Sunday, Day 69
I am taking a break from all the calculating of numbers. I am almost wondering if it has absolutely overwhelmed me. So no more calorie counting, no more protein/carb/fat % counting. Maybe the scale, but for the time being, I’m taking a break. NOW, this does not mean I am quitting. I gave what I was doing plenty of time, and I’m just not feeling it was a useful way to use my time. If I had seen better results, maybe, but…..I AM going to see the doctor. I’m going to my PCP (primary care physician) first, to see what he/she( it’s a large practice, and you never know who you will see) has to say. I also have a N.D.(naturopathic doctor) who I will also visit. I have to say, she always listens to what’s going on in my life b4 she even starts her visit. Sometimes she will treat anxiety, when I am complaining of something entirely different.The last visit I had with her was almost a year ago, so it’s time anyway. All her Rx’s are homeopathic, so I feel better about that. She had mentioned back then that my weight problem could be hormonal, but she wanted to keep that as a last resort, and we never got there. I am now wondering if maybe she was on to something. Everything else she recommended didnt work, and I was only a little successful on my own. I bet my PCP will give me a Rx for something. Tell me I’m depressed, run some blood work. They dont really listen to me. It seems they are “pushing” whatever new drug they were most recently updated on. There is no empathy, or concern. I feel like a customer in a fast food restaurant. “We’ll give you a #3, only take at night, then a #6, just in case. OH, you are allergic, we must have given it to you too many times. You cant have a #6 anymore then”. I do my own research, which I have done for 69 days now, and it’s almost humorous hearing what they have to say. I am a bit of a skeptic with doctors, you think????? I have found, I know what they will do b4 I even get there. So, here you read what I think they will do, and after my visit, I will elaborate.AGAIN, I am not giving up. I am just not happy with my current routine, and it isnt good for me to continue. I will find a new way, I promise myself that, and will certainly share it with all of you.This is not just a venting session, I am not like that. I have to find an alternative way, or I will at some point “throw in the towel”. This entry today is me proactively making choices to impact my life. I am doing what “I” need to do, to stay on the right path. Enjoy the rest of your weekend, and I welcome any and all comments. You have been with me a long time, and have to have read the frustration in the last few weeks. I am thrilled for all of you who are experiencing success each week, and I want to be a part of that celebration. I know each one of us has had a bad week, and how it impacts us. Well, I have had the last 3 weeks like that, and I cant do it anymore. It wears on my mental state of mind. I know I have a thinner, healthier body inside, and need to do what I need to do.
Enjoy your break Sandy. Please keep us updated!! I hope the doctors can help shed some light on what might be causing that weight to be so stubborn! Hope you have a great weekend.
Sandy, I know where you are coming from with feeling like its not working, you have made progress to this point and I would say the fact that you are not gaining means your doing something right. I think getting to basics may be a direction you can go in, don’t count the carbs/fat/protein etc just count the calories, I was having a conversation with my aunt about my weight loss and she has lost around 80 lbs counting calories, the subject of cadbury creme eggs came up and I told her that I didn’t want to eat them because I know they are bad for me and she said she never cut those things out she just kept them within her calories, (she did 1200 cals a day) and she does next to no exercise besides walking to the bus to go grocery shopping. in my humble opinion, I don’t believe in “miracle pills” either (Docs want you to believe they are needed) for the same reasons you don’t like them, its a sale and not YOUR best interest. whatever you choose to do keep us updated, and you know you have my support with whatever path you end up walking.
As Ever
Me
I agree. Calorie-counting is like the no-fail way of doing it! And, Botzz, remember that they make those mini Cadbury eggs that have 57 calories each!! You can fit one or two of those in any day!! You usually have at least that much leftover, silly!!
Sandy,
Tony’s right about the fact that you HAVE made progress up until now!! Even with your birthday and your daughter’s key lime pies….you’ve still lost 10 pounds! That’s great! And the fact that you’ve not gained any back does say that you’ve been staying on track! You know that we’ll be watching your blog….and hoping to see some updates!! Hope everything is going good for you today.
Robyn’s and Botozz’s words are so true, but I know what you mean about needing a break from the numbers. Sometimes I have a running total in my head that isn’t calories so much, but a count of my food groups, which worked for me in the past and was easy — you know….five servings of fruit and veg, so much protein (2) and so many carbs (4) as complex as possible, then 8 glassed of h20.
I’ve gotten away from that in recent weeks, and I’ve stalled, so I’ve started it again. Lucky you to have found a naturopathic doctor - I tried, but they’re not easy to find!
Sandy, I am with you on the thought that “Dr’s are just going to hand out the latest and greatest drug craze to you” I went to my PCP last year whining about my weight and she simply told me to do sugar busters and exercise. That was it. I wanted a magic pill though, so I then went off to the local Fat dr here and started taking diet pills. I did lose tons of weight but did nothing to change my perspective on exercise and food choices. So as soon as the pills were gone so was all hope for me — I gained everything back! UGH I was so mad.
I started back up on those diet pills at the end of December - I had a two month supply and used them to my advantage this time. I started doing the Atkins diet on the last round of pills and it helped me through all of my carb cravings.
I have seen that you have to find what works for you if you want it to work forever. A lot of people are not into low carbing but that is what works for me because it does - I couldn’t do what Tony and Robyn do because I have a huge appetite and would go crazy not eating tons of beef. BUT that is probably due to my thallessemia
anyhow - I think you should just do what works for you, which is exactly what it seems you are doing!!
keep us posted!
hey sandy,
can i have your email address? i’d like to chat.
if you’re interested, send me a quick note to
write2sher@gmail.com
I’m in the same boat with you babe…. NO MORE NUMBERS (at least for now) . Numbers mean math, and well, sometimes this is a right-brained effort, calculating in creativity, spirit, energy, motivation, all those things have zilch to do with numbers anyway. I believe the change is from your core Sandy. Believe me, you could have anything laid out before you, and if your core is straight and balanced, you will only allow the things into your mouth, and to take up your time which put you in deeper connection with your spirit core, not take from it. It’s a process we have our lives to work out, and you’re more than mid way in the porcess, so you’re above par. ah, yes, and totally the weight problem is hormonal… like you and the rest of us 46 year old girls !!!! Still , that doesn’t mean we can’t be healthy and not overweight, just maybe unrealistic to want to be vainly (stupidly) skinny, and re-establish what a ‘healthy weight’ feels like. When you feel it, you look it, and then feel it. Chicken egg syndrome, maybe, but it’s so true, eh? When you find it, weigh it, and call it. Even if it’s 188… whatever…. call it when it FEELS right. (that’s what I’m doing and realized that i probably don’t need to lose near as much weight as I had thought… what a relief to realize this!)
The medical people work for the drug companies now, I’m convinced. It seems the patient is made to feel unempowered … so that they depend on the M.D. and buy that pill. Perhaps in case of non-traditional medicine, it’s not so, but Sandy, even the homeopathics have to make their money somehow, and if your being unwell does that for them, ya gotta think about that . Not like teaching Yoga to PlusSized woman
( their health makes you your income). Yeah, ya gotta think about that. Believe in yourself, your ability to know what’s good. The doctors can help, but only you can heal. I know you know what to do.
May I suggest some long slow meditative walks? It shouldn’t agitate your sore pectoral, I’d think. Please , find this meditative rhythm and place for you… it is the right path.
I bet your library has Dr. Andrew Weil’s first book “Spontaneous Healing”. Will you do me a favor and see if it’s there? I loved it, it taught me SO MUCH about my innate ability to heal myself and stay healthy. The only thing I have yet to learn is the breathing techniques he strongly suggests….