on the road to being 40

day 4 on phase 1

Posted she4you1970 on January 4th, 2009 | Filed under journaling | Comment now »

well it is going surprisingly well. i have lost weight though i’m not telling the exact number til the end of 2 weeks. yesterday, i had my family christmas party and it went pretty good for having a potluck style meal. i was able to eat ham, fresh veggies, deviled egg and a venision wrap that my brother in-law made (it was so yummy). now i need to work on getting more exercise in. i’m slacking on my c25k but will get it in today along with my push-up challenge i am doing.

day one

Posted she4you1970 on January 1st, 2009 | Filed under Uncategorized | Comment now »

well yesterday was not a good day leading up to day one but i survived.

found out they are repoing my car at noon today, i knew it was coming but for them to call me on new years eve and want it immediately…i put them off til noon today so i could go grocery shopping for my diet but i still cried alot. as if being out of work since may isn’t hard enough, take my only transportation when i live 20 minutes from the nearest town. that makes getting a job a bit harder. anyways, my parents have a lincoln they don’t use so they are letting me use it until i can get something else. ok enough ranting, its to depressing anyways.

today one is off to a good start, i was really hesitant to eat anything but finally just ate…probably waited to long and got to hungry but drinking water helps to. not sure when i will be exercising as the treadmill is in the spare bedroom which is currently occupied so i’ll have to wait.

another day closer

Posted she4you1970 on December 29th, 2008 | Filed under journaling | Comment now »

seems like the last couple days everything has gone crazy….i broke up with my bf who is on medication for depression and he left and went to the hospital cause he couldn’t deal with it. well we talked and he is staying in the spare room which i offered anyways until he can get his own place.

for a while i didn’t think i’d be able to start my diet on the first but with him deciding to stay it changes the finances…we have only gone out a short time and he had been staying here before that. i just realized we make better freinds and i am having lots of trouble dealing with his depression especially since he really doesn’t have it under control at all.

shopping list

Posted she4you1970 on December 27th, 2008 | Filed under planning | Comment now »

today i am working on trying to figure out what to buy for the first week or two on this plan…i don’t want to mess up and buy the wrong stuff. anyways, if i don’t make a list i will probably mess up. so that being said i am combing the internet for ideas and suggestions for meals the first week.

on a side note i am dealing with my bf who is depressed and not really knowing how to deal with it.

gym

Posted she4you1970 on December 26th, 2008 | Filed under planning | Comment now »

i am lucky enough to have a gym membership for over a year now…its 30.00 a month and i can go at any hour (i have a key card to let myself in) unfortunately it is a 45 minute drive and my bf is always with me and it would cost extra for him to go. however, i plan on making it a priority to hit the gym atleast once a week this year, it was so much easier when i was working and would go to the gym before work. anyways its only 5.00 each time i take him so for 20.00 a month we can both go. i am only going for the weights i have a really good treadmill but even that i rarely use…thats about to change as well.

christmas day

Posted she4you1970 on December 25th, 2008 | Filed under journaling | Comment now »

yeah its christmas but it doesn’t feel like it around here. This is the first christmas since my seperation so my 10 year old is going to her dads in a half hour we ate christmas dinner and opened presents yesterday, so today seems to be just another lazy day to me, a day to think about what i want to accomplish and how i want to do it.

prologue to day 1

Posted she4you1970 on December 24th, 2008 | Filed under planning | 2 Comments »

well it all has to start somewhere and mine started some 38 years and 8 months ago. most of my life has been a trial of sorts…not on the scale of many but still seems that way to me. i’m in the process of a second divorce…dealing with kids that are trying to adjust and still never seem to have time for myself.

currently, i lost my job in may and seperated at the same time…..not really through fault of my own on either case. The factory i worked at closed and all the jobs went to mexico or detroit (but these have since gone to mexico as well) and well on the personal front my husband (ex, i guess) and my 15 year old can’t get along to the point he never wants to see my daughter again. so basically he said either she goes of he does and well (whether he knows or not) he was never around…not for years so the choice was not a real choice and he is mad cause i chose her over him (go figure). anyways, this leads to today living on unemployment, which is about to run out, and hoping for the extension…since jobs are scarce here (and beleive me i have been looking) and even that is barely enough to pay the basic bills. so, all the credit card bills and car payment and everything is way behind.

just giving you the basis for where i am and where i am heading. on top of that i am unfit and overweight and have been for as long as i can remember, with not health insurance and no job i am on my own to do something about it. so i sit here today at 230lbs and no it is one of the few things i can control today. no, i’m not foolish enough to start this today as its christmas eve and stressful enough. but on january 1 i will be working on me and getting myself back on track not only with my weight (although that is a major part) but also with my life…finding a job, paying my bills, and hopefully not losing my car (which is kinda to the point that it can’t be avoided).

my resolutions and goals will come in the next few days as i reflect on the changes i would like to see come about before i turn 40.