I did not weigh in today- I dont want to see a gain, and I anticipate it might be. Denial… it really does work!!!Just kidding. I think I will weigh in tomorrow morning. I was going to wait til next Friday, but really want to stay on schedule.   So I will definitely post my scale results in the AM.  Work today went really well. I had some training in the morning, got my desk assigned, but still no computer access. Hopefully on Monday.  Did some additional training in the afternoon and am really excited about it!!! I wore my pedometer from when I left the house this morning til I got home at 5:30 and I walked 1.47 miles, burning 156 calories. Drank all my water, and ate really well. Heavier on the carbs today, but not bad ones.I think we will have fish, although breaded, for dinner with another huge helping of broccoli. I have left over calories again today, so I will treat myself to a low cal dessert.I will catch up with you tomorrow for weigh in. Thanks for reading. 

Hi everyone- Missed you today!!Thanks for all the great comments- That was the first thing I did when I got home.Work was great. Always great to be in a place where you are well liked, know what I’m sayin? I was able to get my phone up and working but no computer yet. Took 2 courses in the new area I will be working in- more refresher, as I use to do this type of job with another company. Also sat in on 2 classes, that are rolling out a new computer system company wide.  I’m trying to land a desk close to a window- I have to be strategic, and it looks like it’s working. Working for 8 hrs did actually poop me out. Toward the end of the day, I wanted to nap. lol  Food wise- Breakfast was a small banana and my protein drink, I ate a large salad I made from the grocery store for lunch , had a yogurt( 100 cals) in the afternoon. Some(9) rice cake snacks on the drive home. Plenty of water, then shrimp cocktail for DH and I, and a porterhouse steak, broiled, with a heaping pile of broccoli. Definitely got my protein today. Left the table comfy and satiated.I still have left over calories( like 400)  and may have a little( 100 cals) dessert later.  If I can repeat my intake, minus the blue cheese dressing (but boy was it good) I will be much happier. I feel good after that meal. I did walk a lot at work. Just inside around the building, but none the less, it was walking. I should wear my pedometer, and just see how far I go.  Not sure how weigh in will go tomorrow, but after todays food choices, I can hope for better numbers next week.  Thanks again blog friends.  Hope you all had a great day! 

I received the phone call today- work is  a GO for tomorrow.  I am grateful and want to get into some sort of routine. My food routine has been consistent, yet it is carb filled. I know I have to UP my protein, as I really believe this will help. I have just about finished up the carb things in the house that were “mine” and will shop today.  I snuck a peek on the scale today and it was up over 1 lb. I havent gone over in calories, so my next guess is the lack of protein. I am going to up the protein for the next 2 days, and see how it affects my Friday weigh in. If it does, I have temporarily found my answers. Does anyone have any suggestions how to get more creative with veggies? Just down the road from my job, a new grocery store just opened. I need to find out if they have a salad bar. That would help at lunch- I do eat a big portion of veggies with dinner.  I am going for lean meat and veggies for dinner for a while- no starchy carbs. I have stretched my boundaries with potatoes and rice lately, so I have to wean them out for a while. I think I eat them mainly for the “full” feeling I get anyway. I’ll have to work on that. Well, must run my errands on my last day home. Looking forward to tomorrow, yet a bit anxious for such a change. Change is good, so I’m optimistic. Catch up with you later. Thanks for your comments. 

Just a quick entry for the day. I am on track food wise- I had soup for lunch, and baked chicken, mashed potatoes( a little) and mixed veggies for dinner. Simple dinner, but tasty. I am still feeling like my birthdays meals have put a cramp in my week, although no regrets.  I have stayed away from the scale for that reason. Weigh in Friday, and we’ll see how it goes. I think I am like a lot of people who have mentioned in their blogs- there is a time where I am almost overwhelmed with daily thoughts of this. It’s not that they have been bad thoughts, but almost obsessing over it. This week, I am trying to just get thru it. I have less motivation, but think I may have just needed a break on the self induced pressures. I am following basic guidelines i have had in place, so other than Sunday, have not strayed at all. I will be happy to know I have secured the job( once the foolish background check is complete) and the custody court stuff is finalized. It’s a lot to carry sometimes, and my focus gets redirected from time to time. Im fine- no worries. Glad life is what it is. I feel very lucky to have all these things falling into place as it appears they are. I thank all of you who visit my blog and share in my journey. See you here tomorrow.

