I am pleased to say, the “funk” has passed. After reading all your comments, I felt so much better. Your continued support has been amazing, and as Botzz says, we are in this together. I feel that more today than ever. Robyn, you summed it up. We really do have quite a friendship, although having never met face to face. So thank you one and all.I am back on track re: food choices- shopped today, and am excited about my new food choices for the week. We are dog-sitting for a friends 2 labs( 1 chocolate, 1 yellow ) and I was outside over an hour hula hooping and playing with the dogs, my DH, and my 8 (will be 9 on Tues) son. I was moving the whole time.  The neatest thing about it was it didnt feel like exercise. My epiphany of the day re: exercise- for me, I dread exercise because it feels like work. Any time I hop on the recumbent bike , the one thing that is constant is time. The more I think about time, the slower it goes. Playing, literally, outside I didnt once think about how long had I been out there. The sun was shining, and although a little chilly, once I got moving I was fine. Exercise needs to be fun. I need to think more like when I was younger. I would leave the house in the morning, and only go home for meals. We would still be playing outside after dark in the warmer months.The hula hoop was fun, but I got a lot of practicing to do. I want to get my hands on a Footsie or Skip It. Does anyone remember those? A ring that goes around one ankle, and you swing it around, skipping over it? I loved mine. I am soo looking forward to spring time. I do believe being outside is going to change my activity levels for good.Well, I’m going to look online for a Footsie/Skip It now. But again, THANK YOU al for your kindness and support, today especially, but really every day.Have a great weekend. See you here tomorrow. 

I dont know how or why, but yesterday was one of those days I questioned why I was doing this. I guess not why, but was there a different way. I felt as if I was depriving myself of foods I loved and missed, and to say the least I was demonstrating bad choices towards the end of the day. I went over by 200 calories for the day. Not a big deal by itself, but it’s important for me to see if there was underlying reasons, which I believe there is. To date, I have lost 9 lbs. Not a bad number, but of course I would like it to be more. I dont feel like it’s working so much lately. I dont know if it’s my food choices, I dont know if it’s from lack of exercise. And yesterday, by 5pm, I just didnt care. I ate candy( not too much) and pizza( 3 slices) and didnt feel bad. Now today, I’m trying to get back in the saddle, so to speak, but the passion just isnt there again. Do I need to take the weekend off, gain back some weight, only to infuriate me more? No. I just dont know where I’m going with this. I am so proud of the rest of you for your strength and persistence, yet I cant see the light. I dont want to beat myself up, I just want the last 40 days of a routine to mean something. I guess I’m eating better, but I really dont feel much better than when I was 9 lbs heavier. I need a sign. I want to feel better. Maybe the scale isnt the best way for me to see results. Maybe the scale is going to take some time.  Could these feelings be stress related? Maybe. Certainly I am  frustrated in other area’s of my life. I’m not giving up, I’m just trying to work thru this for some answers.  Please, if anyone has a secret to their success, or know’s magic( lol ), or some real life encouragement, I’m all ears.Will probably add to this tonight, so see how my day went.What a FUNK I’m in.  Ggrrrrrrrrrrrrr………………