I was contacted yesterday by one of my yoga instructors, who is also a massage therapist. We talked a little about the last 7 weeks of my “medical stuff”, and she must have heard the frustration in my voice. She invited me to her gentle yoga class, and following that,  suggested she give me a massage. Hmmm, I thought. I could make a million excuses out of fear, or I could take back some control over my health and give it a try. Certainly couldnt hurt. So I happily accepted her offer.  Bright and early this morning I took and hour long yoga class. Lots of slow movement, and gentle stretching. Then off for my massage. We must have talked for a couple of hours, before and after the massage. I left feeling empowered. I had never met her, only thru emails, and when she saw me, she asked how much had I weighed, as I had given her the impression I was much heavier. I found this interesting, as I hadnt known I was doing this. I am soo unhappy with my weight, I guess I have made it much bigger than it is. I never had told her my weight in pounds, but must have conveyed myself as a much heavier person.  WOW, talk about negative self image.                                                    I had a lot, I mean A LOT, of tension in my middle( thoracic) part of my back. She said there was a good chance, due to the muscles being so tight, they may have pulled my spine out of alignment. We all know the powers of STRESS. Again, found this extremely interesting, and very plausible.  I dont want to give up my power to heal myself. The medical field has yet to prove to me that their answers are any better. Their treatment takes an additional toll on my body. Makes you really think…….  She ended the session by sharing a few additional stretches I can do to loosen that part of my back up.  I plan to get a massage monthly. I owe it to myself, and I will resume my gentle yoga routine, as it really did help my mental health. I had an awesome day, and a day I would love to fill up weeks with. Today showed me where my life is going. I feel as if I am leading a double life at times, with a “regular job” that doesnt fulfill me, and a lifestyle that has been stuck in a very “normal” routine, with little interest.  I felt alive today, and I want to feel that much more often. As my yoga instructor said, my mind and my dreams are moving a little quicker than my body. All my dreams are coming together, but I need to make sure to give my body a chance to catch up. Next Friday I will be traveling w/ 2 of my yoga instructors to an inner city elementary school where we will introduce yoga to them. Should be quite exciting. Then in just a month, I will head up north( VT ) for my yoga retreat weekend.  Dont let fear stand in the way of your dreams. Believe and they will happen.