No work yet- still waiting on the background check. I figured I’d get into the habit of writing after dinner, as this will be the norm once I do start working. I most likely wont have access to the blogs from work, and as I sit here thinking about that, it makes me a little sad. Y’all have been with me daily for 49 days. You are my buddies. I can always rely on your humor and support, suggestions and idea’s, even stories. So although this isnt goodbye,  I’m feeling a little separation anxiety. Am I making any sense? Well, I promise to visit every night. I will tell you my working tales of whoa, and how I’m trying to juggle and balance all that I have going on. I dont think I had had a full appreciation of my time home til now, knowing it’s all about to change-The good things about going back to work- well, for sure the money. It will be nice to dress up and get out and be around other people.  I will have great benefits, and lots of time off. I will be contributing to my household in a different way. I will surrender some of my stay at home duties to the DH, and that will be refreshing.  Change is good. Well onto day 49.I ate well today. I still feel like I ate too much yesterday- kind of lethargic.  Not that I ate too much, but in the wrong combinations.  I will get thru it. Lots of water to flush the fat out. I played outside with my son after school today. It was beautiful out, and time with him is always fun. We Hula’d and he got a remote control Monster Jeep( Birthday) that he was having a blast with. I dont believe I will be working tomorrow, as I havent received a call and it’s 7pm. So, maybe I can get some extra activity in tomorrow. My son wants to play football. I explained I would pass with him, but no tackle for me. I think I may enroll him in a football league- I struggle with the contact sports- Is he at an age where this is a good decision? I’d like him to do Tai Chi- lol. He has volunteered to be my helper when I finally do teach a yoga class. I thought that was sweet. Alright gang- as Rachael Ray says” I’ll see ya when I see ya”. 

I will keep this short- I have decided not to  track my calories for the day. It is a day to enjoy, and not worry about what or what not to eat. We did just get back from an early dinner- and my fried clams were delicious! I left most of the fries, and did eat most of my coleslaw. Lemonade for my beverage! My sweet sweet DH gave me a Pandora bracelet! I had wanted one, and I LOVE it! My children will be home at 7pm, but all 3 kids called me earlier today with their wishes. What a great day.  So back on track tomorrow, but I will enjoy my slice of cheesecake later, and not worry about calories for the day.  I think Robyn summed it up today. WE cant burden ourselves with too many rules and regulations, or it just isnt fun anymore.   If this is for a lifetime, then I can celebrate my birthday with no regrets. Love you guys! Thanks for all your well wishes. My birthing day has been AWESOME!

Late entry today- getting ready to venture out into the white winterland- looks like 5-7 inches of snow fell yesterday and a little more this morning. I havent really started the higher protein, cause I have to shop. May put off for a week or so , as money is tight til my first paycheck. Plus, it will give me an excuse to clean out the cabinets. Nothing bad in them, really need to eat what I have already purchased. I’m still waiting for the “GO” to start work on Monday. They are doing a background/criminal check-  the drug test came back fine, so it’s a hurry up and wait scenerio.I have been reading my yoga books. Great reading. So wonderful starting a job on the right foot. I am a different person going back to the old place of employment. See if anyone notices…ok, well, rambling about nothing, so I’ll finish up for now. My B-Day tomorrow. DH has something planned. Hopefully fried clams at Lenny and Joe’s!!!!! My children will be home around 7pm, so it will be a nice day all around!  :–)  

Carbs/Proteins/Fats - 46/22/33 Average calories per day- 1350   Lost 2 lbs this week. I am going to try and swing the Proteins higher than the Carbs this coming week. Fats are in line with the book I am reading. Need to make sure they are the good fats though  (nuts/avacado/oils/dairy) Looking forward to my progress.

196- 2 lbs this week. Woo Hoo! Back on track! As I mentioned in previous entries, I have been tracking my Carbs/Proteins/Fats- I definitely believe there is a correlation to this ratio and weight loss. I have been on a mission. That is probably understating my mission. I am a person that hates the unknown- I need answers, NOW, damn it. So along with my needing knowledge, I am excessively impatient. Great combination, huh? Well, for me, yes, cause I am optimistic I will find the answers, and it keeps me going. I bought a book yesterday, “The Metabolic Typing Diet” , and spent hours reading, and taking a test to identify my type. It’s something I have been researching for years. Does anyone remember “Eat Right For Your Blood Type”? I have been writing about increasing my protein, over my carbs and if this book is correct, so am I. I am a Protein Type. I am to eat higher amounts of proteins and good fats, and lower amounts of carbs. The reason being, I metabolize thru carbs way to quickly, causing additional hunger and cravings. It all makes complete sense to me. I tried it the other day(see my blog entry) and my weight had been stagnant. Two days later, I dropped 2 lbs. I might be onto to something. It’s a great book. It really talks about individuality, and that no one program will work for everyone. Even with their program, he highly recommends listening to your body. I have to find the right balance for me. So , I will continue on my journey- feeling much better having seen a 2 lb weight loss. I am going to give this metabolic way a chance, and see if I notice a change in not only weight loss, but my emotional and physical state. I have been lethargic and wonder if it’s from lack of significant protein.   Stay tuned for new discoveries………..  

Well, ran my errands this morning. Car running great, engine light went off. As if nothing was ever wrong. Do I thank my blessings or just replace everything? My new job is a good 30 minutes away, so I dont want to run into trouble. Had to go have a “drug test” this morning, for the new job. Just got home and need to get me some lunch. I’m hungry.  Started reading my Yoga training book. Every word of it resonates, which just confirms I have made the right choice. I’m thrilled with the start of all things new. My weight??? Dont know. We’ll see tomorrow. I dont think much has happened this week either. I cant wait for the warmer weather. I am feeling like a prisoner in my own home. I am glad to be going back to work. Will be great to get back, and plenty of places to walk at lunch. I’m going to keep this short, but will probably add to this later.