It’s annoying waiting for the staff at the uni to finish with their paperwork and get back to me…it’s like my whole life is on hold. I’m having some fun doing hikes in this area though, so that’s something. It still feels like life’s going nowhere at this point, hate that feeling.
I met a guy online who I thought was great, it wasn’t meant to be a long term thing since I was to move soon but I thought we’d see how it went. We met once…and then once more because I left something I bought with him by mistake. I initiated both visits and although the first one went very nice and he asked me if I would like to see him again, he never really brought up meeting again(we talk online). I met him briefly to get my stuff back a few weeks later and altho he was pleasant, no interest in meeting again. I have a feeling it would have gone differently if I’d have been skinny, so that’s not helping the depression. Mind you, he’s quite a big guy himself. 
Posted on July 2nd, 2008 by Ann
Filed under: General
awww babes - I’m so sorry to have missed your blog these past few days - I didn’t know you were going through this shit.
Sorry about that loser not recognizing a good thing when he saw it - shit - there are tons of THOSE losers out there - but hon - one day both of our dudes will show up and we’ll be talking about how awesome it is to be with someone who totally appreciates us! Did you write all the qualities you want down on a paper - from physical to emotional and mental. I read about it somewhere and they say it really helps - I posted mine on the fridge - it’s like 2 pages long! Why not? It’s my man wish list!
I read that one day that dude that the chick wrote about showed up and it was happily ever after.
I guess you can put it under ‘positive thinking’ - but hell it’s all good.
Girlie - read some shit on Oprah’s thing about healing a broken heart if you don’t have anything else to check out. Hopefully you’re not too sad over it - especially with this stress over the admissions stuff. I’m sending you lots of love, hugs and admissions ‘lube’ so that it’ll all be done and over with immediately ok?!
xoxoxoxxoxoxo
keep your chin up homegirl - you are a beautiful, SMART and wonderful human being and you deserve the absolute best. It wasn’t your weight girlfriend - he’s just not the right dude - thank goodness he weeded himself out now instead of after you all got super serious.
You take extra good care of yourself otay?!
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You ok hon? How are you doing?
kisses sweetie….
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Checkin in Ann
I hope you’re doing ok? Just wanted to know that I’m sending you love - xoxoxoxoxoxoxo
I had many many problems with one of my universities. I did eventually drop that programme, mind. My words of advice are “If you can understand the calendar you can pass the school”. As for the guy, there are many many losers on the net. I thought I dated every online guy in TO before I met my husband- and we were merely friends for several years before it blossomed.
I got a plaque for my wedding that states “You are never too old to live happily ever after”
You will find him, but it is in God’s time. (and i am not a religious person!)
Shari
I agree w what Shari said - the right guy is out there somewhere. Don’t forget you have to kiss a lot of frogs to find that prince, it’s a rule. So you should be happy you found one of the “not the one” people so you can have a better chance of finding someone else. The year i’d met my husband I’d decided to play something of the “numbers” game and told myself I had to meet (face to face, not just online stuff) at least 20 people and go out at least twice with 10 of them in order to feel like I’d really made an effort. I went on some second dates that I never would have considered, and accepted to meet (for a drink, a coffee) a whole slew of people. Most were duds. One or two were even creepy. I had a couple of A-holes who said (or obviously without saying anything) had a problem w my weight. And i met the man who was to become my husband. I’m not sure the numbers approach was the only thing, but I do know that it forced me to get outside of my comfort zone. I was also honest about my weight on my profile (although I picked only pics where I looked really good) because I figured if my weight was a deal-breaker for someone I didn’t want to meet them face to face to find that out…. Ok, maybe I shaved off 10 pounds
but still, those wanting ’skinny” or “athletic” knew not to bother…
How are you Ann? I just wanted to send you some love - xoxooxoxoxoxoxxo
thinking of you hon!
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