As I sit here, wondering what to write about, I am leaning to not writing at all. My last few weeks of health issues seem to be my topics, and not very motivating to others. Sadly, this is real for me, and it has occupied all of my thoughts. I havent really been eating any certain way. I have little appetite and I am taking an array of meds that have me really frustrated, because nothing is working.  Maybe I journal in the hopes of figuring it out myself, I dont know. The last couple of days I have been nausea ridden and dizzy. I was thinking it was my sinuses, but then today thought maybe it is my blood pressure. I am going to call the doctor in the morning, just to check my vitals. I am now sounding like a hypochondriac, and I’m not one. What a crazy roller coaster ride.  It’s time for the ride to be over. I have had quite enough, and cant take it anymore. My kids are home for vacation next week, and this is going to ruin it for them. I have to buy stamps, I have to grocery shop. Life stops if I dont get some of this stuff done. I am WILLING myself better. Tomorrow when I wake up, I WILL feel better. I have to.