of it, but I guess that is not to be. Now the grinding begins, makes me think of World of Warcraft… just killing little monsters to slowly get your next level… Maybe I’ll think of it that way!

I was good yesterday, I thought I was VERY good. Today is probably going to be a little harder I have to drive around alot, and then I have to go to a potluck later. I’ll be bringing food, so that should be okay…. I’m concerned that I won’t be able to stay on my eating schedule.

Great fuzzy Interwebs does anyone else develop a fear or dislike of going out to eat? When I wasn’t dieting I didn’t care.. Now, I don’t want to go out if I feel food will be present. I feel like it is pointless since I won’t be able to eat anything or worse it’ll start a binge. Then my husband will say something like, “it’s okay to have this just once.” I don’t think he has a clue about bingeing… Eh he would say it’s a behavioral issue and I just should get control. He has the will of a god, and can’t understand why I have problems.